Thursday, October 30, 2003
omg, i feel so horrible, yet excited at the same time! I don't know what to think! Jeannette is at the taping of the American Idol Christmas special right now!!!!! which means that she might meet Clay at I might get to talk to him! But at the same time, i feel like crap. She's done so many cool stuff and im stuck here. Nothing good happens here. I can't go to see tapings of anything, I can't meet famous people cuz im stuck here in this hell they call a town. I just wanna get out of here!!!! There is so much more oppertunity for me in California where I've wanted to be since I was in 9th grade. I just feel like breaking down and crying. I can't stand it here anymore. I wish I lived someplace fun and exciting. Honestly, the first chance I get, I'm moving to California. And in 10 months, My dad can't stop me no matter how much he wants to because I'll be legal age. UGH! i'm so mad! California is where I belong. I can tell before i even go there. Theres celebrities everywhere, and I love celebrities as you all know. I wanna meet Clay and Drew Carey. I wanna be on TV and be a celebrity, not just stare at them. I wanna just go and live a little. You can't live here. The only "exciting" thing around here is 50 Cent moved here. Whoop-de-doo. He's just so great. ::rolls eyes:: UHGH! i FRICKIN HATE IT HERE!!!!! AHHHH!!!! i just wanna tare this place off the map!!! I don't understand why we couldn't have stayed in Arizona. I love it there. I just love the West in general. It's warm and the people are so much more friendly. They're in their own little world, tahts for sure. LOL. And I think tahts why a lot of people hate me. I have the mind-set of someone in the south cuz i lived there for 2 years and it jsut never left me. Thats why a lot of people think I'm completely insane. I have like 3 real friends and the rest hate me. I can't even say I have 3 friends cuz who knows who will turn their back on me next. I can already think of some that might. I think Alix pretty much has. I've tried to get together with her, but nothing seems to be working. and of course she doesn't call me. Thats so sad. I've been her friend since i was 3 years old. And now it's like we don't know each other at all. She barely says "hi" to me anymore. Erin is totally gone. I don't even care about her anymore. I'm planning on writing her a letter over Christmas vacation when I know she's home from college, and if she doesn't answer that, Im not calling or writing to her ever again. I know she doesn't give a rat's @$$ about me anymore though. I don't know why I'm even bothering. I'm so sorry to everyone about this crappy thing. I just can't really rant anywhere else. My parents don't even give a crap. Everytime I say something like "everyone hates me at school" which is true, they're like "no they don't". They don't believe me. I just feel like saying "Well, why don't you take a walk with me durring the school day sometime and see how many people I talk to durring the day"...4! Katie, Rae, Kristin and Lauren (when she's at school). anyways. i guess ill go watch whose line untill it's time for bed. Ciao.
posted by Lauren 10/30/2003 10:34:00 PM
"La chiefa policia no dispatcha gendarme. Morono, no respondo no excusa, la bagga doucha!"
- Adam Sandler (Opera Man)
posted by Lauren 10/30/2003 04:42:00 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Yes, Yes, Yes, I know. I havent' updated and yadda, yadda, yadda, yackity, shmakity. This will probably be short because I don't exactly have all the time in the world.
Like the Creed pictues?! They're AWESOME!
I downloaded the clip of the Wayne Brady show that Clay was on yesterday. :-D He's sooooo cute! Did I ever say that?! LOL.
I was thinking of putting my page up for a review, but then I thought it would NEVER be a good one. I never use proper grammer and the review people don't like that at all. and let's face it, my lay-outs aren't interesting at all. They're pretty much plain.
Speaking of Lay-outs, I added a pixel cam to my "my stuff" side of the page. If you scroll down to the bottom you'll see it. IT's supposed to represent what i'm doing at that moment....well, when i have the time to make a new picture it says what i'm doing. I'm gonna be adding a bunch of new stuff in the next couple days to get ready for the official countdown of Clay's birthday! yay! ::cheers::
Oh, umm...Mike...if you're reading this...um..I sorta had this assignment in english class to take the Pow-Wow and write a "dear editor" letter about one of the articles and uh...::cough:: i sorta...opposed one of your articles....yeah. that was before i knew they were actually being published...SORRY! don't hurt me!!! :''( (it was the article about the backpacks)
Lauren hasn't been at school for a while...I think she was absent thursday and friday and she hasn't been at school all week so far. I hope she's alright...I wanna call her, but at the same time, I don't wanna bother her if she's really sick or something...
Anyways. Thats all the time we have for today. Tune in next time when Lauren talks about how she failed the psychology test she has tomorrow because of lack of interest in the subject.
Ciao!
"Blue. Is the ocean in your eyes. Blue is cool September skys. As the lonely water falls.
Red. Is the fire in your heart. For the passion and love that we make as the sunset is fading away. Angel, heaven starts here tonight in your eyes while I drown in your body get lost in your charms, now that your hear, angel don't go, let's keep the mood nice and slow. All I want is your touch..."
posted by Lauren 10/29/2003 04:40:00 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2003
yeah. i just typed a whole entry and it got deleted somehow. im not typing it agian. sorry.
posted by Lauren 10/25/2003 10:57:00 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Yeah, I've been pretty careless about updates huh? Today is Tuesday and I ahven't updated since Saturday. Oh well. I changed my current desktop background if u all wanna check that out. I also got my pictures with Colin and Brad developed :) :) :). Theone I took durring the show didn't come out too good, but the others were great! But i didn't realize that it's so expensive to get pictures developed at the mall...it cost me 10 bucks! for just singles! I could ahve gone to CVS and ogten doubles for onle 2 dollars more if i wanted! But, i don't want doubles.
Today I stayed home from school. I'm not sick or anything, there was just no point on going. See, i get out at 12:30 every day and today everyone except the seniors are taking tests, so the seniros didn't have to go in untill 11:00. If I went, I would only have 3 classes, and one of them is a free period, and another is guitar class! the other class is english, but we never do anything in that class anyways. So, i talked my dad into calling me out sick today. It would really have been pointless to go.
Today I get my pictures that i took from Sears. I hope they came out good. I dunno though, I wasn't terribly thrilled with them when i saw them on the computer at the store. They're probably good, i just never like pictures of myself. Im not photogenic at all. I always look like a marshmellow in pictures.
Ugh. I gatta work latter. That friggin sucks! But, it's only for 4 hours. Then I work tomorrow from 3-8. JOY.
well, as long as im home and i got some time, i think im gonna go work out or something.
Ciao :)
Peace, Love, and Clay Aiken.
"I survived the crash, survived the burn, survived the worst yeah baby but I learned. Survived the lies survived the blues. It almost killed me but i survived the truth. And when you wrote me off like I was doomed, I survived you."
posted by Lauren 10/21/2003 12:16:00 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2003
I've been putting off updating so Martin could see his message i wrote. which pretty much only consisted of "HELLO!". But ya know what? he can scroll down to see it. He said he was gonna visit here on Friday. No clue if he did or not, but oh well. sign my tagboard dude!!!
...gatta go check the baseball scores...brb...YES! FLORIDA'S UP BY 1!!! let's keep it together guys!!! Beat those %$#@%^* Yankees!!!!!
I'm tempted to call my dad. Well, call Denise's cell phone and talk to my dad. I dunno why really. Just to bother him when he's supposed ot be having a good t ime in Maine. LOL. Hey, he left the house SOOOOOO cold. I gatta do someting to get him back :). But i did get a body pillow from WalMart today! It's soooo awesome! it's fleece! it's blue so it matches my comforter too :) :) :).
I still gatta get those pictures developed of Colin and Brad!!!! I WILL finish the film tommorrow. I WILL. I swear. I don't care If i have to take pictures of street signs, I WILL finish that film. I'll take pictures of the patch tomorrow. I gatta walk though cuz my daddy aint home!!! it's okay, I'll bring my CLAY cd with me!!!!! heheehehehe!!!!!! sorry. I'm babbling like nothing else. I just had about 24 ounces of Caffine. And that isn't my total for today. I had a soda for lunch, dinner, then a 24 once at work. LOL ::YIPPEEEE!!!!:: It's like when Mike has choclate covered expresso beans ;).
Anyways. im getting distracted so im not gonna type anymore. Ciao!
"Every place you go, everybody knows shadows fall across the sun sometimes. Shine."
posted by Lauren 10/18/2003 11:08:00 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
Every night I say I'm going to get to bed earlyer. So far, it just hasn't happend. Nope. I wanted to get to bed at 10 tonight, but no, im sitting here typing this entry at exactly that time. I've been occupied doing something.
I'm such a freak. I listened to Clay's CD 7 times today. seven. LOL. I can't help it. It's so awesome!
So far, The Yankees are losing the 7th game of the series. haha. boo hoo. I'm crying. really. NOT! I actually can't stand the Yankees, or the Red Socks. I wish niether one of them had to be in the world series. oh well. The good thing is, Clay is singing the National Anthem at game 1 of the world series. and thats in New York! He'll only be 2 hours away from me :) :). I wish I could go to the game, but the tickets are MAD expensive.
In other news....
I gave Martin (a dude in my acting class who i'm working with right now) the address to this page. So, if you're reading this now....HI MARTIN!!! Welcome! Have a look around! :)~
Expect to see a new Lay-out soon :) just a few more kinks to work out.
I really wanna watch Anger Management again. I swear, I get withdrawls when i don't watch it for a certain amount of time. I started watching it yesterday, but didn't get very far. maybe i'll watch it tomorrow night. Jack Nicholson is SOOOO funny.
::makes note:: must tape Clay on The View and The Early Show tomorrow....::repeats in head:: LOL.
G'night everyone!
Peace, Love, and Clay Aiken.
"I am nothing without you...just a shadow passing through"
posted by Lauren 10/16/2003 10:20:00 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
"Would he walk on water?, would he run through fire?, would he stand before you when it's down to the wire? would he give up his life to be all he can? Is that, Is that how you measure a man?"
OMG. I Love Clay. His CD is so amazing. I LOVE IT! My favorite song is "Measure of a Man", which is also the title of the album. (the above quote is from the song) I also really like "Invisible" (which i've heard 10,000 times,) and "I will Carry You". Me and Lauren were jamming to it durring guitar class today. LOL. I've listened to it like 200 times already. My boss was laughing at me yesterday cuz I came in to work and I showed her my CD, and before i put it back in my bag, i kissed it ( ;) ) and she's like, "Everyone, don't worry about her, she's in love with Clay Aiken". LOL! I got the People magazine with Clay in it too. The pics are REALLY good. Theres one of him as a little kid at the beach and he's wearing these really small striped swim trunks. LOL! isn't that cute?! Theres also a picture of him as raggity anne on haloween! hehe!!!!
Clay is doing a solo tour next year!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! i can't wait!!!!!!!!!
Today I saw a 3D movie with my dad. It was very short, but very cool!. :).
alrighty, Im gonna go watch Clay on Good Morning America that I taped. Ciao!
"When the world breaks down, and the voices tell you turn around, when your dreams give out, I will carry you...carry you. when the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes, when you're falling behind, I will carry you".
posted by Lauren 10/15/2003 02:45:00 PM
Monday, October 13, 2003
TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY!!!!! CLAY AIKEN's CD IS FINALLY OUT!!!!!!!!! YAHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I'm making my mom go up to Best Buy right when they open to get it for me. LOL. She has the day off, so I might as well make use of it somehow! LOL. it's better than taking a chance that they'll be sold out by 1:00 when I'd be able to get there by if I walked there after school.
Tomorrow I have to go to my guidence counseller with a "list of schools" guess what? I don't ahve one! LOL! smart one huh? I shouldn't even bother though, all she's gonna do is rat me out and say that im a frickin idiot anyways. So, wahts the point right? All she's done my entire 4 years is nothing but piss me off. She's been absolutly no help what-so-ever. All she does is bother me and make my life miserable.
Anyways. Time for Whose Line.
Peace, Love, and Clay Aiken
posted by Lauren 10/13/2003 09:53:00 PM
101 facts about me
posted by Lauren 10/13/2003 07:10:00 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2003
Ive been wating to post this picture for the longest time. But I got it from the Goo Goo Dolls website and Im not sure if it's copyrighted or what-not....Oh well. Sorry Goos if you're reading this right now! I hope they don't hunt me down abomut it. LOL, But look!!!! It's 2 out of my 4 favorite things!!!!!
posted by Lauren 10/12/2003 09:33:00 PM
Ugh.
I talked to Jeannette last night and we both um...."found" something interesting on Yahoo last night that was ::cough:: interesting information...so, that made me feell better. In case you all don't know, Jeannette was picked to me in Clay's video for "Invisible". :) ::CHEERS::!!!!!
She said she got within a yard of him. LUCKY @$%&*%$#!!!! LOL. If you wanna know more, click on her name and check out her diaryland diary. But I still don't know how much I'll be updating or what-not. I don't think I'm closing this page completely though. Yesterday I had my mouse arrow on the "delete blog" button ready to delete everything, But I just couldn't get my self to do it. My lay-out and my hours of hard work making this thing would be completely gone. I couldn't do it. I also watched alot of Whose LIne last night, so of course, thats gonna make me feel better. Im planning on getting my pictures developed of Colin and Brad tomorrow. Hopefully, I'll finish my film today. I'm gonna take picture of the pumpkin patch and my youth group peoples latter on. I don't think the one hour photo thing is open today, so I'm gonna go bright and early tomorrow morning if I finish the film today. (NO SCHOOL!! YAHOOO!) I have like 10 pictures left. I Think I can finish that. :).
ON a side note, I might inveset in an electric guitar. I really enjoy playing it. Im starting to learn the Goo Goo Dolls song Acoustic #3.
Another side note, I mentioned to Jeannette that Clay would sound good singing a Savage Garden song called "Carry on Dancing". and as it turns out, savage Garden wrote one of the songs on his CD :). I know, I'm too good.
I also made a melody on my cell phone so now it plays "This is the Night" when it rings :). CLAY'S CD COMES OUT IN 2 DAYS!!!!!! My mom has the day off, so I'm making her go to Best Buy RIGHT at 10:00 when they open to get it for me :) :) :) :) :). YAHOOOO!!!!!!! anyways. im gonna go. now. Ciao.
CLAY AIKEN RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted by Lauren 10/12/2003 10:35:00 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
This is the post that I really don't want to publish. But, I may be closing this page. Im not in a good place right now. It's mostly mental problems that I have to deal with and get over. Im just so angry and frustrated with myself right now. Im not sure if I'm going to close this page or not, but I probably won't be posting a lot of stuff when I update. Im also not planning on getting or sending many IM's. I"m probably gonna have an away message up most of the time. For those of u who know my cell phone#, home#, Screen name, Or e-mail address, feel free to contact me. I'll be glad to talk with you. but I just don't feel like dealing with a lot of crap right now. Thank u all for understanding.
posted by Lauren 10/11/2003 06:56:00 PM
Friday, October 10, 2003
URGH!! FOR CRYING OUT LOUD PEOPLE, CLAY IS NOT (i repeat) NOT GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I seriously HATE it when people say that even joking. It's not funny to tease someone like that. And it's not fair to judge someone based on how they act and talk and what-not. It's definatly not fair. You can't tell if somone is gay like that. He isn't gay!!! Incase you all don't know, Clay admitted that he does have feminine qualities, like he likes to make sure that he's clean and neat and all that. So, does that make him gay?!?!? NO!!!!! He said that's because he was raised mostly by his mother and grandmother. I mean, look at me! I was pretty much raised by my father and I'm a tomboy! I act more like a guy than a girl! so, it is definatly believeable because I"m in the same situation as him. Not that people think I'm gay, but I do act more like a guy than a girl. urgh...Im so angry. Like 10 people ahve told me that Clay is gay today and I'm so sick of it!!!!!!! He's not Gay!!!! and it's not a matter of your opinion that he's gay or not. So don't be saying "It's my opinion that he's gay" cuz thats bull $hit. Its a fact people. You can't have an opinion if someone is gay or not, you have to have the facts. He also said that a lot of people think he's gay because they don't know what else to do with him. I mean, he doesn't smoke, or drink, or party, or have sex with every girl he sees, so they just say to them selves "Well, if he's not any of those, he must be gay" It's like they have no other category to put him in so they just say that. I'm sorry if I'm pissing anyone off, but im very sensitive about these things. My best friend's mom is gay and my best friend is bi, i have like 3 other friends taht are gay and I just hate when people judge like that. Im so sick of it. And especially with the ammount of love and support I have for Cay, it's unfair to go making judges like that about him. if u wanna make judges like that, heres a tip: Dont tell me about it. Keep it to yourself cuz I sure don't wanna hear it. I know how if feels to be judged, believe me. I've had people say the crulest, most horrible things to me based on how i dress and act and I can't stand it when i see other people getting it done to them. it's the most painfull thing one can go through. I've been called a cross-dresser, and a piece of $hit more times than you've breathed in your life. I had NO (i repeat) Absolutly NO friends in 7th grade because of the horrible things people were saying about me. Not even one friend. not a single one. imagine going through 180 days staying silent and saying nothing to anyone. NO ONE. I've had people say some serious un-forgiving stuff to me and it's not fun. So if you give a damn about anyone else in this world and their feelings, don't do it.
Like I said, I'm sorry if I'm pissing anyone off right now. Im so angry .
posted by Lauren 10/10/2003 09:38:00 PM
LOL, today was great. Well, school wasn't great, but ya know. The rest of it has been great.
Well, actually something funny happend in school today. me and Lauren were in math class and we were taking a quiz. When we finished we both turned our papers over. Then Lauren says to me, "I'm about to write "Clay Aiken Rules" on my quiz and hand it to him". Then I just start laughing, but then I think about it and I go, "hey, I will if you will!" and she goes "okay!" so we both wrote "Clay Aiken Rules!" at the bottom of our quizes! LOL!! And she was drawing pictures of Clay on the back of her homework and stuff. LOL, too funny. When I got home, me and my dad went over to a dealership to look at Corvettes. The whole showroom was full of them! I saw a really nice used one outside. It was a '79 with factory paint (yellow) and only 29,000 miles on it! I wanted to find out how much it was....My dad said about 20,000. (keep in mind that Corvette's hold their value very well.) Me and my dad are agreeing on the 2004 Electronic Blue Metallic one we saw. I can't remember if it was a Z06 or not. But REALLY beautiful. I want it!!!!!!! Too bad I don't have $58,000.
Now im just waiting for my mom to come get me. I have no idea what we're doing tonight.
4 days till Clay's CD comes out!!!!!! 4 DAYS!!!! WHOOO!!! ::CHEERS:: Speaking of Clay, I saw his interview last night on Primetime. It was so good. I mean, really good. IT was more serious than his other interviews though. But OMG, it was sad. At least some of it. Im not going into detail because omg, it's just so sad. It's all stuff dealing with his "sperm donor". ( he doens't consider him his father...long story which i'm sure all the Claymates reading this already know so i'm not gona explain it.)
My dad still thinks that he's gay. HE'S NOT! He even said it!!!!
Anywhoo. im gonna go. Ciao!
Randomness for the day:
Whoser413: hello
l e b a n a s: someone just imed me and said the smae thing.
Whoser413: lol- what are the odds?
posted by Lauren 10/10/2003 03:03:00 PM
Monday, October 06, 2003
WOW! more good news!!! I submited the painting i did of Clay to Clayaikenfan.com and they put it on the website!!!! how cool is that!!!! :) :)
posted by Lauren 10/06/2003 02:00:00 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2003
Well Folks, the verdict is in.......I MET COLIN MOCHRIE AND BRAD SHERWOOD!!!!!!!!!! I had the time of my life last night. I really did. Its what i've been waiting for since I started watching Whose Line when I was 11. Colin Mochrie has always been one of my heros and I finally got a chance to meet him and talk to him. Okay, heres how it all happend:
The show was really great! histerical in fact. Ours seats were AWESOME! the balcony goes all around the theature instead of just a small section in the back.We were on the right side in the second row. If we were on the floor, it would have been like having maybe 10th row seats. We were just up higher. Me and Katie knew that we had to make a quick get-away to get out of the theatre in time to get to the backstage door where their limo was. So, we stood up and went towrds the stairs to get down from the balcony. Brad started a game where Colin had to leave the theatre cuz he was supposed to guess what was going on when he came back. So, he left the theatre. As soon as we saw this, we kinda acted casually and went down the stairs and jsut pretended that we were going to the bathroom or something. We get down the stairs, and We don't see him at first. Then, we walk over alittle ways and I look in the doorway, and there he is!!!!! He was talking to someone else when I saw him. Some lady, I have no idea if she was a worker or whatever, but I just kinda paced around back and forth near the door way. My heart was beating sooooo fast. Finally, after a little while, i just shyly made my way close to the doorway, and just kinda stood there looking like a ussual idiot, and finally he saw me!! I just kinda waved a little and said "hi!" then walked up to him. The first thing I said was "I've been waiting since I was 11 years old to meet you and I'm 17 now." He just said "wow!" I talked to him for a little while and took a picture with him. :) :) :). I also gave him a copy of the CD I wrote and I said, "i know it's not very good, but it was my first time attempting to write anything" and he said "Well, first times can amount up to bigger things". Isn't that sweet? :) and I said "I hope so!". He asked us why we weren't watching the show and we said "cuz we knew you were gonna be out here!" :) :). The funny thing was the lady he was talking to asked him where he was from, and me and Colin both said "Toronto" at the same time! Then he had to get back in the theatre and finish the game. I wonder if he actually ever listened to my CD or is planning on it at any time. I hope he didn't just chuck it in the garbage when he went back into the theatre. LOL. Anyways, we stood in the same spot and watched the rest of the show so we could make a quick get-away to the back stage door. the second the show was over, BOOM! we were gone. We ran outside and around the building and sure enough, their limo was right in the same place Wayne's was. so we wait around a few more people show up. They came out a lot quicker than wayne did. They were out within like 10 minutes. As soon as Brad and Wayne get out, the mob rushes them. LOL, actually, it wasn't a mob, it was more like 10 people. Me and Katie were waiting our turn to get autographs. I got Brad's autograph, (i already have Colin's cuz I got a picture in the mail from him) and I took a picture with Brad. and I took pictures of Katie with both of them too. When I went up to Brad, I said "hi!, I don't know if you remember me or not, But you called me on stage at the Bushnell to do sound effects." He just said "oh yeah! the Bushnell! that was a while ago!" So, I'm not sure if he remembered me or not, But still taking a picture with him was amazing. and, he was wearing a black leather jacket...::thud::. LOL. Ya know waht I was shocked at? They both smoke. I had no idea. I know Ryan smokes, and I know Greg smokes. Drew might smoke. I know he has before, but Im not sure if he still does. I wasn't expecting either one of them to be smokers. So, then they went back inside and I yelled "bye!!!!!" at them, and Brad said "bye" back. LOL. yay!!! i can't wait to get my pictures developed!!!!!! Im gonna try to use my film up quick. I only took one picture durring the show. I wanna see if it came out! Oh man, what a great night, I met two of my heros! I hope they come back again. Or SOMEONE come back again. I hope Greg comes aorund here. That would RULE cuz I heard he's REALLY nice.
Now we're about to go to Denise's house, So i better publish this and get goin'. Ciao!
posted by Lauren 10/05/2003 04:12:00 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
Today is a special day :)....HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREG PROOPS!!!!!!!
I'm listening to Elvis right now. LOL "A little less conversation" to be exact. I LOVE this song!!!!! ::dances:: I could have it on repeat all day.
Erica is quitting Papyrus. She got a new and better job. I'm glad for her but it sucks for me. Now Rhonda is thinking of qutting too. Erica has inspired us all to quit! LOL. Im gonna try like hell to get a better job. I HATE IT THERE! and with Erica gone, It'll be even worse. She's the only sane one in that store. Her last day is next Friday. ::cries:: I need a new job! anyone know where i can get one?
TWO Days till COLIN MOCHRIE AND BRAD SHERWOOD!!!!!!!
anyways. that it for today. I don't feel like updating anymore. Especially since theres nothing to talk about
posted by Lauren 10/02/2003 09:45:00 PM
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