Lauren's Blog

Friday, December 31, 2004

 

(just a side note, I know this lay-out sucks. I'm planning on re-doing it in the next couple days)

I need something good to happen to me for once. I'm just surrounded by bad shit and I can't take it anymore. Well, I think I just lost Travis and Nate both as friends. I don't think I'll be able to talk to Nate anymore after what happend last night. Which is total bullshit. We're not mad at eachother, we haven't even talked in a while, like I said before, but shit happend and I don't think I'll be talking to him anymore. That sucks big time. I really like Nate. We always had really funny conversations and he was always nice to me. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. All my "friends" have ran from me in one way or another. Whether it was their choosing or not. I guess I shouldn't even bother trying to make friends anymore.

I don't know anymore. I just don't know. If I have one friend left by the time I'm 20 it'll be a miracle.

posted by Lauren 12/31/2004 11:04:00 AM

Monday, December 27, 2004

 

Damn, last night was interesting. I talked to Wayne for a good 2 hours. LOL. About Everything from football, to baseball, to insulting each other back and forth (playing of course), to other stuff you probably don't wanna know about. LOL. He's really fun to talk to. LOL- we've had some interesting conversations in the past too. Heh, he's a cool dude ^_^.

Work sucked yet again today...but not as much as normal. I opend with Claudia and didn't have to see Cat, so that was a jump in the right direction. I think reality is starting to sink in w/ Rebeckah about all the crap that Cat is pulling. ::Evil laugh:: Im just PRAYING that I get the stockroom job...I'd Love that more then anything....well, not anything, but that'd be so much better then dealing with customers all the time...At least I'd be able to escape.

Tomorrow it's off to Mohegan Sun w/ my mom. Should be pretty fun. The only downside is that I have to get up early. But after tuesday, things should slow down a bit. I don't have to be at work untill 2 on wednesday and thursday, an Friday is new years. I can't wait to just have a day to relax.

I dunno where Nate's been...he hasn't been online in a few days. He sent me a text message the other day saying "Merry Christmas" so at least I know he's still alive...LOL- considering he's in the army and plays w/ cement, you can't be to sure. ^_^. Someone could have crowned him with a block of cement. LOL...ouch...
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1. 3
2. 5
3. Travis
4. Alix
5. Jeff
6. Mike
7. Nate
8. You Raise me up
9. When you say you love me
10. Iris
11. never give up on the good times

1. tell number is space 2 about the game
2. the person in space 3 is the one you love
3. person in space 7 is the one you like, but can't work out
4. care most about the person in space 4
5. the person who knows you very well
6. Lucky star (i don't really get that, but okay, LOL)
7. song in 8 matches with person in space 3
8. title in 9 song for the person in 7
9. song in 10 reminds you most of your mind
10. song that shows how you feel about life
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That actually came out pretty acurate...Holy crap. LOL- i was very surprised. Although, im not sure about "you raise me up" matching up with Travis though... and im not exactly sure that i "love" him considering im still getting to know him. but other then that, very acurate.


I just finished listening to my new Josh Groban CD...Holy crap he's amazing. even though i can't understand most of the CD because it's in Italian, It's still VERY GOOD. He has a very nice soothing voice.

anyways...I think im gonna go grab some soup. Tis cold out!! brrrrrr!
Ciao!

posted by Lauren 12/27/2004 06:34:00 PM

Sunday, December 26, 2004

 

Well, Christmas was a success again this year :). I sorta lightend up about it as time went on. And even though Everyone was sorta dead, Me and my family still had a good time. Glenn was kinda pissing me off at times though. But Everything went great! We had lasagna and these REALLY AWESOME fish cakes that Dave made from a fish that he caught himself. And I got a lot of cool stuff...more then I could have asked for. Heres some of the stuff I got on Christmas eve:
-Guitar Amp (YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!)
-DVD tower
-"The Elvis Collection" which is a box set of like 6 movies
-a gift cirtificate for the mall
-Earrings
-a really ugly sweater....ick.
-Pajamas

Work really sucked that day. All I wanted to do was go home. by the end of the day, I didn't even want to go hang out w/ my family anymore. But I ended up going and having a great time :)

Christmas day was a lot of fun!
In the morning I went over my mom's and opend more presents...got a lot of cool stuff from her too!!!
-more PJ's
-Socks...very warm socks...
-sweat pants
- another Clay Aiken calendar...lol
-lots of little stocking stuffers
-Josh Groban CD
-Lotion from BBW

We went over Denise's for dinner and Ellen, jenn, jeff, and my grandma came too. I also saw Kate and her boyfriend for a bit. They ddin't stay long. Saw Derrek too. lol- he's a riot. And I got a few more presents! I got a Best Buy gift card for 50 bucks from Kate, Derrek, Josh, and Mel....Holy crap, I feel so bad now for not getting them anything.... I was seriously thinking about it, but I had no idea what to get any of them. Then I gave Denise and my dad all of their presents..>Denise LOVED the champagne glasses....She cried when she opend them!...

We went over Denise's again tonight to finish some of the leftover food from last night. Work today sucked as ussual...im not even gonna begin to describe it.

anyhoo...i guess tahts it. I really don't feel like typing anymore...so....ciao. Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!

posted by Lauren 12/26/2004 08:12:00 PM

Thursday, December 23, 2004

 

Guess what people?!?!?! I GOT MY LISENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHHOOOOO!!!! It's time to hit the open road!! LOL- not really...I think I'll stick to around town for a while.

I have a headache and I'm exhausted. But do I got to bed? nooooo...of course not. I'm too stubborn.

I have to get up at 7 tomorrow to be at work for 7:30. If I see my way clear, I'm gonna ask to leave early. Im hoping to catch a nap before I go to Julie's. It probably won't happen, but whatever. I am sleeping in on Christmas day. I don't care!!!!! I deserve it. Cuz I g atta work on Sunday and Monday anyways. GOD DAMN. Then I have Tuesday off, but me and my mom are going to Mohegan sun for the day so I won't get to sleep in then either. Wednesday I can cuz I don't go to work till 2. Thursday same, and Friday I'm off, but it's new Years. ::sigh:: busy busy busy.

OMG, I can't believe who I saw at the mall today. CHRISTINE!!!! !HOLY CRAP. I haven't seen her in a good two years at least. I pretty much grew up with her. Me and her used to be really good friends and we met around the time when I moved to Connecticut. And her father actually owns the Condo we live in and they used to live here themselves. But It was so good to see her!!!

I've re-connected with a couple people in the past few days. I talked to Wayne yesterday finally. I guess we keep missing each other....The dude placed 11th out of like 100 bowlers in some competition or something....::claps!:: good job dude!!! i would have come in last.... And Chandra gave me a call the other day, talked to Jeannette online this morning, and even Matt IMed me today!! Haven't talked to him in a few weeks at least. And I talked to ma man J.P. Today!!! and of course, had to IM Nate to tell him about getting my lisence!!!!!!! hehehe! he's so funny. he's like "You can drive fast like me!".

LOL- anyways...thats all of my update for today. CIAO! And Merry CHristmas to all, and to all a goodnight!!

posted by Lauren 12/23/2004 11:38:00 PM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

 

This is the first year that I can't wait for Christmas to be over. Not only do I want it to be over, I don't even want it to come. Working where I do has just TOTALLY and COMPLETELY KILLED Christmas for me. I used to love it so much. I used to love going out and buying presents and the business of everything and how happy everyone is. But this year, I just want it to end. it's been nothing but hell. I've tried really hard to get in the Christmas spirit, but it's just not working. I listen to Christmas music all the time and I just can't get in the spirit. ::sigh::. Claudia got me a beautiful pair of earrings, and Sharon got me a book called "8000 words of wisdom". LOL- thats exactly what I needed! Maybe I'm just not in the spirit because of all the hours I've been working this week. I think I have a total of 46 hours this week. God...I NEED A DAY OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When I finally have a day off, I will have worked 7 days in row. And then after I have my day off, I work 2 more days in a row. Next week will be a little better. But with New Years and everything, I still won't have anytime to myself. Not that I wanna be alone on New years. So far I think Rae and Kristin are coming over...And I just invited Mike, and Git too. I'll probably invite Nas too, but I don't think he's gonna come. But I didn't wanna invite Mike and not him, so..... And I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY hoping to get in touch with Sam!!! I MISS HER!!!! i haven't talked to her since the end of school!!! i tried calling her a couple times durring the summer and never got an answer. ::Sniff:: I miss Sam!!! Travis is going to NYC so he can't come over. Poo. But, i may see him on Tuesday cuz me and my mom are going to Mohegan Sun for the day and He goes there all the time so I might meet him there. I hope I can! I'd love to see him again.

No matter how bad Christmas is this year, I can't break my tradition. Every year probably since the movie came out, I've watched "The Santa Clause". Ya know, the movie with Tim Allen. I really don't know why, But I just watch it every year. I'll probably watch it tomorrow night. :-D. I love that movie.

Anyways. guess thats it for today. CIAO!

posted by Lauren 12/22/2004 11:41:00 PM

 

I really don't have much to talk about today, So I guess it's Random picture day!!!!



Doc: Well Roudolph, we've finally figured out what makes your nose red.
Roudolph: Is it pixie dust? or lepricon tails?!
Doc: No, it's a tumor.
Roudolph: you mean like a magical christmas tumor?!
Doc: No, a mailignant tumor. The base of which is lodged deep within your brain.
Roudolph: Oh....Like a happy, special...
Doc: you're going to die.

LOL- thats from Family Guy.


Geno and Diana! ::claps::


SNAPE- head of Slytherin house...how deliciously EVIL!!!!!


You will always remember this as the day that you almost caught Captain Jack Sparrow!!!!


thats it...I guess I'll leave you with this:

ROCK ON!
\m/ ^_^ \m/

posted by Lauren 12/22/2004 10:51:00 AM

Monday, December 20, 2004

 

::sigh:: Like always. LOL.

Work sucked today like always. but aleast I didn't ahve to walk in. Claudia came to get me. THANK GOD. It wasn't shoveled or plowed or anything at the time that I would have had to leave. (yes, it snowed last night....) But, I still had to walk home. It was AWEFUL. it's SOOOOOOOOO cold out there. I don't care how many layers you have on, it was so cold that it would seep right through you're clothes. But, Im home now and trying to warm up...

I got a CDrom in the mail from school withTONS of pictures on it. Theres only 2 of me. one of me at the 8th grade dance, and another with a group of people. All the rest are of the same people. Just like the pictures in the yearbook were. But, I guess you can't expect anything more of Conard.

Also got a Christmas card in the mail from Chandra
Thanks!!!!

Anyways...i better get going...I've got christmas cards to make, brownies to bake, and other stuff to do! CIAO.

posted by Lauren 12/20/2004 04:12:00 PM

 

why am I still awake you ask? I have no idea. It's 12:34 and I gatta get up at 7 tomorrow. But I slept a lot last night so I guess it's all okay.

I'm really resisting the urge to IM Travis right now. I really want to, but I feel like I've been bothering him a lot lately. I don't wanna seem like a jerk or anything. But the truth is, I'd really love to talk to him on the phone right now. Have one of those conversations that we had like 2 weeks ago. I'd love that more then anything right now. but I really don't wanna bother him. He's probably gatta get up early and I don't wanna keep him awake... I dunno, maybe he wouldn't mind. ::sigh::. whatever.

today was alright. I kept busy at work so the time went by pretty fast. But I gatta be there again tomorrow at 8:30. Damn. That place is gonna be the death of me. ::sigh::

just talked to Travis...too late for a phone call, he's going to bed now. Damnit all to hell.

Hmm...Nate's in a chat room, maybe I should stalk him....Nah.

nothing to do! i'm not really tired. ::sigh:: maybe ill just lie down and try to sleep. alrighty. goodnight people.

posted by Lauren 12/20/2004 01:30:00 AM

Saturday, December 18, 2004

 

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats all I have to say!!!!! OMG!!!!! I'm SOOOOOOOO happy!!!!!!!!! well, I'm very happy for one reason and pissed off for another...but let's get to the bad stuff latter....

(and on a side note before I continue, my fucking cat is mental.)

So, ya see, I got this letter in the mail today...

When I first looked at it, it looked like Claudia's writing. But then I thought, "why the hell would Claudia be sending me a letter?..."Then I looked at the stamp to see where it was sent from, and it said "Buffalo, NY" and that made me think of the Goo Goo Dolls, but I've never sent them anything. So, I open it and it's from......












JOHN STEVENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D!!!!! I sent him a letter way back in like April or May sometime. When I was in L.A., I took a picture of Dean Martin's cement hand and footprints on the walk of fame and I sent that to him along w/ the letter. And I got an answer!!!!!! EEEEE!!!!!!
heres what the letter says:

Dear Lauren,
I wanted to write to you to express my most sincere gratitude for your letter. I apologize for the amount of time that it took for me to respond, but unfortunatly, your letter was just forwarded to me from FOX this week. I can't tell you how much I appreciate the kind and thoughtful words that you shared with me. I have been truly overwhelmed by the support that I have receieved from people such as yourself.

Since American Idol and this summers tour have wrapped up, I've been busy working on my upcoming album "Red", which is schedualed to be released in early March. I am greatful for the wonderful learning experiences that I have had over the past year, and I am looking forward to whatever the future may bring.

Again, thank you for everything, and I wish you a very happy and healthy Holiday season and all the best in the coming year.

Yours Truly,
John Stevens

:) :) :) :) :) :) !!!!!! isn't that awesome?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! I LOVE HIM!!!!!!


Anyways, onto bad news. I have to work SOOOOOOOOOOOO much this week. Jonathan is in the hospital for something, and I had to cover one of his days. which means that I only have one day off this week and thats Christmas. But I just gatta suck it up for this last week and it'll be all back to normal after this. THANK GOD. I can't take much more of it. I need to find a new job. VERY Badley. Something that pays more. I just did the math for the amount of money i'm gonna make for working all those hours this week...It hardley seems worth it.

(And on another side note, my fucking cat is still mental)

::sigh::....I wish Travis was online. That sucks...Im not about to call him either, even though his away message says to call him. I'll talk to him tomorrow if i get a minute.

Well, im gonna go relax now. Im Dead tired.

posted by Lauren 12/18/2004 11:45:00 PM

Friday, December 17, 2004

 

HEHE! I'm so excited! my Classic rock mix is gonna be seriously awesome!! I'm hoping to fill the entire 80 minutes with music before I make it. Heres how it looks so far:

Billy Idol- You spin me right round
Billy Idol- White Wedding
Kansas- Carry on my wayward son
Kiss- Detroit Rock City
Kiss- I wanna rock and roll all night
REM- Imitation of Life
REM- Losing my religion
(REM isn't really classic rock...they're more contemporary, but whatever...They're on here anyways)
Soft Cell- Tainted Love
Twisted Sister- I wanna rock
Twisted Sister- The Price
Twisted Sister- We're not gonna take it
Twisted Sister- C'mon feel the noise
Peter Frampton- You had to be ther
Joan Jett- I love rock and Roll (talk about a one-hit wonder...)
AC/DC- Back in Black

I may also add the Zeppelin and Hendrix songs that I've got on my computer to fill up space if I can't think of any other songs to download. Might also put some Karla DeVito songs on there. Haven't decided yet.

Anywhoo...expect some pictures soon...I'm about to go through my Creed DVD and my GGD's concert DVD and take some caps! HEHEHE!!!!



Anywhoo.....Today was pretty eventless...Nothing going on really. Tomorrow I've gatta work from 4 untill 11!!!!!! OMG IM GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!! 11 is WAY WAY WAY WAY too late!!! ::sigh::. HELP ME!!!

anyways...I guess I'm gonna go check out some new graphics for my cell....Ciao!

posted by Lauren 12/17/2004 08:37:00 PM

Thursday, December 16, 2004

 

I deleted my last post...for a lot of reasons. The main one is very simple. I'm stupid. LOL.

Anyways... long story of what happend today...I don't wanna go into it though...I still don't wanna jinx myself. I'll tell you if and when everything is completed....

Well, me and my mom went to stop and shop today, and I saw RAE AND KRISTIN!!!!!!! YAY FOR THEM!!! :-D!!!! It was soooo good to see them again!!!!

right now, I'm just listening to Clay's Christmas CD....::sigh::. gatta love Clay.

Travis has been in RI all day, so he hasn't been around to bother. LOL- it's been lonely :)...and Nate's been gone in one form or another...heh, I guess everybody has a life except me. LOL.
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Dec. 17

heh, sorry I didn't finish my entry alst night...I guess I didn't have much to talk about.

I downloaded a new p2p music program. it's called LimeWire and let me say, it's the best thing thing thats happend. It's SOO awesome. It's a tad bit slower then Shareaza which was my previous program, but at least lime wire connects everytime you go on it. Now I can continue my classic rock mix! ^_^

I've been REALLY lazy today. I'm surprised I got myself out of bed and took a shower. Damn, I wanted to go to the gym today too, but I just couldn't get myself to go. Maybe I'll get myself to work-out in the basement latter.

This afternoon, Lauren stopped by to give me a Christmas present....SHE GOT ME THE CLAY CALENDAR!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! The pictures are ADOARABLE!!!!!!!

No plans for New years as of right now...I think I'm gonna try to have a few friends over, but who knows if thats gonna work out. Last year it definatly didn't. I was hoping to do something w/ Travis, but he's going to NYC. Lucky him.

hmmmm....nothing else new... Ciao for now.

posted by Lauren 12/16/2004 08:05:00 PM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

 

Well, FINALLY I get a chance to update w/out being pre-occupied with other things on my mind. It's time to update you all about the CLAY CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!

The day didn't start out too good. My dad came in to wake me up and told me that Lauren's mom called and said that she was going to the hospital and may not be able to make it to the concert. She was hoping that she wouldn't have to be admitted so she could leave sometime in the afternoon and go w/ me. She said she would call me and let me know what the satus was. So, I waited around all day and she finally called and said that she could go. Then, a little while latter, I got a call from her father saying that they weren't sure again. Then, I got another call saying "no". She was too weak and tired and everything and just couldn't make it. But her dad is going to pay for her ticket because he felt so bad about everything and said that Lauren was equally upset and how dissapointed she is and how she's lucky to have a friend like me. So I called my mom franticlly and asked her if she'd be willing to go w/ me instead. After a while, she finally agreed and we set off....We got there just in time for me to get a shirt, and a poster :-D!! LOL- I LOVE THEM!!!!

The concert itself was AWESOME. But...LOL- he looked SOOOOOO geakey in the first half of it before he changed. He was wearing these dark grey pants and a green V-neck sweater with a yellow button-down underneath it and some WEIRD looking sneakers....LOL! he looked like he was about to go play golf! then the second half, he had black pants on and a long button down coat. When he came out in that, a couple people yelled "Much better Clay!!!!!!" LOL. And, did i mention that i had AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME seats!!! OMG I was in like the...15th row TOPS. I could see his adoarable face perfectly from where I was. Durring one of the songs, he walked down the stairs to this one lady sitting in the front row and sang to her a little bit and t he lady reached up and sqeezed his cheecks!!!!...then (OMG, I"M SOOOOOO JEALOUS OF THIS OTHER LADY) He walked around a couple rows back and took this lady's hand and knelt down and kissed her hand!!! OHHHH MYYYY GODDDD!!!!!! I was DYING! LOL.

Then, once the show was over, We went out to meet Andy across the street cuz he didn't want to fight the crowd just to come get us. But the only problem was, it was POURING out. We had to walk across the parking lot which was compeltely floodded, then stand and wait for a break in the traffic to cross the street By the time we got to the car, we were SOAKED. I probably could have rung myself out. LOL. I'm just glad my poster didn't get wet...that would have SUCKED. Thank God for plastic! But overall, an AWESOME night. I just wish Lauren could have been there. The past two times we've gone to see Clay, something's happend. Like last time at the Big E she ended up getting sick and spending the entire concert in the first Aid station. I'm Making it my mission to get her to a Clay concert at some point...even If I have to wheel here there on a stretcher. I feel so aweful for her though....It must suck.

Last night me and my dad and my aunt went out for dinner, then went to Gem Jewlery because my dad and my aunt wanted to pick out a necklace to get my grandma for Christmas. They a REALLY nice one and they're having all four kids birthstones put in it. It's REALLY pretty...I think Gram will like it.

I finally talked to Nate again the other day!!! I missed him! hadn't talked to him in a few days at least... I missed all of our hilarious conversations!!!!:

CptJackSparrow83: go for it dude
CptJackSparrow83: me likey
TopDawgN8: me too...but we're lookin at February or later on a timeframe
CptJackSparrow83: well get your ass up here and let my dad sell your truck!
TopDawgN8: and how will i get to work???
CptJackSparrow83: ummmm...
CptJackSparrow83: feet?
CptJackSparrow83: lol
TopDawgN8: ass
CptJackSparrow83: LOL ;)
CptJackSparrow83: you'll be pimpin in that car dude 8-)
TopDawgN8: damn straight...if i can still get the truck, i am
CptJackSparrow83: we can drag race as soon as i get my vette
TopDawgN8: ummm...i'm thinking the 400 hp vette would kill my 285 hp Z
CptJackSparrow83: exactly ;)
TopDawgN8: or, i can get my truck...slap $2000 of performance on it and it'll spank ur little vette like it was it's daddy and the vette wet the bed again
CptJackSparrow83: i REALLY don't think that'd be worth it! LOL
CptJackSparrow83: 2,000$ for one race? dude, you're trippin
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CptJackSparrow83: so hows the world of concrete been?
TopDawgN8: pretty good...dirty
CptJackSparrow83: lol- i like playing in dirt
TopDawgN8: lol
CptJackSparrow83: i still think you should make a statue of me
TopDawgN8: ya never know
CptJackSparrow83: yay!!! :)
CptJackSparrow83: that'd be weird...seeing a statue of yourself
TopDawgN8: lol
TopDawgN8: i guess....or concieted
CptJackSparrow83: well, im not conceited....just...um....proud! yeah, thats it..
TopDawgN8: lol
TopDawgN8: krazy's more like it
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Hehe!!!!!!! Hi Nate!!!! ::waves::

also haven't talked to Wayne in a while....Him and his damn optimum internet thats always online so you never know if he's acctually on so you end up IMing no one. LOL.

Anyways...I guess it's off to the gym w/ me....But I guess I should finish My laundry before I leave...Ick. Ciao!

posted by Lauren 12/14/2004 05:43:00 PM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

 

Well, today was the day. Today was the day that I met Travis. And I think it actually went alright!! He IMed me earlier and asked me what I had going for the day and if he could come up. So, I said "what the hell". And he said he'd be here in like 45 minutes ( I don't think it took that long) So for a few of those minutes, I was running around like a total nutcase straightening up my room and such...then I just decided I'd better relax so I put on an episode of Family Guy, and before I knew it, he was here. I looked out the window and Holy crap...NICE CAR. Didn't get the make of it, just looked at it for a quick second. But it was a blue color, kinda like the color of the start menu bar if you have Windows XP. But anyways, I went downstairs and opend the door..my heart was beating like insanely I thought I was gonna pass out. But it turned out fine. I said Hello" and all that, and my cat walked out to greet him. :). Then we went upstairs to my room and he's like "i'm just gonna make myself at home" LOL. he unloads his pockets and takes off his shoes and all that and then takes over my bed. hehe. He said my room is very girly. LOL...I suppose it is...::shrugs:: so, then I put on an episode of Family Guy and we just hang out, then went downstairs and watched a few episodes of King of the Hill. Not much else happend. He definatly liked my cat! :) he was playing with her for a while. But anyways, he left around 4:30ish...which was good because my dad walked in shortly after that. LOL... perfect timing. I told him that he'd have to come over and hang out again when we had more time, and he said "sure, just let me know". He was just online now for a quick second and I IMed him apologizing for not talking to him more, and I told him that I was EXTREMELY nervous. And I said "i hope you still like me in person" and he said "of course" :-D. So, I guess thats a good sign. And, btw- he still has a nice voice in person. LOL, really nice!!! I really don't know what the future brings, but I hope things work out. He's definatly cool, and he's rather good-looking too if you don't mind me saying. LOL- anyways, dad wants to use the computer, So i'm leaving now. Ciao!

posted by Lauren 12/12/2004 08:56:00 PM

Saturday, December 11, 2004

 

*!*edited*!*

Clayton Holmes Aiken. I've said it thousands and thousands of Times, but guess what? i'm saying it again.....

I LOVE YOU!

Oh Boy. what a rough night. Well, rough may not be the word...more like annoying. Work was just a pain in the ass...There was so much to get done with so many people in the store and it was impossible to get stuff done with everybody in our way. ::sigh::

I called Travis this afternoon and left him a message to call me after 10. Cuz I was hoping he could come over tomorrow. Yeah. Okay. He's not gonna call. ::sigh:: I'm beggining to think that he's not worth my time. I know he's a guy and guys don't call people back, but ya know...Thats not a good excuse. I always call people back if they call me. I mean, granted, if I see their number on my "missed calls" list, I usually won't, but if they left me a voicemail asking me to call them back, I definatly would. And the thing is, I just won't give up. I just nag and nag untill I get something back. And I've done it more then once....I've done it with people like Erin for starters. But I'm not gonna get into That again....I don't know. I guess I just won't learn. I thought everything was square w/ him, but I guess it isn't. I don't know...everytime I call him he doesn't answer his phone. There could be many reasons for that. He did tell me the first time I was gonna call him that if he's busy, he won't answer. So, maybe he's busy. But I dunno....It's so weird. When I talk to him online he's all sweet and everything, but when I try any other way he doesn't respond. And he's the one who was pushing us meeting in the first place. When I talked to him on the phone on Sunday, he said that he may stop by Saturday. And I talked to him on Thursday and he mentioned it again and I told him that He would have to let me know by Friday so I could make other plans with my mom and he said he would let me know and he didn't. I texted him and asked him about it and he never answered. Whatever. I don't know. I can't figure him out, but I am starting to think that he's not worth my time. As quickly as I fell for him, I'm getting over him. ::sigh::. At least untill I talk to him next and he starts talking sweet to me....God, how much of a sap can I be?! and here he goes...just got an IM from him. LOL- God...this is too funny. LOL- ill let you all know how this goes.
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Well so far into this conversation he's apologized for not getting back to me and he wants to come over like right now. eeeeep! i dunno!!!!

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Well...just called him and talked to him...I told him I don't think it's a good idea tonight...I'm a little freaked out by all this ya know? But I'll tell you one thing, he's really understanding. He said that he's not gonna rush me into anything and that we can meet whenever I'm ready. Which may be tomorrow. Im so dumb ya know?!?! honestly....one minute I'm complaining that he's not here, then I wus out when he does wanna come. What the hell is wrong w/ me?!? Well, he said we'd talk about getting together tomorrow, tomorrow. So, I'll see. My dad's not due to come home till like 6-7ish...::Sigh:: I better do some serious thinking tonight. But I've got a lot to do. I've got Christmas presents to wrap, And my dad asked me to clean the bathroom...Ick. And my room is like a jungle....and I've gatta hang up my Clay poster that I got last night :-D!!!!!!! and I gatta think of another present to get my dad. I think I've got something picked out. heh :)

alrighty. I'm gonna go now. Ciao!

posted by Lauren 12/11/2004 10:34:00 AM

Thursday, December 09, 2004

 

HEHE! Lauren is happy again. Everything is straightend out w/ Travis now, and I promise I won't go filling my own head w/ crap anymore. LOL.

but the best news of all is......TOMORROW IS THE CLAY CONCERT!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEE!!!!!!! Im SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!!!!! I got some money today so i can actually buy souvineers too! EEEEEEEE!!!! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!

Also...In January, Alter Bridge is coming here!!!!! At a really small nightclub. HOLY CRAP I WANNA GO!!!!!! MARK TREMONTI MAN!!! WITHIN FEET OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh man...HE IS A GOD!

Hmmm...I really can't think of anything else to say...huh. Well, untill next time...

posted by Lauren 12/09/2004 11:17:00 PM

 

Look what I got in the mail today!!!!!!!!!!



It's an autographed picture from DANE COOK!!!!!!!!! He's one of the best comics that will ever live. And he's extremly hott... :-D!

Anyways..more of an update latter, just wanted to post that pic :)

posted by Lauren 12/09/2004 01:18:00 PM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

 

::Sigh:: I think I'm making myself crazy. But I can't help it! I really need to talk to Travis right now more than ever. But I also need to calm down a little bit. I'm filling my own head with all this crap like "he doesn't like me anymore", etc, etc, etc. When it's probably not true. I think that just because I'm not on the phone with someone every minute, or IMing them all the time that they don't like me anymore. But, I know thats not true. I do think he likes me, and I think I owe him an apology for being such a nag and a pest. But it's so hard for me to not bother someone (a guy) whose been extremly nice to me, and may even want me as a girlfriend. I think I just need to lay-off for a while, apologize and hopefully get to talk to him on the phone extremely soon. Gatta have a talk w/ him. I left him a message on his IM to call me after 8 after I got out for work...it's now 9 and nothing. But who knows, the nights not over, he still may call me. If he doesn't, I hope he gets online. Gatta tell him a few things. I'd rather talk to him on the phone, but ya know.....Damn that voice of his!!! LOL.

Today was just aweful for the most part. As you know if you read my previous post, I woke up extremly sick and I still feel like crap. Haven't eaten a thing all day. That survey I did asked me If I could go 24 hours w/out eating...well, theres your answer. I managed to drink a bottle of water, but that was it today. I got a little hungry durring the day and considered getting something to eat, but I figured I'd better not chance it that I'd get sick again. On top of that I was obviously thinking about Travis all day so that didn't help my stomach at all. ::Sigh:: long day.

posted by Lauren 12/08/2004 08:43:00 PM

 

OMG, what a morning it's been so far, and it's only 8:15...the idea of me being up this early is actually kinda scarey.

I woke up at exactly 6:38 with a WICKED stomach ache. Like horribly wicked. I felt sooooo sick and I couldn't get back to sleep. I mean, I didn't feel as sick as I did that haloween two years ago, I think that was the worst I've felt ever. but anyways, I took some medicine and I pretty much feel alright now....I'm supposed to go to the gym with my dad at 9, but I don't think I'm gonna make it. I don't think working out would be the wisest thing in the world after getting over a stomach ache. So, needless to say, it's been a long morning and I don't think I'll be eating anything anytime soon today. So....anyways.. I think I'm gonna go rest for a while.

posted by Lauren 12/08/2004 08:16:00 AM

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

 

::sigh:: My good mood yesterday and the day before has just turned into a giant mess of confusion. I'm am sooo confused right now I can't even begin to describe it. I talked to Travis online earlyer today and asked him if he was up for another phone call, and he said yeah but he's having company after 8:30. so, I told him I'd call him around 7:30ish. So, I called him once at 7:30, and once at 7:45. No answer either time. I mean, he could have a buttload of reasons for this, and I'm probably just being insanly stupid. But I can't help but wonder about stuff. Like, does he like me, or am I just being led on? I do know I have a wild imagination, and I'm most likely over-reacting, but still...I don't really know what to do. He's the first guy thats paid me any mind in a while and I guess I just wanna hang on to him for a little bit. I have a feeling I should tell him that. Not online though, On the phone. And yes, ( I know I said this yesterday) I am starting to fall for him. He's been really sweet to me. And I'm loving it. When I talked to him on Sunday, we were attempting to make plans for Saturday night. Didn't get very far though, but I hope we get together. I'd love that more than anything at this point. I just love hearing his voice so much. He has a REALLY REALLY nice voice. It's got a bit of an Italian ring to it. *wink*. :). When I caled him I waited for his voicemail to come on so I could hear his voice...::sigh:: But on the other hand of all this, I don't know if I should get too attatched. And I think I'm gonna quote Shavonda from the Real World when I explain because I think she said it best.. "Guys don't get as attatched as girls do. Guys can use girls as objects for the night and then throw them away the next day...I could never do that". I think that pretty much explains it. I think I should just tell him everything the next time I talk to him on the phone and settle this once and for all. I just want the assurance that he really does like me and that he's not leading me on.

LOL- as I go back and re-read that, I can't help but think of how much of an idiot I am.

posted by Lauren 12/07/2004 09:38:00 PM

Monday, December 06, 2004

 

:-D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lauren is very happy right now!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehehehehe!! Wow, Lauren is a very happy camper. I was just going online last night just for a quick minute, and I got an IM from Travis that said "Hey trouble". LOL. And he asked me if it was too late for a phone call. I said "no" so I called him and we talked for a while. He's so frickin' amazing. I dunno what it is really. He's just got such a sweet personality. And I LOVE his voice on the phone.. LOL. We were both trying to get to sleep with major insomnia. I had to get up at 7 today to be at work for 8:30 and he had to get up at some obscene hour too. Like 5 or something...ick. But anyways, he was so sweet last night! he said that he wished that he was here to tuck me in last night and stuff...I was like awwwwwww!!. But after I got off the phone w/ him, my heart was going a mile a minute and I knew that sleeping would be tough, and I was so right. It definatly was. I didn't get to sleep till around 1, then woke up around 3:30 and stayed awake for another hour and then FINALLY got to sleep at 4:30 and slept till 7. I woke up today soooooo tired. And I was completly slap-happy. Everything that was said or done at work today just made me laugh. I was COMPLETLY off the wall. LOL. But wow...I change my answer on that survey I did yesterday morning...the best experience Ive had with a guy was last night. and he called me "Babe" again when we hung up. :-D! I LOVE it when guys call me "babe" or "hun" and stuff like that.. I think I'm starting to fall for him. I really hope I get to meet him soon. I'd love that more than anything.

::sigh:: :0D. Lauren is oh-so-happy right now. But I really have nothing else to say, so thats it :)
PEACE.

posted by Lauren 12/06/2004 06:29:00 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

 

First things first....
HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY JOHN RZEZNIK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU MAN!!!! Heres a picture dedication to him!!!


I seriously hope this picture isn't copyrighted...I think it might be, but i got it off the GGD website if that helps any...I'm not taking it as my own!!!!


capture I got from the sympathy video


this isn't the best pic of him, but he's still drop-dead gorgeous :)


I know I posted this picture before....but It's my favorite, so here it is again!!!

Thats it for now...I'll probably post more when I watch the Live In Buffalo concert DVD ;-)
I'm sorry...he's just so hott it's really unbelieveable.

Well........hmmm...I feel like updating more...and I know I was supposed to write about something today... Now...what could that have been? OH YEAH I REMEMBER NOW!!!!! I was supposed to write about WAYNE! HI WAYNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ::waves::! LOL- I think I wrote about him once before and i told him this but couldn't find the entry in my archives...so I told him that I'd write about him again. :) hehe! Anyways, met him like a month or two back..in, where else, A chat room...just been talking, had more then one interesting conversations....LOL. One of them was really funny, I have it saved on my computer...I read it sometimes when I'm in a bad mood :).

I have to be at work at 8:30 tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! how painful is that?!?! And frickin' Rebeckah (yeah, thats how she spells her name) was there on Saturday and she was PISSING ME OFF!!! She's our D.M. (district manager) OMG she was just a pain in the ass. What a LOSER! i can't stand her. I liked Joe a lot better. But he had health issues and couldn't keep working. Poor guy...he's pretty young too. But anyways...i could go on and on about that, but I know I'd be boring everyone and you'd probably just skip over it anyways.

Alright...thats it for today :) PEACE.

posted by Lauren 12/05/2004 06:12:00 PM

 

Survey day on the L.J. homies! lol. its really long...

posted by Lauren 12/05/2004 01:50:00 AM

Friday, December 03, 2004

 

the champagne glasses I ordered for my dad and Denise came in today! here they are!!!!


aren't they purdy??!



isn't HE purdy?! LOL....i swear, looking at him makes my heart melt. Too bad he'll be 39 in 2 days....::cries::.....

lol- okay, im done. :)

posted by Lauren 12/03/2004 08:21:00 PM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

 

Hellooooo everyone!!!!!!
*~edited*~
(i really wrote most of this today (dec. 3)
Not much new in my life...but things are new none-the-less....

KEN JENNINGS LOST!!!! 75 Jeopardy episodes and 2 and half million dollars latter, all previous gameshow records broken, KEN LOST!!! I'm sooooooooooo sad about that!!! I LOVE him! he's soooo incredibly smart...not to mention good-looking. But I'm so sad that he's gone now...And th funny thing is, the girl that beat him only lasted 2 episodes. She claims taht she got lucky because she knew the categories that night and he didn't. I wish I could have seen the episode, But i was at work. My mom called me at work to tell me that he lost. WAHHHHHH!!!!!! He'll be back for the tournament of champions though. Can't wait for that!


here he is! the man himself!! I like this pic, it as the only good one I could find (from jeopardy.com)

::sigh::

And btw- i put a enw button up the right side of my page...it's about Nate's truck! he's selling it, and you better buy it!!!!!!!!!!! LOL, he said he'd give me a hundred bucks if someone found the link on my page and bought his truck! SO BUY IT! i want a hundred bucks!!!!!!

Well, two days latter and the store is still open..I guess the state guy is gonna make his enxt visit a surprise...can't say that I blame him.

Picked names for secret santa yesterday...I got Susie. GREAT. i have no idea what to get her. But I'll think of something I guess.

I seriously felt like total crap before. Like really bad I Just lost all my self-confidence for a while there...I think a lot of things contributed to it which made things aweful. I know I get upset very easily and I'm trying very hard to work on that, but whats weird is how quick I can recover. All it took was an IM from Nate just saying something like "hey girl how you doing?". and at that precise moment all the crap that had built up before just dissapeard at that instant. It was the weirdest thing. I'm soooooooo glad I IMed him that boring night in the chatrooms! lol. And he said this too:
TopDawgN8: no body can put a trace on u...ur too unique

hehe!!! Luv ya dude!!

anyways...thats it. time for a shower...Lord knows I need it. LOL :) untill next time...
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My dad called me this afternoon to tell me that he's going away w/ Denise in february for EIGHT DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHHHHOOOOOOO!!!! Party at my house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you can bet I'm gonna try to make plans w/ people durring that time... oooo yeah!

posted by Lauren 12/02/2004 11:24:00 PM