Monday, December 26, 2005
Well, as time went by, i feel like Christmas got a little better. I had a good time w/ my family, and work didn't turn out to be all that bad. Except a minor parking issue, but thats just because of someone else's stupidity. But Ellen's house was fun, and I got a lot of cool stuff :). I got a bath and body works gift card, Itunes gift cards, slippers, a night shirt, a new watch with 3 different bands to change it to...and ithink thats it for that night. We had a great time tho. I was exhausted from work and all, bbut everything turned out fine.
Christmas day was alright....I opened my presents from my dad in the morning..and I got some cool stuff! right now, im looking at my new flat screen monitor that i thought I wasn't gonna get...LOL, but i love it!! it saves a lot of room on my desk and it's bigger then my old monitor. So, its awesome!!!! he also got me a necklace and earrings that match...they have turquoise stones in them. They're REALLY nice. I love them! Then later on I went to my mom's. My mom got me a lot of nice things this year...She got me a lot of pracical stuff. Like a club for the stearing wheel of my car..a jewlery box, a new jacket, and my little stocking stuffers of coarse...and a set of Emeril's sauces..!!!!! and Jones soda. black cherry. its soo good! I love everything I got :)
Then the weirdness started...I went over Denise's house for Dinner. Andrew (kate's...um, now ex-boyfriend) made us all dinner..and everything was going good...me and Derek were sitting in the living room watching a movie, and Andrew goes upstairs...Kate goes up like 10 miutes later..and all of a sudden me and Derek hear her screaming upstairs really angry...and we're like "wtf"? and we hear her say something about drugs.... she storms downstairs, grabs her keys and goes outside to her car... and then a little bit later we see Andrew come downstairs with his duffel bag... (he lived there for a while) Turns out, he was upstairs doing cocaine or some shit...Kate got pissed, and threw his ass out. Holy crap though...that was crazy. Derek was really pissed too...he was like "If I ever see him in this house again, he's not gonna make it back". Derek didn't even like him to begin with. But holy crap..i never experienced anything like that...that was crazy.
Even though Christmas was generally good, I feel like I wasted it. I was too busy and ticked off at everything to get in the spirit like I ussually am. I ussually look forward to Christmas like back in october. And now I was just mad and upset and annoyed with everything so I didn't even enjoy it. I wish I could go back and do it all over again. :(
New Years should be better hopefully...im going to Dom's as of now cuz he's having a little get-together over there. Should be fun
Anyways, thats it for now. Later days :)
posted by Lauren 12/26/2005 10:55:00 PM
Friday, December 16, 2005
I really am starting to hate Christmas. Just the thought of it now is making me sick. I don't even know why I bought anyone anything. I can't afford to get anyone what I would really want to, so why did I even bother buying anything? I mean, I wanted to get something for Dom. But Agian, I can't afford to get him what he deserves, so why did I bother? I should have just said "To hell with it". I remember the days where I would look forward to Christmas back in October. Now I can't stand it. I'm thinking about not even going out with my family on Christmas eve. No one is gonna miss me anyways. The only ones who will notice that I'm not there is Ellen and my Grandma. And the rest wont care. None of my family cares anyways. None of them even know me. They know nothing about me except that I'm a dumbass and don't care. I'm not even going to that dumb-ass party at Cat's. Me and Susan and Erica all decided that we're not going. I know Cat doesn't want me there anyways. Neither does Sarah or James or anyone. So Yeah, I'm not going. And because Sharon quit, I don't have a secret santa person or anything so fuck it. fuck all of them. I really hate Christmas now. I fucking hate it. I don't want another Christmas ever again. I tried really hard to get into the spirit like I used to and I just can't.
I called out of work today. My car doors were frozen shut from the damn ice storm we had. Fuck winter.
Whatever. Fuck Christmas, Fuck New Years, Fuck giving presents, fuck everyone I work with, and fuck the mall.
posted by Lauren 12/16/2005 09:58:00 PM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
For some reason, ive been really into dream interpreation recently. I even got one of those books where you look up keywords and it tells you what its supposed to mean. The cool part about it is, most of them are pretty accurate. I've been known to have really weird dreams..and its kinda cool to see what they're supposed to mean. Like, a few months ago, I had a dream that I was in Florida, and me and Nichole were walking into our hotel room and it was full of spiders. yeah, gross. So, I looked up "spiders" and came up with: I'm taking a creative approach on work, many spiders in the dream means good health and friends, and stuff like that. I thought that was pretty cool :). But last night I had a really strange dream....Well, actually, it was more like, this morning. But anyways, I was riding a bike. And somehow for some reason, I ended up at Farmington Highschool. NO IDEA WHY. I have never seen Farmington highschool, or anything. The only thing I know about that place is taht Dom's brother goes there. And I saw Alix and her mom there And I kept trying to hide from them. Again..no idea why. And I went inside the school and I was actually riding the bike around the school. I don't know why I went inside...because when I got in I was trying to find my way out. I kept asking everyone how to get out of the school. And I finally went into the gym. I saw that it was set up like they do in elementry school with all the gymnastics equipment. They had those really huge mats with the balance beam and everything...and I thought "wow, I haven't played on this stuff in a really long time." and I bounced on the mat a few times and went out through a door in the gym. And then I got back on my bike and was trying to ride but I wasn't going anywhere. And thats where it ended. Weird huh? So, I looked up "bike" online and came up with this: (and this is SOOOO freaking true)
To dream that you are riding a bicycle, signifies your desires to attain a balance in your life. You need to balance work and pleasure in order to succeed in your current undertakings. If you have difficulties riding the bicycle, then it suggests that you are experiencing anxieties about making it on your own.
To see a bicycle in your dream, indicates that you need to devote time to leisurely pursuits and recreation.
How freaking true is that for me?! I do need to balance things in my life. I've been working way too much and haven't had time for friends or anything. and difficulties, like when I was riding and wasn't going anywhere, says Im expreiencing anxieties about making it on my own. I have been. Lately I have been thinking about moving out since I found out that our landlords wanna sell...and I have been worried about wether or not I'm going to be able to do it. Its soooo true.
Scott called me last night out of the clear blue. I was actually pretty surprised. He rarely does that. We've actually been playing phone tag for a while...i haven't had time to talk to him because I'm soo busy and all that crap. His birthday is coming up..hopefully I'll be able to see him at some point next week.
So my dad took me to see King Kong on Tuesday night at midnight. SOO did not like it at all. I'll admit the first hour was good. But after that I was just ready to throw myself down the auditoriem it was WAYY too long. I was getting so antsy. The only good part was of course, Jack Black. And actually Adrien Brody is pretty freakin' cute...I'll have to check out some of his other movies. lol :-D
So I'm really loving working at Borders. I hope that somehow I can get into the bigger one. I'm there all the time anyways, I may as well work there. lol :-P. But I love the fast paced environment and all of that. It's just a great place and I love it. I'm hoping that after the Holidays i can say "c'est la vie" to Papyrus...that'd be the best Christmas present yet.
I slept untill 12 today. LOL, I just have been really tired after going to see king kong...I didn't get back untill almost 4 in the morning on wednesday morning, and didn't get much sleep. So I guess it caught up to me and I slept a wicked long time this morning. lol. But I had to be at work at one, that was the only problem. I woke up out of that weird-ass dream I had and looked and my clock and was like "holy shit!!!" lol.
I still have so much to do before Christmas...I have to finish my mom's painting, which isn't even close to being done yet...I've got to go to Target and get boxes, which I also have no time to do... and I have to go w/ my dad to get presents for my baby cousins. I have no idea when I'm gonna do all that. grrrr....sometimes being busy really sucks.
I haven't seen Dom all week...He's working till Midnight every night this week so I haven't seen him at all. It really sucks. I miss him so freakin' much.
I'm not looking forward to Saturday...I'm working from 9:00 am untill 10:30 PM. Yeah. Not goibng to be fun. But oh well...Next week is gonna be worse because Caitlin said she'd load me down w/ hours because She's got a lot to give out. And its great now because it's pretty much make your own schedule...its getting really busy and she said we can come in whenever we want pretty much. And anything after 40 hours is time and a half. Woooot! i'm hoping I can take andvantage of that.
Anywhoo, I'm gonna get going now...gonna go lay down and watch my Whose Line tapes!
posted by Lauren 12/15/2005 11:00:00 PM
Monday, December 12, 2005
Lauren's Un-realistic Christmas List
1. A job as an animator at Disney
2. An apartment in Orlando
3. Movie contract w/ Adam Sandler
4. An Agent
5. New furniture
6. Peace
7. a meet and greet w/ everyone I want
8. *(censored)*
9. Susan to win Powerball
10. Andy to move out of my moms apartment.
11. Everyone at church and work to like me again.
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So the Clay concert ROCKED. I love him soooo much. I think I liked last years show better, but this one was just as good. I loved it so much. He's definatly the best. There was a really good piano player that opened for him. His name was William Joseph. SOOO good. he played "Kashmir" by Led Zeppelin on his piano! SOOOOO freakin good. I definatly want his CD. Perhaps ill get it someday.
I've been seriously thinking about going back to school. Well, not exactly school. School online. Theres this art school that I wanna go to really badly. Hopefully I can. Need money though.....
which could be a problem.
sorry to cut all this short. more l8r...
posted by Lauren 12/12/2005 03:33:00 PM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
I can't freakin believe that its almost Christmas. It seems like it should still be the summer...and I should still be in Florida chillin with Tony Katie Yesi and Nichole... I swear, that was a sad day when I left Florida.... But anywhoo, yeah, back to Christmas.
This Christmas is a little bit different for me. I'm not really excited about it like I ussually am. I'm ussually looking forward to it back in October. And I'm not selfish either. Its not the presents I look forward to. Its the whole spirit of the Holidays. I dunno, it just makes me very happy. And its the first time I've never had a real Christmas list. I have no idea what I want. I mean, I know what I want, but its nothing out of the ordinary. All I want is movies and CD's. Thats my ussual list. lol. And a few goofy things here and there. The only big thing on my list this year is a flat screen monitor for my computer. But I don't think I'm gonna get that... considering its expensive and things are tight. But I dunoo...my dad didn't realy ask me what I want so maybe he's got something up his sleeve. *shrugs*
The mall has also contributed to the way of killing Christmas for me. I hate going to the mall and seeing that stupid countdown clock thats counting down the days till Christmas. WTF? as if time isnt going by fast enough, they have to make a countdown clock so you can realize how screwed you are because you still haven't finished shopping. GREAT. On top of that, I've had the worst freakin customers in the history of the world this holiday season. Everyone is being total assholes to everyone. Danna came into work the other day pissed off because someone hit her car in the parking lot and drove away. But she's just crazy anyway.....lol.
*sigh* I guess Ill try to get back into my normal Christmas mood. Maybe after the Clay concert on saturday I will. I'm SOOO Excited!!!!!
Last night was fun. After I got out of work Me, Tina, Nicole and Claudia went to Rainforest Cafe for dinner. It was SO good. Especially because I hadn't eaten all day because I was really busy at work. I ate this huge-ass burreito. LOL. SOOO good. That was a lot of fun. Claudia recently had surgery so I haven't seen her in a while. She's doing a lot better though.
Anywhoo...time to hit walmart before work. l8r dayz!
posted by Lauren 12/08/2005 10:25:00 AM
Monday, December 05, 2005
Well here I am back again. lol
just sitting here updating listening to Clay Aiken's christmas CD. Me and Lauren are going to see him in concert on Saturday...IM SOOO EXCITED!!! It's been way too long since I've been to a concert. And way too long since I've seen Clay in concert. I can't wait!!!!
John Rzeznik's 40th birthday is coming up soon.... *cries* lol.
Well....the news right now is, me and my dad may have to move. Our Landlords wanna sell in the spring. My dad is trying to convince them to let us stay a little longer. But I don't know...I have no idea where we would go. But I'm thinking that it may be a good idea to work a little harder to get a job and move out on my own. I don't wanna be in a place that I don't like. I really don't want to move somewhere else with my dad. If I'm gonna move out of here, I want it to be on my own. *sigh* But they weren't tlaking about selling untill March...so that does give me a little bit of time to get a job and what-not. Grr. Well, i don't wanna talk about it anymore.
Excitement at work...Sharon got pissed off at everyone and Quit. lol. oh well. The only prob is she was my secret santa person. lol. No idea what I'm gonna do.
I can't believe Christmas is only 3 weeks away. Im normally so happy around this time. but now, I just don't feel anything. I haven't even done my shoping yet. I got a f ew things, but eh. Im just not motivated. I need to get Dom a couple more things. I have no idea what to get him. I also have to finish my painting for my mom. Ugh. I have no time for any of that. I work too much. Friday is my only day off and I'm going to get my haircut that day.
just a side-note...I agree w/ JP..the new version of AIM sucks ass.
Got Scott Stapp's Album. I LOVE IT. Soooo awesome.
Anywhooo....I guess I'm gonna go now...perhaps ill go to the mall and do some more Christmas shopping...and I gatta deposit my check from borders too...and I wanna pick up a new hoodie at hot topic. lol ^_^ later all!
posted by Lauren 12/05/2005 11:35:00 AM
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