Sunday, February 27, 2005
Well, another few days without updating....I hope everyone hasn't missed me too much... ;-). LOL yeah.
My head is pretty much a tornado. So much is coming up on my mind for some reason and I just gatta relax about everything. All I know is, I can't wait to go to Florida. I really need some time by myself. And I hope I end up moving there sometime in the near future. But I need a job and a few other things put together.
So, today is fianlly the party at Cat's house. I gatta go out in a bit and get some Brownie mix to make. I guess it'll be fun...I don't plan on staying very long. Just long enough to give my secret santa present and leave.
I have laundry from like three days ago still staring at me. LOL, I just brought it upstairs finally and I can't get myself to put it anyway. I have No idea why. LOL, but eventually if I don't, I'm gonna run out of clothes. UGH, I hate laundry.
I don't feel like going to the party today...I don't feel like going out to get brownie mix... or even making them. All I wanna do is SLEEP. I've been so incredibly tired lately. No idea what it is. I guess ever since i had all that caffine a couple days ago, I've been on a low. LOL, yeah, I had SOOOO much caffine...I went to Pretzel time and asked for a MEDIUM coke...and they gave me a LARGE which is like double the size of a medium. Normally sugar, caffine, and Lauren don't go together AT ALL. LOL, and that morning I had one of those new chocolate macademia nut coffees from Gloria Jean's....Which is MORE caffine and sugar....:-P. I was BUZZING. LOL....Ever since then I've been this incredible LOW.
Ugh, I guess I better get my ass up and go to the store to get brownie mix for latter...I promised everyone I would make them and I have a feeling I'm gonna get my ass kicked If I don't show up w/ them....Ugh, I just wanna get this done...hopefully I'll have time to sleep for an hour or two before I have to leave...Cat lives like across the street from me, so I don't have to leave too early. Alrighty then Ciao my peeps.
posted by Lauren 2/27/2005 12:27:00 PM
Thursday, February 24, 2005
whoa... long time no update huh?!?
You may be wondering why some of my pictures don't work...Well, thats because I'm getting ready to post a new lay-out soon!!!!!! Still a few kinks to work out, and I'm gonna try to put together some form of music to put on it...It'll probably be up tomorrow.
Not a whole lot has been going on lately...
Dad leaves tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! snow pending of course....I hope it doesn't delay their flight or anything...If it does, I think i'm gonna cry. LOL. Doesn't look like it'll be a big deal. I hope not....
Today at work was pretty fun...it was me and Claudia and Susan working together...and thats ALWAYS a trip. LOL. We laugh so much when the three of us are together. LOL, sooo funny.
Haven't talked to anyone new recently...Jeff has been compeltely ignoring me, so whatever w/ that. I guess he's not even interested in being friends anymore. Whatever. I think things were moving a little too fast with us and thats what messed everything up. but I still really like him...I just wish things could go back to the way they were. But oh well. ::sigh::
I think JP cut his hair....O_O..thats scarey...thats like Chad cutting his hair. LOL.
LOL- well, this has been a pretty pointless entry huh?! LOL, CIAO!
posted by Lauren 2/24/2005 10:51:00 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
Guess who I talked to last night?!?!??!?! ANGELO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL :). I swear, that guy is awesome. He's so fucking cool its indescribeable. I dunno, I just feel a connection with him that I've never felt w/ anyone before. I have no idea what it is. But he's just so frickin' awesome its unbelieveable. I just love talking to him...gatta laugh at some of the stuff he says :).
=========================
CptJackSparrow83: im going to Florida for a month this summer to take a acting class :)! i just got my acceptance letter a few days ago
Anjellow: that is so awesome, ur working ur way towards ur dream, im so happie 4 u dude:-D
CptJackSparrow83: aww, thanks :-)
Anjellow: tha next thing u know, ull be in movies, and ill be waiting in line for ur jon hankok
Anjellow: dude, that is so fukin awesome, i bet ur reely excited
=========================
CptJackSparrow83: thats cool :) We'll have to take a road trip when you get a car :-D
Anjellow: dude, that would be awesome, do u drive?
CptJackSparrow83: yupyup
Anjellow: wreking havok across America
=========================
Anjellow: my bro, friend and i saw that movie son of tha mask, it was tha shittiest piece of shit i ever did c
CptJackSparrow83: I had a feeling it was gonna suck....Jim Carrey is a comic genious...you can't copy that
Anjellow: like, id rather stay home for 2 hours and shit, then eat my own shit, rather then watch that movie
CptJackSparrow83: HAHA!!
=========================
CptJackSparrow83: thats me and two dudes dressed like the marx brothers at universal in L.A. LOL
Anjellow: r u tha person in tha middle
CptJackSparrow83: yupyup! thats me
Anjellow: dude, ur a reely hot girl
Now why can't more guys be like him?!?! He's the coolest dude since John Rzeznik! lol, and THATS a compliment.
Today was just EXHAUSTING. I worked a 12 hour day. I know. I'm stupid as all hell, but I did it. Joyanna called in and said that her mom was "too scared" to drive in the snow to bring her to work. Now, keep in mind, she lives across the fucking street. At the very least, she can walk. But no. Her mom won't even let her do that. So, I volunteered to stay. Ya know why? because I really need the money. So I sucked it up. No one was in the mall anyway, so me and Claudia just sat at the back table talking most of the time. But it was really exhausting just being there for 12 hours. and I was only out of the store for an hour total. Towrds the end of the night, Tina called us up and told us to stand at our door so she'd have someone to talk to. So me and Tina and Lisa were just standing outside talking. LOL, kinda funny.
But.....
things don't look good at that job. Claudia told me today that the Police came to the Danbury store and gave them warnings that Papyrus hasn't paid their taxes. Yeah, WTF?! And If they don't pay by a certain date, we're gonna get a padlock on our door. And we had to refund the money of a couple custom printing orders because Papyrus hasn't paid the bill and they won't process the orders untill it's paid. So we lost like 500 dollars because of that. So, whatever. If I don't find another job ASAP, I'm gonna be up Shit's Creek without a paddle. Well, I have a prospect...Ill let you all know what happens with that. I don't wanna say anything about it cuz I don't wanna jinx it.
Well, Im really tired. So I'm gonna go now. CIAO.! :)
posted by Lauren 2/21/2005 11:13:00 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Updated LJ w/ a survey
---------------
Things I wanna do:
-Up my water intake to 2 liters a day*
-Get to the gym AT LEAST 5 days a week (this will probably only happen if I get that new job)*
-Read more
-Start doing art more
-Save more money*
-Grow up a little*
-Make a plan to write my thoughts down everyday in my private journal*
-Talk to people when I'm upset
-Get to bed earlier when I have to get up early in the morning
=========================
Kind of a weird thing to post huh? Well, I've been thinking and I think that it's time that I made a few changes in my life. Start getting my life on the right path. And I feel that all of those things on there I really need to work on. The ones with the stars next to them are especially important to me. I mostly feel that I really need to grow up a little. Well, maybe not a little...a lot. Not by choice really, but I've realized that I'm still very much a kid. And living in the kind of environment that I am, and then moving out all of a sudden is going to force me to have to grow up very quickly. So I've decided to start acting a little more grown up and start paying attention to my surroundings a little more. I plan on doing most of my "growing up" when I'm in Florida. I'll be around lots of different people as well has having the oppertunity to be on my own which will be very good. Not to mention it being a dream environment.
Today was boring. I was exhausted for most of it too. Woke up, sat through church half asleep, (I ALMOST didn't go....but i did), Then I went to work for 2 hours, yeah, great. LOL. I was only gonna be there for three hours anyways, and JAmes punched my card out for me so i got all my time in. I gatta be there at 10 tomorrow morning. Great. I can't wait.
No one has been online to talk to today. Kinda weird. No Wayne in site...lol, he IMed my phone at like 1AM last night and I guess I was zonked cuz I didn't hear it beep.
Haven't talked to Matt in a while....Wonder whats up w/ him.
I also really miss Angelo....he hasn't been online in like a week. Maybe I'll e-mail him latter.
Also, from what Nate told me, he should be coming home soon, so maybe he'll start coming online again. I hope so!!!! I miss Nate SOOOOOO much.
alright, since no one is online to talk to, I guess Ill go laydown for a bit. Ciao.
posted by Lauren 2/20/2005 09:49:00 PM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
First off, I wanna say CONGRATS TO WAYNE!!!!!!!! He won over 300 bucks bowling :-D!!!!!! He IMed my phone just as I was waking up this morning. lol. Yeah!!! now maybe he can use that money to get is CAR FIXED and come VISIT ME!!!!!!!! I soooooo hope he can make it.....If he can't theres this one day in April that my dad and denise are going to boston overnight...so maybe he can come then. But he said he'd rather "TEASE" me sooner then latter...LOL, whatever that means.
(huh, just got two calls on my cell from the same person...no idea who it is.)
work sucked tonight as ussual. nothing more to be said about that. lol....we have a meeting on wednesday at 9 fucking AM. im pissed off about it.
but the good news is, I may be out of there sometime in the near future...more on that latter.
GOD, I have to fucking go back to work tomorrow. I REALLY don't wanna go. and thre really is no point on going. I go in from 11-2. thats what, 3 hours? whoop-de-doo. Then James comes in to close. Whatever. I give up.
anywhoo. im gonna go now. Its almost time for bed. CIAO!
posted by Lauren 2/19/2005 10:27:00 PM
Friday, February 18, 2005
Updated LJ w/ quizes!!
OMG, I had the most hilarious conversation w/ Wayne on Wednesday night.... He's the reason that I was totally exhausted at work the next day, which really sucked. But oh well. LOL, it's only work, nobody said you had to be awake for it. LOL. but OMG, I was literally laughing out loud. heres some of the transcript..LOL....
--------
CptJackSparrow83: k- back :)
CptJackSparrow83: you KNOW you missed me :-D ;-)
Waynejoe: missed who ?? =-O:-D
--------
CptJackSparrow83: i didn't forget!! im downloading it now
Waynejoe: j/k i fig that
CptJackSparrow83: which link do i click on?
CptJackSparrow83: oh, n/m :-P
Waynejoe: umm lauren needs a clue
CptJackSparrow83: i need more then a clue.
CptJackSparrow83: LOL
Waynejoe: no cooment
CptJackSparrow83: =-O
--------
Waynejoe: why have chopped meats when you can have STEAK like mee ;-)
CptJackSparrow83: hahaha!!!!!!
Waynejoe: NY sirloin STEAKK
CptJackSparrow83: LMAO!!!
CptJackSparrow83: never thought of it like that
CptJackSparrow83: i think you found your calling! ;)
-------
LOL!!!!!! that last one had me laughing like crazy...it could be that I was tired....but anyways, LOL.
I really gatta stop talking to him so late at night...I never get to bed when I need too...and it's ussually on a day that I gatta work the next morning......LOL. But thats okay, I love talking to wayne!!! :-D!
I'm hoping that while my dad is away, It'll give me some peace and quiet and time to catch up on things that I haven't been doing lately. Like drawing and art...I really miss that and I just don't have the mind-span when my dad is home for some reason. Hopefully I'll get in touch w/ my artsy self again :). Reading also....I can read like 100 pages+ a day if you let me and the book is good :). I'm also PRAYING that Wayne will be able to come visit me. :-D. Travis will probably be over like every night too. LOL......*wink*
We're FINALLY having the "christmas" party for work...its gonna be on Sunday the 27th at Cat's house. So that means I'll finally be able to give my present out...geeeeeeez! certainly late enough...LOL.
I'm debating on whether or not to bring my guitar w/ me to Florida this summer. I REALLY want to, but I think I'm gonna have to fly back and I REALLY don't want my guitar to get damaged...It depends on if I have to fly back or not. If I am, then I probably wont. Even though I'll miss it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!!! and just so you know, I'm not positive that I'm gonna hve internet while I'm there so You may not hear from me for four weeks....Heh. I'll call all of the people that I know, obviously, but It'll suck not being able to update this while I'm gone. If i can't, I'll write daily in my private journal and sorta document it on here when I get back :). And of course I'll bring my camera and take pictures :)
CONSTANTINE MADE IT TO THE NEXT ROUND OF AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!! I LOVE HIM!!!!! I REALLY hope he doesn't get cut this week....I'll stay up ALL NIGHT voting if I have to...I LOVE HIM!!!!! ROCK ON!!!!
\m/ ^_^ \m/
Been feeling really good lately. Mostly because of my pals :). All the hilarious conversations I've had w/ Wayne, and Jeff and Mickey saying the sweetest possible things ever, I'm just in a great mood. I hope nothing happens to change that either. LOL- it was funny, Me and Jeff were on our webcams talking to each other last night, and I noticed that I had a voicemail on my cell phone, so I call my voicemail to get my message and Jeff's freaking out, he's like:
jeff_markson (9:26:20 PM): who called u
jeff_markson (9:27:02 PM): ??????
LOL- thats too cute. turns out the message was from my mom! But he's just too cute. I love him so much!!! I swear, I have the best friends ever. Sometimes I think I don't deserve them. Everyone is just too good to me :). People that have stood out in my mind recently:
Wayne- He's just too awesome, funny, and everything cool :)
Angelo- For writing what he did in that greeting he sent me :) that really made me smile :)
Jeff- For telling me he loves me and misses me constantly :).
-jeff_markson (9:24:33 PM): i lov u
jeff_markson (9:24:35 PM): i miss u
(see? hehe!)
Mickey- For saying all the nice and sweet things that he does...even though he claims he's not being nice, he's "telling the truth". ;-)
Can you believe this summer will be me and Chandra's FIVE YEAR mark of talking to each other online?!?!?!?!?!?! And we've never met in person!! Just talked online and on the phone for what will be FIVE YEARS!!!! Thats amazing!!!!
I got my Tom Brady poster today!!!!!! They got more in at Wal-Mart and I was able to grab one of the few remaining. HEHEHEHE!!!! I'm SOO happy!!!! I LOVE IT!
Well anyways. I guess thats enough babble for one day. CIAO!
posted by Lauren 2/18/2005 09:39:00 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
AWWWWWWW!!!!! I woke up and went online and checked my e-mail and I got a e-greeting back from ANGELO! (I sent him one for Valentine's day) hehehehe! it was so cute!!! heres what he wrote:
Hey Lauren, that was really sweet of you to send me that greeting. No, that wasnt corny, it was really sweet and nice and it made my day. thank u for all of ur kindness and just being so fukin cool towards me. I hope u had an awesome valentines day. Lauren, ur to fukin cool, and dont let no one tell u different, cause ill kik tha shit out of em. God bless and good night.
P.S. Ur so cool, and tha Lord is using u in such wonderful ways. Keep on keeping it real sis
==========
hehe!!! I LOVE him!!!!!!
I Finally made it out and to the gym today. I was really psyched about that :) and on the way home, More excitement!!!!
I was walking home, and I saw someone walking across the street wearing a trench coat.....and of COURSE it was ALEX!!!! I haven't seen him since school ended!!!! So, he dodged the new brit. ave traffic and came across the street to say "hi!" he took a year off from school too...can't say that I blame him. But he's doing really good and it was awesome to see him again!!
Other then that, nothing else new.... c-ya!
posted by Lauren 2/16/2005 12:11:00 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
*~*edited :) *~*(the stuff before the "=====" is new)
I got the CUTEST e-mail valentine from Wayne! LOL, it was so cute!!! it had these two Koala bears walking and they hug each other and go up seperate trees, and one of them tosses over one of those tin-can phone things with the string for the "wire", and they start talking back and forth and the message was "no matter what, we always stay connected". I was like "awwwwww!" that was so adorable!
I re-vamped my countdowns section, and changed my desktop background...check it out!!!!!
=============================
Wow.... Thats all I have to say right now.....WOW.
I can't believe how my moods have changed throughout the past 48 hours....
Valentine's day sucked major ass. Nothing was good about it at all. For reason which I'd rather not say. But, honestly, It couldn't have gotten worse if it tried. Things were just not going right at all. I was having issues w/ Jeff and just everything was just a total mess. I THINK/HOPE that everything is straightend out now, but I'm still not positive. The only good thing about yesterday was I talked to one of my friends who I haven't talked to in a while. So , that was good. But other then that, the day just sucked miserably. but whatcha gonna do? thats ussually how Valentine's day is for me...crappy. And I imagine thats how it is for most single people. So, whatever. I guess I'm happy now so thats all that matters. ::sigh::
I wrote this whole depressing entry yesterday but erassed it. Thank goodness I didn't publish it. I think I would have regretted it. I'm sick of being depressed. so, i decided not to publish it. lol. yeah.
James called out of work today...so I was forced to go in. Which is alright cuz I don't have many hours this week and I desperatly need money. At the time Cat called me to go in, I wasn't sure if working was a good thing or a bad thing. I didn't wanna work because I was in an aweful mood, AND i wanted to get to the gym today...But it was good because I had a lot on my mind and focusing on my work would be a good way to keep my mind off everything for a while. But as soon as I stepped outside my mood improved immediatly...What gorgeous morning!!!!! I was told that it hit 60 degrees today!!!!!!! For February thats incredible!!! I wish I could have walked to work, but she needed me there like immediatly because she was the only one there....that and I was going somewhere afterwords that I needed to drive to..... But work wasn't that bad..Cat and Susan had me cracking up which was awesome. And I saw Jonathan for the first time in a while and made him laugh which I really think he needed...especially after his father died.
So, the place I went after work....
Joy (this lady I know at church) invited me over to have dinner with her and her and her husband Michael. That was very nice of her :)...and made my day next to the thing that Jeff said earlier....but anyways, Afterwords we went to TJmaxx where i got the book "Where the Sidewalk Ends"...I LOVE SHEL SILVERSTEIN!!!!!!! and Barnes and Noble. Overall a really good night :-D. I wanna go back to TJmaxx and get "A Light In the Attic" too....OMG, I love those poems so much!!! My fave is "Backword Bill"! LOL, sooo funny. Anyways, I just love books so going to barnes and noble and not buying anything was extremly hard...actually, going to any bookstore and not buying anything is extremly hard, but I knew I had books at home to read...one I'm currently reading, (Life of Pi) So I braced myself and just kept my hands in my pockets. LOL.
Well anywhoo, I think I'm gonna get going....Time to shower and stuff and catch up on happenings of "Real World"...and it has been interesting....So Ill tlak to you all latter!! :)
CIAO!
posted by Lauren 2/15/2005 08:55:00 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
The days before, Valentine's day, and the days after, SUCK. EVERY YEAR. It never fails.
Ya know, It's the little shit that people do to me that really piss me off. Cuz so many people have done little shit to me and it keeps piling up and pissing me off more and more. I know I said a while ago that I wasn't gonna let little stuff get to me anymore. But to tell you the truth, It's the little stuff more then the big stuff. At least the big stuff you're not confused and you know right away whats going on and you can just kiss it goodbye. But little stuff you're like well, is this gonna happen, or is this gonna happen. I'm just so sick of playing games with people. I know I'm making absolutly NO sence here. And my goal wasn't to make sence. My goal was to get stuff off my chest and thats what I'm doing. So if you understand it, more power to ya.
I'm just so sick of the constant shit in my life. As soon as something good happens I get a piano dropped on my head. It's almost like God is saying "WAIT, theres too much good in Lauren's life!!! gatta put an end to it!!". I can't deal with stuff anymore For one good thing, theres a hundred bad things. And it's a constant never-ending circle. I'm just ready to break down. I don't want to, but I probably will. I just wanna know that theres ONE person out there that gives a rat's ass about me. Because lately its been so on and off. I don't know what to think anymore. Not that I ever know what to think. I've just been getting little comments and stuff said to me by various people and it's just sent me over the edge. Does anyone else have anything to say as long as you all are on a roll?!?!?!? Just say it now and get it over with so I can move on with my sad pathetic life.
What I'd really love to do is go to sleep. I'm REALLY tired. But, i can't. Considering my dad is on the phone w/ Denise and therese yelling going on back and forth. Great. See what I mean? Valentine's day SUCKS.
I'm hoping to talk to Jeff on the phone tomorrow at some point. Even for a minute. Hearing his voice is just refreshing to me.
God, I'm sooooo Tired. bye.
posted by Lauren 2/13/2005 06:13:00 PM
Heh. I'm so bored I'm updating this again.
Whoever the person is who wrote that Jeff is a fraud in my tagboard, (and I think I know who you are) He isn't. I've seen him on webcam before and those pictures on that site ARE of him. So yeah...he's not a fraud.....
I found out that phone call to him is gonna cost me 35 dollars!!!!!! OMG, I'm gonna die. LOL. It's 59 cents a minute to call Canada with Cingular, and I talked to him for about an hour. I can sign up for this thing that's 3.99/month and I could call there for 15 cents a minute instead....But I don't think I'm gonna be calling him enough to sign up for that. I'm almost wondering if getting one of those pre-paid phone cards and calling from my house phone would be any cheaper. I'll look into it. But ya know what? That phone call was worth every penny of the 35 dollars....Cuz Jeff is awesome!
Travis has been really friendly lately too...LOL, he's IMed me out of the clear blue twice this week! LOL.
tjwoodee: get to wokr
tjwoodee: work
pirate830: helllllll no :-)
tjwoodee: don't make me come up there
-----LOL
pirate830: just a second...talking to tons of people. lol
tjwoodee: haha, busy gal
pirate830: hey...so sorry...i gatta get to work...can i get back to ya latter?
tjwoodee: of course, later sexy
pirate830: C-ya :-D
Kinda ironic convos in a way...in the first one he was telling me to get to work. LOL. I'm not even gonna tell you all what he said before i said "just a second..." LOL...
My Wayne's not answering me...::cries::...LOL, he must be out bowling....or Puffin' the magic dragon!!! LOL ;-)
Man, I could really use a back massage right now....my back hurts SOOOO much....Wouldn't mind a foot rub either.
I FINALLY Retired my Backstreet Boys posters from my walls. LOL!!!!! Isn't that funny?! I can't believe I had them up there for SOO long...like 5 years. LOL! I still like them, Don't get me wrong, They just haven't done anything in so long that they're sorta passe'......Although I did hear somewhere that they're coming out with another album..huh. I wonder if it'll sell. I remember when I went to see them in concert w/ Shaggy. LOL. That was a good show! LOL.
I wonder when Scott Stapp is gonna have a solo album out...I Would Love to see him in concert...But I'd love to see a lot of people in concert and I probably never will cuz they don't tour anymore. LOL....I hope Billy Idol tours again....I'd LOOOOVVVVEEEEEE to see him...and I'd wanna see Phil Collins too before his farewell tour ends...
I'm starting to think about the possibility of changing this lay-out soon...I'm really in no hurry to do it because I really like this one, But i've thought of a couple good ideas that I might start to develop pretty soon... :)
My room needs a good cleaning.....
My damn cat was meowing outside my door for like 20 minutes this morning!!!!! I was going CRAZY. I like to SLEEP IN in the mornings...stupid cat. LOL.
UGH. tomorrows Church. I better get to bed and get some sleep. CIAO!
posted by Lauren 2/13/2005 12:02:00 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Well folks, life is just keeps getting better. Which is good :).
jeff_markson: i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove u
jeff_markson: even if i visit u and u dont liek em id lvoe to just be near u!!!
jeff_markson: hi sexy
jeff_markson: ur amazing!
jeff_markson: ur a fuckin mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
jeff_markson: i cant begin to tell u
jeff_markson: im goin nuts here
jeff_markson: u gonna gimme a heart attasck lol
jeff_markson: i wish i was ur bf
=====================================
::sigh:: yeah, life is good. LOL ;-) I love him SOOOOOOOOO much. I added a link to his page under the "my friend's pages" list...it's mostly pictures of him...my favorite is on the page called "photo page" where he has the red shirt on standing in a doorway. thats my fave :). hehe!! :) Called him yesterday durring his break from work, but he couldn't really talk...But he said " i love you" before we hung up. :-D and I said "i love you too"! lol- i sound like a sad school-girl with a crush. LOL.
Hehe! Talked to WAYNE again finally. LOL- haven't talked to him in a few days...I felt bad though cuz I had to leave like 5 minutes into our convo...but thats okay :) talked to him for a little bit this morning. Wayne's just sittin' at home puffin' the magic dragon!! LOL!!! :-D!!
Anywhoo, I must be going now....more latter if i Have time :-D
posted by Lauren 2/12/2005 10:11:00 AM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
::sigh:: life could not be better right now...Well, maybe it could but, but it's pretty damn close to being perfect. I don't wanna go into much details because you all would probably think I'm PSYCHO. But the last few days have been great to say the least. But to sum it up in as few words as possible....
I talked to Jeff (the guy I met from Canada) online last night for probably sometime around 3 or 4 hours. Holy crap he is awesome! He is so incredibly sweet that I'm just at a loss for words. then around like 4 in the morning, I called him and we had a really nice conversation :-D Some of the things he said that stuck in my mind were "I'm so scared that someone is going to take you away from me". and something like "I've never felt more attracted to anyone before". and he said "I want you" a lot..everytime he says that i get little flutters in my heart. LOL :-*. He's soo adorable it's really unbelieveable. And he sang "slide" by the GGD's to me :) and imitated Elvis and stuff that was really awesome :). And he told me he was going to write a song for me! I'm just like "AWWWWWWW!!!!!" I'm just so happy I can't describe it in words. ::Sigh:: :) Life is good. 8-)
and......
ALTER BRIDGE KICKED ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, that was an AWESOME concert. I'm SOOOOOOOO glad that I went. Mark was absolutly AMAZING. I LOVE him soooo much. He's the best guitarist on the face of the earth. At one point when they were about to start a song, Myles goes "Hey Mark, at the end of this song, I just want you to take off". and after the song, Mark just soloed for a good 5 minutes. HOLY CRAP!!!!! he is SOOOO INCREDIBLE!!!! And we got to hear a solo from Flip (scott) the drummer who was AWESOME beyond belief. The did about half the songs from the album, and then the other half was covers. They did a cover of Baba o'riley by The Who, and they did a cover of Zeppelin, AC/DC...etc. It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cool!!!!!! I was in Awe the whole time. HOLY CRAP that RULED!!!!!!!!!!! \m/ ^_^ \m/
I think I'm finally getting over my sickness....Not coughing nearly as much as I have been the past few days...Thank goodness. I'm sick of being sick. LOL.
anywhoo, thats all of my words for today...Ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/10/2005 10:42:00 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Holy crap, I dunno whats been going on lately.....but, guys are paying attention to me. WTF?! In the past few days I've gotten a bunch of IM's from guys on yahoo! messanger saying "you're cute" and stuff like that. What the......LOL. I got an IM last night from a CANADIAN boy.....whose VERY VERY cute :-D. Check out what he said to me!!!! i'm sitting there going "oh my God......."
jeff_markson (12:51:50 AM): how r u single
jeff_markson (12:51:56 AM): ur so beautiful
jeff_markson (12:52:02 AM): u have a rosey glow :)
I didn't know wether to be happy and flattered, or creeped out. LOL...And I still don't know!!
if you wanna see his pic, ask me(link wouldnt work)....he is VERY cute... why someone THAT cute would like ME?! I really couldn't say....but hey, I'm not complaining. :-D
Tonight is the ALTER BRIDGE CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLLLL YEAH!!!!!!!
and MORE news...
I got accepted to NYFA, which means that I'm DEFINATLY going to Florida this summer for one month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too bad it's only for one month, but hey maybe with any luck, ill find a fulltime job and an apartment and i'll be able to just stay there. :-D.
The past few days I've been SICK. Since sunday. I started to feel really bad right about when the superbowl ended. I was coughing and I could tell I was getting a fever. The past few days I've been so lazy. Yesterday was the worst. I went to bed at like 1 the night before and slept till almost 11 o'clock on Tuesday. Then, I went BACK TO SLEEP at like 3ish, and slept for another two hours before I had to go to work. OMG, i felt AWEFUL. So sick. I'm just coughing and coughing. ::Sigh::. But now I feel better. still coughing, but at least I'm not deathly sick anymore. LOL.
Anywhoo....I think I'm gonna go rest a little more before the concert...I don't wanna be feeling crappy while I'm there. Ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/09/2005 11:52:00 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
chatted w/ Angelo tonight...heres some of the transcript. LOL- he is so fucking awesome.
CptJackSparrow83: ive always been like that...if the fad was to wear black, id wear white
Anjellow: really, if tha fad wore blak, id prolly wear pink, or just go to skool naked, now thas reely an outkast
CptJackSparrow83: haha!
Anjellow: i like wearing my birthday suit
CptJackSparrow83: id be your friend right away if you showd up naked ;)
Anjellow: they call it a birthday suit, but there is no happy birthday suit, ur just naked, what tha fuk, they should just call it ur naked attire
CptJackSparrow83: LOL
Anjellow: Lauren, r u trying to make me get a boner?
Anjellow: =-O
CptJackSparrow83: noooo......
Anjellow: :-X i just sed boner HA HA HA
CptJackSparrow83: =-O
Anjellow: ur to funny
CptJackSparrow83: :-D
============================
Anjellow: hey hav u ever herd of tha phraes or word, brownie points?
CptJackSparrow83: yeah
Anjellow: well u do a good job
CptJackSparrow83: ::blushes::
Anjellow: i dont get it, how many points do u need to accumulate to get a brownie, peeple tell me that i get brownie points, i want my fukin brownie
LMAO! he's so awesome.
Bad news though... my WAYNE might not be able to come visit me cuz his car is screwed up and he doesn't have much money to get it fixed. :(..... I hope he manages...
No more news...as of right now...now news is good news right? Ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/08/2005 01:09:00 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
WOOOT WOOOOT WOOOOT!!!!! GO PATS!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What an awesome game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and Tom Brady....ooooooooh Tom Brady..........he's some serious eye-candy.
This is gonna be a quick post because I really don't feel like typing much.
I got a very nice e-mail from Angello the other day :). He reponded to this friendship thing I sent him and told me that he's been feeling like shit lately and it really helped him feel better. I'm sad that he feels like shit, but I'm happy that I made him feel better :). Everyone pray for Angello! Much love to you dude! <3.
Bought yet another book today...thats like the second one in two weeks. I ordered "Ray In Reverse" by Daniel Wallace on Alibris which I REALLY wanted to read because Daniel Wallace is my FAVORITE author...and I got "Life of Pi" today cuz I heard it was good and wanted to give it a read. I still have to get Clay's book...Iw as hoping I'd get it for Christmas, but nope. lol, thats okay thouhg, i got a lot of nice stuff...can't complain.
3 days till ALTER BRIDGE!!!!!!!
I was thinking of having a little get-together for all my work peeps while my dad's away. should I? hmmm...it might be cool.
I can't wait till my dad leaves......HOLY CRAP.
well, thts it for now. Ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/06/2005 11:12:00 PM
Friday, February 04, 2005
PIC SPAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Todays subject is, "Types of guys I absolutly LOVE!!"
to start off, I LOVE guys with long hair. Not too long, but long none the less...Damn, he's hott. He's ripped too which is always a plus.....
Guys that play guitar. that way we can have jam sessions! hell yeah! :-)!..Although, theres no competing with Mark...you don't mess w/ him....
Next of course, is the punk. I think we all know how I feel about this praticular one....::thumping heart:: he can also fall under the "guys with long hair" category.
Next is the old-fashioned type. Very sweet, loving, and always happy to be around you. :).
And here we have the "pretty boys" that sometimes come off as gay, but really aren't. These praticular breed also looks rather good in leather...::wink:: LOL!
Then we have the sportsters. Usually they are football players and are ussually very ripped as well....
And here we have your common nerd. also known as a geek. LOL. I have been known to like a lot of nerds....
then theres also the older guys....I do like some older guys, like Alan Rickman who plays Snape in Harry Potter...I think it's more his voice then his actual looks..he has a deep rich voice...very nice...
And here we have the "guys that are just too frickin' histerical" category! :-D!! I LOVE Seth MacFarlane...and...FAMILY GUY STARTS MAY 1ST!!!! HELLLLL YEAH!!!! WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!!!!
okay, thats all of my pic spam for today....CIAO!!!!
posted by Lauren 2/04/2005 09:44:00 PM
Holy Crap. What an incredibly rough day yesterday. OMG. I was so incredibly stressed I didn't know what to do. I couldn't think clearly or anything. Work was just a nightmare yesterday. Rebeckah is no longer our D.M. ::CHEERS::, and we met the new one yesterday. She's this blonde brittish lady whose....alright I guess. At least she acts like a D.M. But OMG, she was driving me CRAZY!!!!!!! She was saying all this stuff that we have to change in our store and I could tell she really didn't know what she was talking about. I can tell she needs a little work on merchandising, but as far as everything else goes, she's alright. I can tell you one thing, she's not gonna take shit from Cat. She and her battled it out yesterday and Cat ended up in TEARS!!! I LOVE I!!! I F*CKING LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!! Things are gonna change around here. and They're gonna change quickly. But She was just driving me nuts. I couldn't take it. Everything was just in a whirl with us untill we got a phonecall that made our heads hit top speed. Cat and Rebeckah and Karen (the new DM) were out for dinner when we got a call from Jonathan. He told us that his father had just died. I guess he walked in and found him dead. Omg, i feel soooooooooooo bad for him. So, he obviously called out so me and Claudia are panicking, not only for Jonathan cuz we know he's mentally unstable anyway, but we had no one to come in to close. So Claudias calling everyone's cellphone and no one is ansering, then she starts running around to all the restaurants that they possibly could have gone to and she still can't find them so she has them paged like everywhere when they finally call back. And we got a hold of Joyanna to come in. Thank Goodness. Cuz I wasn't gonna stay. I had already stayed later then I was supposed to because Cat cut hours and they didn't go for their meal untill latter. But OMG, what a day. Just a day of CRAP. After I get home, Me and my dad went to Dinner with Denise, Kate, and Andrew. That was fun I guess. But I was so exhausted at the time that I really didn't feel like talking much. Can you blame me? LOL, I didn't go into details about Karen's visit, because, well, I just don't feel like it. And you're probably not interested anyway. LOL.
I GOT MY ALTER BRIDGE TICKETS!!!!!!!! SO WE'RE OFFICIALLY GOING!!!!!! THIS WEDNESDAY!!!! WOOOOOOOT!!! I'm kinda freaked out cuz it's in the WORST part of Hartford. But i've been there before and I survived, so maybe I'll survive again.
Anyways. My dad got me incredibly pissed off yesterday. He was talking about the concert and he was saying how that he had better go with me and Denise because of where it is. He goes "two women going in there alone isn't a good idea or something". And My blood had reached maximum temperature and I shouted "DON'T EVEN FUCKING SAY THAT!!!!!" In those exact words and everything. I just completely lost it. I can't stand my dad anymore. We used to be so close but now It's like, I wanna kill him. (not literally). If I get a minute today, Im gonna go up the bank and deposit the money I need for Florida this summer, and go online and sign up. I can't stand this bullshit anymore. I need some time away to do what I want. I know I've said that before. I'll be living in Disney world! Thats like every kid's dream. I can't wait. I really can't wait. I wanna get the HELL outta here for a while. The only drag is that I won't be able to see my friends for part of the summer that they're home.
Well, I think I'm gonna get going now before I start rambling. Ciao.
posted by Lauren 2/04/2005 10:20:00 AM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
I'm so incredibly confused right now. I don't think I've been more confused in my life. In the past couple hours I think I've had every thought thats possible for myself at this point. None of it is really "bad". well, at least nothing I haven't dealt with before. The "bad" stuff is anyway. I dunno. Ive just ahd so many thoughts run in and out of my head that I'm gettin' dizzy. I dunno. I don't wanna go into a lot of detail about everything, just because I'm so confused and I don't wanna say anything that I'm gonna regret latter on. But at the same time, I feel like I've gatta talk. See...again, more confusion. I wanna talk to get things off my chest, but I don't know if I'm gonna regret saying stuff later. I'm even confused about what to do about my confusion. Holy crap, can things get anymore complicated?!
I guess the only way to settle this is to write about it in my personal journal. The only living person that I'd wanna talk about it with isn't online right now...well, theres actually two people and neither one of them are online. ::Sigh:: I guess I'll just have to forget about it for right now.
It's only a matter of time before my dad leaves on vacation. I honestly can't wait. Not that none of you would have ever guessed that...I only talk about it every day....
heh, heres more of my conversation w/ Angello: he is one FUNNY dude.
Anjellow: hey, do u hav eny tats
CptJackSparrow83: I want one
CptJackSparrow83: but im too chicken
CptJackSparrow83: i use the temporary ones..lol
Anjellow: reely, u shood get one
Anjellow: it only hurts alot
CptJackSparrow83: oh well in that case...
CptJackSparrow83: lol
Anjellow: come, on what do u hav to lose
Anjellow: a few ounces of blood?
Anjellow: thas what red blood cellls r 4
CptJackSparrow83: i really do want one
Anjellow: of what?
CptJackSparrow83: a guitar w/ flames around it
CptJackSparrow83: or the pirates logo
Anjellow: cool, i mean thas hot, literally
============================
LOL- I feel like I've known him forever when I've only known him for a couple days.
Anywhoo...
Went out for dinner w/ Denise tonight then we both went to Wal-Mart. It was fun, it was good to be out with her for once w/ out my dad around....but, it's good to be anywhere without my dad around.
Dammit! I wish Wayne would get back online!!!!!!!!! grrrrrr on him!!!
Well, I think I'll go relax a little bit now...possibly start on my next book. Ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/02/2005 01:00:00 AM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
I know I already updated this today, but I HAVE to add something....... this is part of my conversation w/ Angello today...Dude, that kid RULES!!!!
Anjellow: hey, do u go to college? I think i asked u this question b4
CptJackSparrow83: nope, im a bum :)
CptJackSparrow83: i think im going to florida this summer to take an acting class though
Anjellow: thas awesome
Anjellow: ur a bum? last i cheked, bums dont hav jobs, they may giv handjobs for coke, but they dont got legite jobs
Anjellow: and u my friend r legite
CptJackSparrow83: HAHA
=======================
Anjellow: so hav u been spotted by eny vatos that saw u sportin there colors lately
CptJackSparrow83: lol- i have been getting looks lately...dunno what it is, never happend b4
Anjellow: u serious, maybe sum homies want u to join there gang
======================
Dude...LOL, this dude is so frickin' awesome!!!!!!!! He ROCKS to say the least.
A word of advice to everyone out there who uses AOL. DO NOT upgrade to that new AOL 9.0 Security bull-shit. OMG, it's AWEFUL. I was talking to Wayne earlier, and in the middle of our convo, everything started freezing and going all crazy on me. Then when I re-booted and tried to start it, it kept asking me to set up new access numbers even though I already did. It WOULD NOT let my sign back on. So, I said Fuck this, and un-installed it and now i just use regular 9.0 optimized.
okay, I'm really going this time....PEACE!
posted by Lauren 2/01/2005 01:19:00 AM
|
