Friday, April 29, 2005
*~*Edited*~*
Well, things are looking a lot better on planet Lauren. lol. Everything is A-okay with me and Angelo. No problems there. We talked for an hour and a half last night (he didn't call me Wednesday night cuz he got home to late) and said what we both wanted to say, and everything is fine. We're still really good friends, and we're still gonna talk. So, thats fine :). It was weird, after I got done talking to him, for the first time in two days, I actually felt like eating. So yeah, I was downstairs making a sandwhich at 1AM. LOL.
Talked to Wayne last night for a bit..he seems to be doing alright :). He won like 130 bucks from bowling....damn, I'd hate to be the one to bowl against him...
I said I was gonna start my spring cleaning yesterday.....yeah right....never did that...
Today is PAY DAY!!!!! WOOOOOOT!!!!!!!! And I'm getting paid for my 12 hour day....Plus my other hours was like 55 hours...so after taxes, thats a good 350 smackers in my pocket which i NEED DESPERATELTY. WOOOOOOT!!!!!!
anywhoo...that was just a quick update....maybe more later. Ciao :)
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Later....
EEEEE!!!! My Darren Hayes CD Came today!!!!! EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! still waiting for my mitch Hedberg t-shirt though.
Also got the American Idol season 4 single...:-D!!! the only thing that sucks is that CONSTANTINE GOT VOTED OFF ON WEDNESDAY!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I can't believe fuckin' Scott made it to the top 3 this week!!!! URRRGH!!!!! I can't believe it. But the bottom 3 were Vonzell, Anthony, and Constantine. And Vonzell got sent back as safe...and it was down to the bottom w/ Anthony and Constantine. I can't believe between him and Anthony, Constantine got sent home. I mean, as much as I love Anthony, he's not anywhere near as good as Constantine. URRGH that makes me mad!!!!! But at least Bo is still in it. (And btw- Check out the Constantine fanlisting!!!! It's with all my little buttons :-D!!!)
Well, guess thats it again. Ciao for now!
posted by Lauren 4/29/2005 09:44:00 AM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Well, It's now time to post a sad entry, I really don't want to talk about this, but I feel like I have to. And I'm sure everyone can guess what it is. Me and Angelo are no more. Not that we ever really were, but it's gotten pretty bad. I really don't feel like talking about everything that happend, mainly because it's between him and me. But Moreso because if I try to type everything out, chances are good that I'll start crying. Ill say a little bit though. Last night, I read an e-mail from him and I was in tears. Not only was I in tears, I was shaking uncontrollably. I just couldn't calm down no matter what. Finally, I managed to calm down, and went to sleep. It was around 3 in the morning this time. I woke up this morning around like 8 and I felt like total shit. My eyes hurt, and I had the worst headache known to mankind. My stomach felt so sick that I thought I was gonna puke several times. I pretended that I was asleep untill my dad left for work. Durring this time, I just wrote in my journal. When I couldn't think of anything else to write I just prayed. I prayed and prayed for probably most of the day. I even started writing my prayers in my journal. And God then told me something that made me feel a whole lot better. But I still felt sick and pretty much like crap. I texted Angelo to call me tonight no matter what time. Who knows if he actually will. But I just have some things I need to talk to him about.
I finally managed to get more sleep. I slept from around 2:30, till like 4:30 ish. I did feel better, But not really. I had to go and get ready for work, so I did. And I went to work. Cat could imediatly tell there was something very wrong w/ me, because she always can. So, I told her some stuff and she made me feel a whole lot better. She said that I'm a great girl and that that everything happens for a reason. I know it sounds so cliche, but it did help me feel better. I still ended up breaking down and crying right then and there on the sales floor. So I took a quick break in the back and got myself together. I had to hold back my tears for the rest of the evening.
As of right now, I'm alright. Well, I'm not alright, But I'm as good as I'm going to be. I really hope that he calls me tonight. Something tells me he will. He knows I wanna talk to him. But this whole thing is just terrible. I don't know what else to say.
posted by Lauren 4/27/2005 10:01:00 PM
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
You may or may not have noticed that my "friend's pages" list has gotten condensed. And I'll tell you why...Chanel and James don't update theres at all...since like December, so they're gone...Jeannette took me off of her friends list on livejournal, so I can't read hers anymore...so she's gone. Chandra deleted her blog, so she's gone..And Jeff's just a prick, so he's gone. Why did I still leave Nas on there? I'd like to think we're still friends even though we're not. I'll probably delete him eventually.
Im still a little shaken up and worried about some of the events of yesterday. I'm just so freaking worried. But, theres really nothing I can do but talk. And thats what I've been doing. I just don't want anything bad to happen. Because of all this I've been bothering Angelo like theres no tomorrow...I sent him a text of apology today...I know he's probably not angry at me, but I thought I'd apologize anyways. Mainly because if I do ANYTHING to mess up my friendship w/ him, I think that'd be the end for me.
I talked to Travis today finally...for a total of about 5 minutes. He seems to be doing alright, which is good. I do hope I stay in touch w/ him.
I just found out today that our D.M is coming on Thursday. And I'm working Thursday. GREAT. That should be interesting. Thank God I'm only working 3 1/2 hours.
Theres so much stuff I gatta start doing. I really wanna start working on my scrapbook. But I'm gonna need more materials. I just got some more tonight :) i'm excited about making it. I also gatta start painting for my mom. And I'm still totally clueless as to what to paint. Somebody give me an idea!!!!!
Susie gave me some pictures she took from the Christmas party :)! They came out really good! Thers one of me and Jonathan, one of me and James, and one of me, Joyanna, james, and jonathan. Im definatly gonna add em' to my scrap book :-D Also gatta start spring cleaning.....
I'm still so incredibly excited about going to Florida. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm nervous too. It'll be my first time being away from home for a really long time...I think the longest I've been away is 2 weeks when I went to summer camp. I'm mostly excited though. I can't wait to meet new people and just have a jolly ol' time doing something I love. It'll be really cool to be in an actual movie environment too with cameras and everything! O_O. It's a lot to take in for an inspiring actress! ^_^.
I wonder how American Idol went tonight...hope Constantine did good....But from now on it's gonna be so crazy...Theres only Scott left to get voted off and I pretty much love the rest of them.....eeeeep!!!!! I think it's gonna go Scott, Anthony, Vonzell, Bo, and then have Constantine and Carrie in the final 2. The reason I'm saying that is because Constantine and Carrie are the only two people that have never been in the bottom 3. I mean, a lot can change from now untill then. I honestly have no idea whose gonna win. All of them are so good!! It's crazy. I'm still pissed off about Nadia getting voted off before Scott. Scott should have been gone weeks ago. And I also should have been Scott before Anwar. Even though Anwar was pretty much like Amy Adams was last year...VERY good, but for some reason froze and didn't show their talent as well as they could have. They both could have done SO much better. But Anyways...
I guess I'm gonna end this now because I can see more rambling coming and I think I'll end it before I bore you all to death. LOL.
posted by Lauren 4/26/2005 10:15:00 PM
Monday, April 25, 2005
::sigh:: Im kinda wired and happy, but depressed. Nothing big though.
Had kind of a scare today....and damn, Im still shaking from that. don't wanna go into details.
Around this time last year, I was in L.A. I don't even wanna think about it, but seriously, I wanna go back. I totally miss it there. And now I have an even bigger reason to go there...because Angelo's there. I'd give anything to be w/ him right now. I just wish it cuold be literally right now instead of months from now. My plan is, if I stay in Florida, then I'm gonna try to get out there for like a week or something in the fall. That way I'll be able to just go w/out my dad having any input on the trip. And I know I can keep busy everyday while Angelo's at work, then we could hang out in the evenings and on the weekend. ::sigh:: what I'd give....
Pretty much all I've been doing lately is reflecting on my trip. It was incredibly awesome. The only downside was I didn't meet Angelo untill after we already went. He's just so frickin' amazing. I don't know how i've lived w/out him all these years.
I can't wait untill Sunday....FAMILY GUY STARTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOT!!!!!!
I don't know why, but for some reason I was so incredibly tired today. I slept for like an hour and half. And I had a whole list of things planned to do today...I guess I'll have to do it durring the day tomorrow. Of course, Now I'm wired and stuff and probably won't sleep tonight. LOL.
I hope Angelo feels like talking tonight....I could use someone cool to talk to :-D. And Angelo DEFINES cool, in all possible good meanings of the word :).
Adam IMed me this afternoon while I was in the shower....oops, I'm sorry I missed you Adam!!!! We'll talk soon, I promise!!!!
My dad got me "Meet the Fockers" on DVD!!! I hadn't seen it in theatres before, But It's HELLA funny. Holy crap. LOL, it's a lot more perverted then the first one, but SOOOOO incredibly funny.
Anywhoo...
I can't think of anything else to ramble about so, I guess I'l be going. Ciao!!!!
posted by Lauren 4/25/2005 08:31:00 PM
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Today was a pretty eventless day...Honestly, my life is so boring. I can't wait to go to Florida and have some EXCITEMENT!!!!
like I said before, I talked to Angelo last night :). Honestly, I love that kid more and more everytime I talk to him....even if his tattoo is a little wussy...LOL ;-). It was funny, at the end of our conversation yesterday:
Him: I love everything about you
Me: I love everything about you too
Him: okay, now I'm blushing
Me: thats an understatement
Him: okay, seriously, stop...
Me: hehe! thats a BIG understatement
Him: (i forgot what he said, but he told me to stop again ;-P )
LOL! :) I love making him blush...It's one of my main goals in life ;-) and the good part is, I can be truthful when I do that!!! hehehehehe!!!!
I'm SOOOOO happy, I can get to the gym 5 days this week!!! (possibly 6 if i decide to go Saturday night) i'm STOKED. I really need to get there more. I'm working mostly nights this week so I can go durring the day. And I have Saturday off this week!!!! and I didn't even have to ask for it off!!!! WOOOOOT!!!!!! I'm incredibly happy. :-D! I might go out w/ Tina for Vietnamese food that night. She's just trying to get out of something that she has to do. LOL.
May 6th is my next hair appointment for highlights.....the bad thing is, I have to drive there myself this time.....EEEEEP!!!! I wrote down directions the last time my dad took me, but I'm still scared SHITLESS about it.....I'm not that experienced at driving and having me on the road not knowing where the hell I'm going is kind of a scary thought. I just hope theres not too much traffic...eeep!!!!
Anywhoo, I'm kinda hungry, so I'm gonna go grab a snack, then just chill for the rest of the night...and possibly talk to Angelo if he feels like it...and if you're reading this dude, I LUV YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D, :-*
posted by Lauren 4/23/2005 11:14:00 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005
*~*~edited*~*~*~
Okay, first things first...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN STILES!!!!!!!!
Can you believe it....they came out w/ a Clay Aiken MasterCard. LOL!!!!! I MAY have to get one.....
Last night I bought a scapbook. I know that seems random, but I'm looking for an artsy thing thats fun like that :). I also have to start that painting for my mom...I still don't have much of any ideas of what I'm gonna do..But I'm sure I'll think of something.
I e-mailed my Mark Tremonti graphic at the top of my blog to a girl who has her own site and she's gonna put it on it!!!!! yay!!!!! I love it when people recognize my work!!! I wonder if my Clay painting is still on clayaikenfan.com.
Ya know, I haven't talked to Travis in weeks. Well, it's probably been almost a month now. And for the first time, it hasn't really bothered me. I mean, sure I miss him. But I know he wasn't for me. he was way out of my league. But he hasn't been online in the longest time. So, he either just hasn't been on, got a new screen name and didn't tell me, or whatever. I guess Bon Jovi was right when he said in the song "you give love a bad name" when he said "Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye". ::Sigh:: oh well. He's just another one to add to the list of people who have ditched me.
Anyways...
Nothing else is new. still recovering from my 12 hour day yesterday...I did pretty much nothing today. just went otu w/ my mom for a while. I'm hoping Angelo can talk tonight...i really wanna talk to him. Alrighty then. Peace.
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later last night...........
I talked to Angelo on the phone for around 2 hours...another one of our shorter conversations. I swear, I love talking to him. He's the sweetest person known to man. I just love talking to him so incredibly much. :0)
I'm sorry...I can't get enough of this picture:
I swear, I'm gonna cry when John turns 40.......::whine::. LOL ;-) And I just LOVE that tattoo!!!!!!
posted by Lauren 4/22/2005 08:33:00 PM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Well today was just one fuck of a day. Ill start with the morning and work my way to the end, because pretty much the whole day was just shitty.
I woke up this morning at 8...yeah, actually on time. I wanted to take a shower before work, So I do all that, go outside and see that my car is gone. I then remember that my dad went fishing that morning. BUT, he took my car without even telling me. So, I had to call up Susan and let her know that I had to walk and would be a little late. So, I'm thinking fine, no big deal. So I walked to work and everything was fine.
I get a message on my phone from my dad saying that he "assumed" I wasn't working today and that he hopes he didn't mess anything up. I fucking told him like 10 times yesteday that I was working today. He doesn't listen to me. I swear, that man has the attention span of a fruit fly. I was SOOOOOOOO pissed.
Then I get into work, and Susan had already started checking the card walls to make sure everything was in place because Cat's coming back tomorrow. Me and Susan had already spent an entire day like a week ago making sure everything was in place because that was when the D.M. came. So, she then tells me that someone (an employee) went around the store and completely messed everything up. Because there was a bunch of stuff that was wrong. I was FURIOUS. Me and her had spent an ENTIRE DAY doing that. Not only were the walls wrong, but the drawers were also wrong too. Cards were mixed up in the drawers as well. And me and Susan had done that too. We went through EVERY card drawer in that fucking store and made sure that everything was in the right place and someone went and messed it up. So, we're both like "fuck it, I'm not doing it again". I was sooooooooooo pissed off.
So the day goes on, and I get a call from Joyanna's brother saying that her grandmother died and she couldn't come into work today. So I said I'd stay. I figured, what the hell, i need the extra cash anyways. So, thats fine.
After that I got a really sweet text from Angelo durring my break that brightend my day a lot ^_^.
The day goes on even more and it gets to be like 3 o'clock. My dad is nowhere to be found. I was getting a little pissed off because I couldn't get home to feed the cat. She had to be fed...So at four o'clock when he still wasn't home, I had no choice. I walked all the way home and all the way back. 45 minutes each way. I really had no choice. I was staying at work untill 10 and I had no idea when my dad would be home. If he ended up coming home at 10 like me, the cat would be starving, and probably wouldn't have any water untill then. So, I had to do it. I was Sooooo furious. I left my dad the worst note ever. I was sooooo incredibly pissed off. While I was walking back, he finally calls me (still not home) and I just gave him hell. Beacuse none of this would have been so bad If he hadn't taken my car. I could have just drove home, fed the cat, and came back, no big deal. But, he took my car, so i had to walk and leave Susan and Claudia alone for almost 2 hours. The good thing is, Susan didn't make me punch out when I left, so Im getting paid for a 12 hour day today. Which is really good. OMG I was SOOO pissed. Just one fuck of a day. I'll tell ya.
so. that was my day. Hope yours was better...
Ciao.
posted by Lauren 4/21/2005 10:14:00 PM
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Changed my desktop background and currents under my "Extra Stuff" section...check em' out! ^_^.
Well, today was actually a rather good day! :0D. The weird thing is, I didn't do much. But It was still a good day! I just hung around for most of the day, then I was talking to Lauren online and she asked me to come over before I went to work. So, I went over there and saw her new bird, which is adorable. I swear, that house is gonna be a zoo before long...if it isn't already. LOL ;-) But anyways, Me and Lauren were watching some HILARIOUS shows on MTV...I had no idea MTV could be that entertaining. We were watching this show called "Next" and "Room Raiders" which I've seen before, and "Boiling Point" which i've also seen before. But they were actually really funny! LOL, made me wanna watch TV again. LOL. So, I left Lauren's house, then came home and headed off to work. I worked with Susie tonight, which was good. Me and her get along really well. I brought my digital camera to show her because she's thinking about getting one and wanted to see how they work. So, yeah, then I did a custom printing order!!!!!!! My first one in a really long time. LOL, I've only done like 3 since I've been there...LOL. But I was really proud of myself because I did everything right!! LOL, I just hope the printer can read my handwriting so they know what to print! lol...Thank God she's getting a proof... So yeah, the night was pretty much just relaxing and fun. Which was good because I wasn't in the mood to deal w/ a lot of crap tonight. It was to nice of a day. LOL.
So, nothing else new really...I'm just sittin' here waiting for Angelo to get home so we can chat ^_^. Oh, btw- Lauren is now a drug! LOL o_O!
I feel bad...Wayne has IMed me a bunch of times in the past 2 days and I haven't been able to talk to him :-(. Today he IMed me and I was at work, and the other night he IMed me and I was talking to Angelo so I didn't get his message till after we hung up, which was like an hour later and he was already offline. I'd send him and e-mail apologizing, but his mailbox is full. LOL, he must be popular....or, he just doesn't check his e-mail. LOL.
While I was talking to Brittany today, I ordered "The Tension and the Spark" which is Darren Hayes's new CD! I"ve been wanting to get it for so long, but didn't wanna pay 25 dollars for it. SO I went on Amazon and found one for 15! I can't Wait to get it!!!!!!!!!! I was actually hoping for it to be released in the U.S., but it hasn't, so I just decided to order it. I can't wait to listen to it!!!!!!! :-D!!!!!
Rob Thomas also has a solo CD out that I think i'm gonna get....but it pisses me off when lead singers of a band just ditch their band and make a solo album. Because most of the time it doesn't work out and then they end up back w/ their band anyways. Gwen Stefani did it, and that didn't work out...Neither did it work out with Dave Matthews. LOL, but Boyd got Dave back by doing a solo CD...LOL, GO BOYD! ^_^
Oh, this is funny, this was Alix's away message tonight:
A mother and her son were flying Southwest Airlines from Kansas City to Chicago. The son (who had been looking out the window) turned to his mother and asked, "If big dogs have baby dogs and big cats have baby cats, why don't big planes have baby planes? The mother (who couldn't think of an answer) told her son to ask the stewardess. So the boy asked the stewardess, "If big dogs have baby dogs and big cats have baby cats, why don't big planes have baby planes?"The stewardess responded, "Did your mother tell you to ask me?"The boy said, "Yes she did." "Well, then, tell your mother that there are no baby planes because Southwest always pulls out on time. Have your mother explain that to you."
LOL! i thought that was funny...
I'm so pissed off, I forgot to record American Idol tonight. GRRRRRRR!!!!!!
Anyways, Thats it for today...Ciao!
posted by Lauren 4/19/2005 10:41:00 PM
Monday, April 18, 2005
Gosh, I'm so bored. I mean, therese plenty of stuff I COULD be doing...but it's not stuff that one would wanna do at 11:23 at night. I'm just hanging around waiting to see if Angelo wants to talk tonight. Talked to him last night for almost two hours...geez, I didn't think I was capable of talking on the phone with someone for that long...and we've actually talked for a lot longer then that...lol. right now im listening to that Blink 182 song that Angelo says he listens to and thinks of me ^_^. It's so sweet :)
When I was helping my mom clean out all her stuff at my grandfathers place, she gave me a whole bag of old pictures. Some of them are of me when I was younger. LOL, It's funny to look at old pictures. If you wanna see some, ask me. I'm not posting them on here. LOL.
Today at work was pretty much a nightmare. Well, not really a nightmare..but the end of the night was. Around 8:30 these two people come in wanting to order some invitations. So, I said fine. It was only 8:30, and It wasn't a wedding order or anything so I figured it wouldn't take that long. Well, 9:40 rolls around and they're JUST paying for it. Holy crap, I was so mad. I had already closed one register....Ugh, it was aweful, we didn't get out untill after 10.
American Idol again tomorrow!!! GO CONSTANTINE!!!!!!!!
Hmmm...I really don't have anything else to say. Ciao!
posted by Lauren 4/18/2005 11:22:00 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Hey everyone! I've been pretty busy the past two days. I've been going pretty much non-stop. I was just sitting around yesterday, when I got a call from my dad saying that Denise couldn't go to the Celtics game with him that night because of some family emergency, so we wanted to know if I wanted to go. So the next thing I know, I'm in the car on my way to Boston. It was actually pretty fun! When we got there we ate dinner at this little pizza shanty, then made our way over to the game. Celtics won by like one point. It was pretty much a wash-out, but towrds the end it got exciting. So Anyways, I was really exhausted by the time we got home...long car rides and my lack of sleep from the night before contributed to it. Then I got up around 10 today and me and my mom went to Avon to my grandfathers house so my mom could clean out some of her shit that she keeps in his storage room. So that took a majority of the day. Then I came home and went to work till like 10...Then me and my dad went to see Collective Soul in concert. It was a pretty good show! the last song was awesome. I'm not a huge fan of them, but I told my dad I would go w/ him because he went to see Alter Bridge with me. But Yeah, I'm pretty tired. I gatta get up at like 8 tomorrow for Church, then I gatta work for the rest of the day untill 6. And it's 12:21 now. LOL, damn, skippy....
Anyways...I got a surprise when I signed on to Yahoo! yesterday....Adam was on!!!! I haven't talked to him in like weeks!!! It was really good chatting with him again :). He said he's gonna try and be on more, but he's pretty busy. I hope I get to chat w/ him again soon :).
I miss Angelo. Haven't heard from him all day. Last time I heard from him was like 10:30 last night. LOL, I miss him!! I really wanna talk to him again!!!! He sent me a few really sweet texts yesterday :).
Anywhoo...I gatta get to bed. But...Angelo, if you're reading this.... I love you!!!!!!! :-D :-*
posted by Lauren 4/17/2005 12:15:00 AM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Howdy-ho Corn Wallace!!!!!! LOL, sorry....South Park moment...
Things have been going pretty good lately...I mean, minus some minor complications yesterday...But thats mostly stuff that had to deal w/ work and I don't wanna bore everyone by ranting about that...
I swear to God, I'm loving Angelo more and more every day. And I honestly didn't think it was possible to love him more then I already do. But hoenstly, He's like a dream come true. He's just so incredibly sweet words can't describe it. He's incredibly sweet Xinfiniti. And thats an understatement. If I had my way, I would have been on a plane to L.A. by now. Ages ago in fact. ::sigh::. He just brings out the best in me. Whenever I talk with him, think about him, or anything that involves him, All my tension (and I have a lot of it) and anger and everything bad just melts away. And I can feel it melt away too. ::sigh:: I haven't been this happy in my entire life. He said one something to me and at first I was a little sketched about it, but now I think that it's definatly true....he told me that it was God that brought us together. I SO think thats true. I can't even begin to describe how happy I am. He's always telling me how special I am to him and all that sweet stuff ^_^. It's so refreshing to hear it. ::sigh::
Who else is pissed off by the American Idol results last night?!?!?! I'm pretty ripped out it!!! I can't believe it was Nadia!!! It SO should have been Scott that got kicked off. I can't STAND his voice and he's a total moron. He has a criminal record so he shouldn't even be on in the first place. I mean, I know Nadia didn't do her best on Tuesday, but, she sure as hell is better then Scott. But all I can say is Constantine TOOK IT HOME!!!!!! He was AWESOME!! SO AWESOME!!!!!! I LOVE him!! LOL. he's the man! I hope it's Constantine and Bo in the final two. That would RULE! The one thing I like about it so far this year is Simon said that a girl would probably win it this year...Well, doesn't appear to be that way. Theres only two girls left..Vonzell, and Carrie. I think Carrie has the potential to win, but I dunno...I hope it's a guy this year. LOL. I would love the top 3 to be Constantine, Bo, and Anthony in that order. LOL. That would just be awesome.
I'm wondering if I should make a new lay-out for this soon. I don't really much inspiration right now...
Oh! by the way....my Mitch Hedberg graphic that I made for Lauren came out awesome!!! I'm really proud of it! Go to this address if you wanna see it: http://www.geocities.com/blankets_with_heart/mitch.html
Well Anywhoo....guess thats it. Ciao for now!
posted by Lauren 4/14/2005 01:50:00 PM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
::Happy sigh:: I actually had a really good night last night, and a fairly good day!!!
Last night I talked with Angelo again. :-). He's just too awesome. I love how he's incredibly sweet, and he's constantly telling me how awesome I am and just brightening my day. I can't even begin to describe it all. And most of all, I LOVE how he calls me "beautiful blue eyes" :-P. I have a few ideas of stuff I wanna get him for his birthday, which is 28 days before mine :-D. I can think of one present I'd REALLY like to give him, but, I doubt I'll be able to...::Sigh::
Anywhoo....Remember those really cute guys I told you all about who work at the kiosk outside my store?! Well.....I actually talked to them today!!! ::giggle:: Cat was working at BeJewled (another kiosk outside my store) and she made friends with one of them and he came over to say "hi" and Cat introduced me to him...his name his George. LOL, he's sooo adorable!!! He's so friendly too! lol.... So, that was in the morning, then around the afternoon, I went back out again to talk to Cat, and the REALLY cute UPS guy was delivering at the mall today....HEHEHE!!!! And the other dude who works at that kiosk was walking around too....I say to Cat "theres hot guys EVERYWHERE today!!" And she's like "Hell yeah!!" and gave me a high-five. LOL! So I go back in my store and I say to Susan "Damn, those guys are hott"...and she holds out a pen and paper and goes "You want me to give them your number!?" LOL, I'm like NOOOOOOOOO!!! LOL. So, the rest of the work day was pretty much chaotic. Me and Susan were going crazy trying to get things ready for our D.M.'s visit today. That was NUTS. But, I think we did everything in our power to get the store ready....I think we did alright, could have been a lot worse. So, Karen (the D.M.) gets there like 10 minutes before I'm supposed to leave. Thankfully she was on the phone for that time...) But I got to see Susie today!! haven't seen her in a few weeks at least. Susie's my pal. LOL. So, I leave for the day...and I get stopped by those guys again...except the other one this time. LOL. He wanted me to try the stuff they're selling. They're selling lotion and a bunch of other random stuff. I was a little sketchy cause I wanted to get home. I was EXHAUSTED. But of course, I end up walking over there. He's like "Come on over baby!!" I'm like...umm, okay! So he used this weird nail file on my nail and made it all shiney. It's actualy pretty cool! So I was talking with him for a while and found out his name is Nick. He's SOOOO cute. he's cuter then George. Nick has long curly hair tied back in a pony tail. And we all know how I feel about guys w/ long hair!!! ;-) :-D! LOL, he goes "If you want one of these talk to me and, for you, it'll only be 20 bucks..but ssshhh..don't tell anyone!" LOL. They both have accents too...Cat told me that George is from Israel. Thats pretty cool! I dunno about Nick. LOL, I can't wait to see them again tomorrow!!! :-D!!! LOL ;-)
When I got home from work my dad took me to Friendly's for dinner, then went up to Best Buy where I scored me a copy of Zeppelin 3!!!! wooooooooot! cool shiz-it!
Alrighty. thats all of my ramblings for today. LOL, Mostly about guys...hehehehe!!!! Kristin called me a guy dork today. LOL thats interesting.
Anyways...
SEACREST, OUT!! ;-)
posted by Lauren 4/12/2005 09:16:00 PM
Monday, April 11, 2005
I do feel better then I did yesterday. Angelo called me last night and talking to him...or even just thinking about him makes me feel better in every situation. But, he said some stuff that I will never forget as long as I live.
But honestly, I feel better, but I don't know where to go from here.
I don't know where I stand with everyone, and they all probably hate me by now for writing what I did yesterday. And, I guess I can't blame them. And I kind of regret what I wrote. Especially about Mike. I've put him through enough and he really didn't need things like that said about him. So, Mike, if you're reading this now, I'm sorry, I hope you forgive me, but if you don't, Ill still love you anyways.
But whatever. I just don't know anymore. People have the power to make you so happy, but they also have the power to turn on you and kill you in a matter of seconds. I guess I'll just let everyone go their seperate ways if thats what needs to be done. I'm sick of being the one holding things together, and I just have to learn to let the people go if thats what they obviously want.
Alright, enough doom-n'-gloom. Im gonna go watch a movie or something.
Ciao for now.
posted by Lauren 4/11/2005 10:46:00 AM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Well, I thought I was happy. I really did. And, I still am. But theres a part of me thats extremly pissed off and fed up and I think I figured out what was bothering me. I finally know why I've been so quick-tempered and easily upset lately.
I'm alone. (keep in mind, some of the things I'm about to say in here I don't want to say by any means. But I feel like I have to to just get stuff off my chest.)
I'm so fucking alone it's not even funny. I'm slowly losing all my friends one by one. I have no idea what the hell is up with it. I honestly don't know. But I'll tell you one thing. I don't like it at all. I mean, things were fucked up w/ some people already. But It's become more aparent lately.
I don't understand why I have to be the only one to communicate. Theres so many people now who I don't even talk to anymore PERIOD. Like Mike for example. I love that kid to death, but it seems like I'm always the one to IM or e-mail him. I know that he's busy and I understand that. But seriously, an E-mail every now and then just to say "hi" wouldn't hurt would it?. Or am I just old-fashioned that way?
Two other people I'm slowly losing is Kristin and Rae. I IMed Rae a couple days ago and we BARELY had a conversation. And I used to be able to talk to her for hours and hours. Now It's like we don't know what to say to each other. I know Kristin's been in a funk for the past God-knows-how-long, and hasn't been talking to really anyone. I've tried to get her to talk to me about stuff, and at least make me feel like I'm being a friend to her. But if she doesn't want to, I can't make her.
I dunno. I guess everyone takes pleasure in leaving me out and ignoring me. It's always ME to hold my "friendships" together, and frankly, I'm SICK OF IT. I can't even begin to explain how much I'm hurt by all this. I honestly don't think I should be hurt, because my life has always been like this. I've always been the one to be ignored and left out and just stand around and watch everyone else have fun. Thats how my entire school career was. Thats why I had absolutly no desire to go to my prom's the senior picnic, the trip, or any of those things. I know I would have just stood around and watched everyone else have fun. At this point, I feel like I'm just doomed to wander the planet alone for the rest of my life. But, If that happens, at least I'll know it was God's plan for me and to just go with it....Or at least try to without going crazy. I just don't understand what people have against me. What did I do?!? Am I really that much of a jerk that no one wants to talk to me?
I'm seriously about to cry. I hate to see my life headed in the direction of no friends. ::sigh:: oh well.
My dad's home now...Im gonna see if I can escape out of here for a while.
posted by Lauren 4/10/2005 04:00:00 PM
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Well, here I am updating again. I honestly don't have much to say, so this entry will probably be all ramble. But honestly, I'm so happy right now and I just feel like typing and telling the world how happy I am :-D! I actually had a pretty rough day up untill around 5ish. I dunno why, but every little thing was pissing me off. I was definatly a lot more quick-tempered then normal. I sort of was last night too when I was with my dad. But today it was especially bad. I honestly don't know why. I feel bad about it now because I feel like I was mean to my mom when it wasn't necessary. Not that it's ever necessary to be mean to my mom. Damn, I feel bad now. I really need to learn to controll my anger more before I get my ass kicked because of it. I think going to Florida will be a good chance to clear my head of a lot of shit. I'll be able to do something I love and on top of it, not be in Connecticut with my parents. Just a chance to get away from it all. Ya know? And with any luck, I'll find a job and an apartment and be able to stay down there for a while...before I pack my shit up and head out to CALLI!!!!! I swear, I'd love to be out there right about now...for more then one reason ;). LOL.
Work today was alright. Sunglass Hut finally opened up across from our store!!! yay!!! I'm really happy, now me and Ryan can wave to each other and run over to visit eachother on breaks and stuff. LOL. It's so funny, Cat has a friend Adam (not bad looking) who works at April Cornell, which is next door to us, and he's also gay(damn..)...and I have Ryan who's at Sunglass hut, who is also gay...LOL, we call them our "gay boyfriends" now!!! LOL! It's SOOOOO funny. LOL, me and Cat have the best time at work. Speaking of work... a new kiosk just opened up outside of our store...I didn't really pay attention to what they sell..(LOL), but theres a good-looking guy that works there who has long hair in a pony-tail and an accent...O_O. LOL, I'm such a nerd. Okay, I need to stop, I'm a little too guy-crazy. LOL :-P.
I think I'm gonna ask Lauren if she wants to go halfs on a Star Archive subscription...I wanna try to write to a few more people and see if I can get some more autographs. ;-)
Okay, I guess it's now time to talk about Angelo once again :-P. lol. He wrote more REALLY sweet messages on my tagboard. I nearly went crazy when I read them...Had the BIGGEST smile on my face. He also sent me a really sweet text message last night. I talked to him on the phone untill like 4:30 this morning. I had totally lost track of time. But, its not like I had to get up extremly early either...I think I got up around 11. I swear, I sooo love that guy. I know I've said that like a million times, but it deserves to be repeated again and again!!!!
::sigh:: heres whats on the agenda for tomorrow:
-Chruch
-Gym?
-Clean room
-Wash Car
Probably won't do any of it except church. LOL.
Well anyways, I'm gonna get going now. I promised Lauren (not me, my friend Lauren..LOL) I'd make her a graphic of Mitch Hedberg for her site. And I also gatta ask her if she wants to go halfs on that star archive subscription....alrighty then, Ciao peoples!!! Maybe I'll post my graphic when its done ;-).
posted by Lauren 4/09/2005 11:05:00 PM
Howdy folks...It's now 12:39AM Saturday morning. And here I am w/ another possibly pointless update :). LOL
Like 20 minutes ago, I just got back from a Three Stooges film festival!! It ROCKED They showed 6 stooges episodes! SOOOOO awesome. Very good ones too. A few of my favorites were in the bunch they showed.
Soooo, anyways...
Me and Angelo are getting really close now, and honestly, Like i've said before, I couldn't be happier. I'm just so fucking happy I don't have any words to describe it. Just everything about him makes me so happy. Even a random text message just saying "Hi" makes my day like the best it could possibly be and more. I had no idea anyone or anything could possibly make me as happy as he does. I"m just like...insanely happy now. lol, i guess thats the only way I can describe it.
Other then that...not much news. Got work tomorrow from 6-9:30. Should be alright...I work w/ Cat...and although i probably won't be able to get out for a break, We'll probably joke around a lot at least to brighten things up a little...not that Angelo hasn't done enough brightening for me :-D! ^_^
::sigh:: I guess thats all I have to say for right now...Guess I'll be seein' ya latter!!
posted by Lauren 4/09/2005 12:37:00 AM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
::sigh:: I think I can safely say that I am the happiest that I've ever been right now. It's seriously unbelieveable. Its like no matter what I do or where I go, Angelo is on my mind. At work, at home, at my mom's...anywhere. I can't stop thinking about him. Last night, we talked for sooooo long. But the time went by so fast it's unbelieveable. Well, a lot is unbelieveable for me right now. LOL, but yeah, this is the internet, so I don't really wanna go into it all.
So, today so far I went out for lunch w/ Sharon. Sharon is my old youth group leader. Yeah we went to ACPeterson's and just had a jolly ol' time ^_^. Now I'm soooo full. I definatly ate too much. LOL. I'm DEFINATLY going to the gym tomorrow no matter what. LOL.
After I got home, I went up to H&R Block and got my taxes done. Thankfully it's done. I still have NO idea what the hell its all about. But I'm just glad that it's done. Maybe I'll just go up there and do it for the rest of my life. I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. I have no idea what accounts or investments or what the hell my money is all about. Yeah, I'm totally oblivious to everything and my dad just somehow assumes that I automaticlly know it. YEAH, okay. I barely graduated highschool, and I'm gonna know about THIS shit?! Yeah, right......
Other then that, I'm just chillin. I was hoping to get to the gym before work, but I'm just too full. I don't think I would be able to move. Thankfully I didn't eat breakfast this morning. My dad came in and woke me up around 10:30. Its good that he did too...because I probably wouldn't have gotten up in time for Sharon to come.
I listend to the new Billy Idol album. LOL, it's interesting to say the least...I definatly like his older stuff better, but I like this CD too. I don't think the reviews for it were that good, but I don't care! I'm a loyal fan. :-D!!!!
::Sigh:: okay, thats enough for today. LOL, CIAO!
posted by Lauren 4/07/2005 03:42:00 PM
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
So yes, Mitch Hedberg, one of the best comedians that ever lived, is dead. I can't believe it. My mind is just not registering it at all. I guess I just don't wanna believe it. Not at all. Heres the a article if any of you wanna read it http://staging.hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/O/OBIT_HEDBERG?SITE=AP&SECTION=HOME&TEMPLATE=DEFAULT&CTIME=2005-03-31-23-59-13"> HERE I ordered a shirt off his website last night to show my appreciation for him. I just can't believe it. I don't wanna believe it. I LOVE him so much. He died of heart failure. Poor dude was only 37. Aparently he was born w/ a heart defect. ::sigh:: i still can't believe it, and don't want to.
But, despite all this, there is an incredible amount of joy in my life right now. More then I ever thought possible. And theres only one name for this joy....and that name is Angelo. I swear, I don't know what I did to deserve him, and I'm still skeptical of myself mostly...It's like I can't believe that theres a guy out there that likes me. I dunno, I know that last scentence may have sounded like I have poor self confidence, but I really don't, I'm just used to people not liking me, so I just go w/ it. So, I guess thats why I'm still in shock of someone liking me as much as he does. And last night, let me tell you, he said things that just took my breathe away. But, all in all, I'm incredibly happy in that respect. He's just so incredibly amazing and I'm very fortunate to even be able to say that I know him.
American Idol was awesome tonight. LOL, I love Constantine and Bo so incredibly much, they're both hott, and both incredibly talented...and Anthony is just ADORABLE!!! but, i think I like him with his glasses better. But, I noticed something tonight...He looks like a blonde Daniel Radcliffe!!!! Especially without his glasses. He's just so cute!! LOL.
Today was just a incredibly nice day outside. Just too nice. The sun was out, and the temperature was perfect. I went out today to Jerry's Artarama and got some supplies. Got a box of new paints and a package of different size brushes, and a Pallette. I got those things because my mom wants me to paint a picture for her to put on her wall in the living room of her new apartment when she moves. That, and I thought it was time I had some decent paints...as oposed to the crappy Crayola ones that I've been using my entire life. But the ones I got were on sale, so hopefully, they'll be okay...They appear to be pretty good :) . I still don't really know what I'm going to paint...I was thinking somewhere along the lines of flowers or something. I'm gonna look on a google picture search to see if I can find any cool pictures to draw or get inspiration from. I hope the thing turns out alright... lol, it'd be aweful if my painting ended up looking like crap.
Right now all I wanna do is talk to Angelo again. I'm still in awe by all the things that he said to me last night. I don't know what to think or do. I'm just so greatful that I met him, and who knows, maybe theres a future w/ us. I don't know, But either way, even if it all ends abruptly, Ill know that he was well worth my time....and always will be worth my time no matter what.
Well, I'm gonna go watch "Orange County" . Goodnight everyone!
posted by Lauren 4/05/2005 09:14:00 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
*~*R.I.P. Mitch Hedberg*~*
-"You can't please all the people all the time, and last night all those people were at my show"
-"For this show I had to like take a physical...they asked me a bunch of medical questions. And they were like Yes and No questions, but they were very strangely worded. Like Have you ever tried sugar? or PCP?"
-"I did comedy for a fundraiser, we were trying to save money for one of those machines that shows how much money is being raised"
-"I went to the store to buy a candle holder but the store didn't have one so I got a cake"
-"I don't have a girlfriend, I just know a girl who would get really mad if she heard me say that"
-"I wanna be a racecar passenger. Just someone who bugs the driver...say man, can I turn on the radio? You should slow down!...Why we gatta keep goin' in circles? Man, you really like Tide"
-"Sometimes when you go to a fair they have a jar of jellybeans and they say Guess how many jellybeans are in the jar, and you win a prize. Aww, c'mon man! let me just have some!! I'll tell you what, you guess how many i want! if you said a handfull, you are right!"
-"The last time I called shotgun we rented a limo, so I fucked up"
-"I got my hair highlighted because I thought some strands were more important then others"
-"I used to do drugs...I still do, but I used to to"
-"I go to a bar that has a black light and everyone looks very cool under it...except for me...because I was under the impression that the mustard stain came out"
-"I'm against picketing, but I don't know how to show it"
-"I'm a hereoin addict. I need to have sex with women that save peoples lives"
-"When someone hands me a flyer, it's like they're saying Here, you throw this away"
-"I think Pringles initial intention was to make tennis balls. But on the day that the rubber was supposed to show up, a truck-load of potatoes arived. But Pringles is a laid back company, they said Fuck this, cut em' up!"
-"I like Kit-kats unless I'm with four or more people"
posted by Lauren 4/03/2005 08:28:00 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
I swear, I fucking love Angelo. He's the coolest, sweetest, most awesome dude I've ever met. I'm beggining to think that he passed out Chad for coolness. So that means, he's even cooler then Chad!!! thats crazy... I didn't think that was possible! But seriously...Angelo is just too sweet. He calls me "pretty blue eyes" and "beautiful" all the time! I'm like Awwww! And I call him Prince Charming.. ;-)! LOL, I picked that up because I was talking to him and he said something like "I'm no Prince Charming..." and I said "yes you are!!!" and I started calling him that. ::sigh::, It's just so incredibly awesome that he's saying that I'm beautiful....everytime he says it I get little flutters in my heart.. ;-)
omg............... OH MY FUCKING GOD. As I'm typing this....Eva IMed me....MITCH HEDBERG DIED!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!! OMg, im crushed, devistated, and everything in between. tomorrows entry will be in honor of him.
Thats all i can write for now.
posted by Lauren 4/02/2005 10:06:00 PM
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