Thursday, September 29, 2005
Dang, time sure does go by...Its been awhile again since I've updated..geez.
I started reading the new Harry Potter book and I'm already pissed off. lol, I mean its good, but its not going the way I want it too!! lol. Right from the beggining I didn't see what was coming. Holy crap. I wont' ruin it for those who haven't read it yet....At the movies the other day I saw the trailor for the new movie...Holy crap, it looks good. This one is gonna be wicked scarey.. but exciting too ^_^ the book was awesome too...I can't wait for the movie!!!! Ill probably read the book again before I see the movie..just to refresh my memory. :-D
Things with Dom are great :) i went over his house yesterday and we chilled for a while ^_^ had an awesome time. Hopefully if He's not too tired tonight, I'll get to see him after he gets out of work. :-D
The patch is starting suck a little bit....I went up to church w/ Sharon the other day and put the tent up. She's really starting to get my blood boiling. She thinks she's still running things when she's not. She's trying to tell me that we need more pallettes when we have no frickin room for them. We need what little room we have left to get trucks through when we're unloading...And she's calling all these people and trying to do stuff when she has no right to. I mean, the better thing to do would be to try to get new ones and replace them with the ones that are really broken and shot. But no, she wants to add to them. Whatever. I don't want any part of that. Then she made a stink about wanting to open at 9 o'clock on Saturdays. I already made the time sheets for 10. She's going on and on about how on Saturdays its busy and yadda yadda yadda..Im thinking, Well, thats great, but I already made the sheets for 10 and people are already signed up. I'm not gonna go changing them now. Maybe I would have if nobody signed up, but I was just going by the things that were given to me to use..and that was the hours I saw. So whatever. Im just gonna ignore her from here on out. I can't be bothered with it. Tomorrow is unloading day...I hope everything goes alright. Rick seems to have a lot of confidence in me..And he'll be around tomorrow to keep my head screwed on straight. And believe me I'm more then greatful for it. I just wanna survive this month un harmed.
Other then all that crap, I guess things are going pretty well. Still trying to look for another job which has been alright so far...Ive sent out a bunch of resumes online and ive been keeping a watch in the paper. Hopefully i'll have a new job sometime soon.
Well, guess tahts it...Im gonna go continue reading for a while :-D
ciao!
posted by Lauren 9/29/2005 12:24:00 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
Well, me and Dom made it official. At least I think so. So yeah, we're going out now. I still feel a little weird though. But I guess its just gonna take some time to get used to. Overall, I'm really happy though. He's really sweet and he's always telling me how much he misses me and how much he cares about me. But I will admit, I still have Angelo on my mind. The other night when we were at Ruby Tuesday, he said to me totally random: "I just wanted to tell you that you have very beautiful eyes". As happy as I was that he said that, I almost started crying because it did bring back memories of Angelo. I honestly don't know what to do. I know it's not fair to him. Its not fair that Im seeing him and still thinking about Angelo. I don't know. maybe im just not ready for this. But I like I said, It's probably just that I need to get used to it.
But on another note, the patch is going great so far. I have to go to church tomorrow morning and meet some people to put out the pallettes. Everything is going a lot better then I orginally thought. A lot of the stuff I was worried about doing like taking care of the money and making deposits and all that is done so I don't have to worry about it. I know this is gonna sound selfish, but I can't wait to get paid...that extra money in my pocket is really gonna help me. Especially now that I have to pay for my car. It'll be great to have some extra cash.
Ordered two CD's from Amazon and they finally came in ^_^, I orderd "big hits and nasty cuts: the best of twisted sister" and Led Zeppelin- Physical Graffiti. Awesomeness. lol.
Theres another bear I want at build-a-bear. Its a Halloween one...its a yellow-ish orange color and its got candy corns on it. Sooo cute!
I need inspiration. For paintings, poetry, a graphic, anything.
I also need to read again.
I finished a drawing yesterday that I started like months ago....finally done. lol
Should I make a new layout? I kinda want to, but at the same time, i like this one. But Ive had it up forever. hmmmmm.... that would require inspiration too...that I don't have...anyone have any ideas?
If theres one thing I've learned recently, its: You can't stop rock n' roll.
later all.
posted by Lauren 9/23/2005 01:53:00 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Been feeling awesome lately and life is good ^_^. Despite the hellishness of work, I've had a pretty good past couple days. Spent a lot of time with Dom which has been awesome...We went to the movies to see Wedding Crashers (my fourth time seeing it...lol) on Sunday. Even more funny the 4th time seeing it. lol. I DEFINATLY have to buy that movie when it comes out. Its sooo freakin' funny. Then went to dinner at Ruby Tuesday last night....then he came over earlyer and we watched some Robin Williams stand-up...which was HILARIOUS. OMG, I was dying. I definatly have to buy it now. But pretty much I've been seeing a lot of him lately. lol, which has been pretty freakin' cool ^_^.
The other day I went into my closet. And upon searching for a pair of pants to wear that day, I came across my Jnco's. Sad and neglected. haven't worn them in FOREVER. I guess I kinda lost touch w/some of my tomboyish roots when I decided to start dressing less grungy. But I'm glad I re-discovered them! Those are the most comfortable pants in the WORLD. I would hug the person that made them. They're all baggy and lose. Love em'. Im definatly gonna start wearing them on a regular basis again.
I also gatta frickin clean my room. Was gonna do it today but I got caught up doing some stuff for the patch, then Dom came over, and Yeah, that didn't get done. Lol. also got a bit of laundry to do that Im doing slowly but surely. lol
lol, just a side note its amazing how perverted I can be when I'm talking to Scott. Gatta love Scott. lol :-P :-O. haha!
anywhoo...later all!
posted by Lauren 9/20/2005 05:51:00 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
I could use a stable relationship. Like a steady boyfriend. All these flings I've been having are just total bullshit. I mean, thats not to say that I haven't enjoyed them. Everything with Jay was awesome...even though things are back to way they were now, and we're nothing more then friends, I still enjoyed it ^_^. I don't think anything would have worked out with us...I don't think we click on the relationship level as a whole. Greg and Andy were both mistakes. Complete and total mistakes. And I'm almost starting to think that Travis was a mistake. I mean, I haven't talked to him in a good month or more. Whatever. But I do have Dom in my life now. And I really and truely care about him, and I can tell that he really and truely cares about me. But theres still that little bit of doubt in the back of my mind that says that its all gonna end abrubtly just like everything else. But I do really like him. I hope nothing screws this up. I don't know. Im just looking for some stability here. Im sick of flings and crap. I just wanna have one guy who likes/loves me for me. and I hope I get that from Dom.
posted by Lauren 9/17/2005 09:44:00 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Lots of annoyance and happiness in the past couple days. But minus the annoyance, I feel pretty good about stuff now ^_^.
The annoyance part has had me on edge. Like insanely on edge. And that annoyance's name is Greg. Yeah, what a prick. I told him off. Finally. Yeah, It feels good. lol. After I did that, I blocked him from IMing me. The next night I got an e-mail from him saying "It's sad that all you can do is run and pretend like nothing happend. I'll see you at the mall sometime. And don't think I won't confront you because I will". I was SOO pissed off when I got that. SOOOO frickin' pissed off. Thank God I was talking to Dom at the time too. He kept my head screwed on straight. lol. I was just going insane or whatever. I e-mailed him back saying something like this: "I'm running and pretending like nothing happend because thats exactly what I wanna do. You may think it's sad, but since when do I care what you think? Nothing DID happen...get over yourself. And if you do as much as walk in my store I'll be on the phone with security..don't even threaten me." I think that was a pretty decent come back. But I don't really give a shit. I was just so angry. He wouldn't have the balls to confront me. I know that for a fact. And if he thinks I wouldn't call security, or cause enough of a scene that someone else would call security, he's got another thing coming. But yeah, enough of that. I hope I never have to see that prick again.
The better news is...
This guy I met Dom, never talked about him before in here i don't think...He told me last night that he likes me. Honestly, I did not see it coming at all. All the times we've hung out, I never got that vibe. I mean, I like him too, but I never really gave it much thought ya know? So needless to say, I was a little bit shocked....I still am shocked I guess. But shocked in a good way ^_^. I just don't know how fast this is gonna go...I've been through a lot relationship wise in the past like 4 or 5 months or so, between Angelo and Greg.. and It's kinda taken a tole on me. But, I'm definatly willing to give it a shot with him. He's wicked awesome and truely cares about me. That night that I was really pissed off about everything with Greg, he offered to come over and talk to me...at like 1 AM. And he keeps telling me how awesome I am and everything :). So, yeah Lauren is pretty happy about now :-D.
I think I'm gonna can my LJ....I never update it, and the whole idea was pretty stupid in the first place. So pretty soon I'm gonna change my LiveJournal button to a DeviantArt one. I've been trying to think of something to write another poem about, but nothing is coming to me...Also want some new inspiration for a graphic, but haven't gotten that either. Damn. lol.
Don't know If I mentioned this before or not, but I'm running the pumpkin patch at church this year! ^_^. Its gonna be wicked fun...I just finished making the signup sheets and I'm going up to church tomorrow w/ Joy to put up the bulletin board. I also wanna make the insert for the programs, and maybe some of the signs for the tent. I also gatta think of something to say for an announcement in church. I'm alittle worried about certian things...like not having anyone to work at the patch, and me being scheduled to work at my job at the exact same time. But If I have to call out, I will I guess...I just hope people are willing to work. I don't wanna cause crap at my job.
Anywhoo...im gettin' ready to go meet Dom for ice cream....later dayz!
posted by Lauren 9/15/2005 08:42:00 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Wow..its been almost a week since I updated last...I really should update this more....
My dad went away this weekend...he just got home like an hour ago. So I had the house to myself from Thursday to now :-D. Was awesome. Scott came over Thursday night and brought some Mike's Hard Lemonade....YUUUUM..... We watched Shawshank Redemption which was an AWESOME movie. LOL, gatta love Scott getting good movies..also watched my Lewis Black DVD. oh! still gatta watch my new one...
I found my missing CD's!!!!! lol, I was missing a Dave Matthews CD, my Weird Al CD, and two Creed CD's. THANKFULLY I found them still in the case that I brought them to Florida in. Guess I missed them when I was taking my other CD's out.
I've GATTA clean my room. One of theses years its just gatta happen. My desk and my closet are sooo messy. Maybe I'll take care of that on Wednesday...
I frickin' kicked ass in pool last night....HELL yeah. I took three out of four games.
To sum up some main events that have been happening lately...I fell into Greg's trap again. I can't believe I did it, but I did. I'm such a loser. lol. I can't stand it. I honestly don't wanna look at him, talk to him, or think about him ever again. We hadn't talked for a good 2 months or more..then when I was in Florida, He IMed my phone and we started talking again. I had bad feelings from the situation right from the start. We then got into another argument and a few days later I get the most pathetic e-mail from him saying something like "I'm crying right now at the mistake I made letting you go..." WHAT-EVER. We never started dating again or anything, but still, I can't believe I put other people aside to talk to him. I regret it SOOOO much. But whatever. I don't even wanna think about it...Its past history...hopefully forgotten history.
So...today's September 11th. What is it? 4 years since the attack? Wow...its hard to believe its been that long. Seems like yesterday to be completely honest. Not that I wish it happend yesterday..just doesn't seem that long ago. My thoughts are w/ everyone today.
Been meeting some cool new people around here lately...pretty happy about that.
Erica's mustang is still flippin awesome.
I got some weird freaking phone calls a couple nights ago...like 3 of them. It was at an ungodly hour..like 3 am. I got calls from some international number. I went into Cingular and talked to Jennifer and she couldn't even tell me where it was coming from..Freaking weird. Who the hell would call me 3 times from somewhere overseas?! I don't know anyone overseas! lol...except for Adam..hmmm.....
I met this guy Italo the other day at the gas station and he reminds me SOO much of Angelo...even looks like him. They talk pretty much the same way...its a little c reepy...but heh, I'm not complaining! Not that Angelo is replaceable..most definatly not. Haven't talked to him in a wicked long time...probably not since that night in FL when I called him. Other then that, just got a message from him on my birthday. I miss him :(....still.
I know I've said this many times. But I frickin' love Mark Tremonti. You gatta admit, the guy is amazing. Just watched the "Open Your Eyes" video. AWESOME. His solo is just amazing. Wish I could play like him. Probably won't happen tho. lol.
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Ciao for now....
posted by Lauren 9/11/2005 07:29:00 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
*Sigh* interesting day yesterday. Worked all day which was total hell. But thats a story for another time....
After work, drove up to Terryville to visit Jay :). The awesome part was I actually made it there. lol. Wasn't nearly as bad as I was thinking...just one road..lol. Coming back I went on the highway for a little danger :-D. the best part was, my dad didn't even ask me where I was going. Which is definatly unussual..but I didn't care. I got home before he had time to ask. Won't go into details about what went on. lol, but we had fun :). I think he's gonna come over on Friday and hang out :).
Today was so boring....Had to be at work at 2...Before that I stopped at Sears to get this perfume I wanted really bad..then went over to Best Buy and picked up the new Lewis Black DVD. Havn'et watched it yet, but looking forward to it! I think Im gonna watch it w/ Jay on Friday :). I also donated 5 dollars to the hurricane relief. Im pretty proud that I did that :).
Work REALLY REALLY REALLY freakin sucked today. Got there at 2 and the mall was actually pretty busy. of COurse, we weren't. And Cat and Sarah were out of the store for a long time so I was stuck just standing there like an ass. But the good part was I got to go home early! I left around 8ish. Im happy about that...I was getting sooo pissed off. Cat and Sarah were never in the store. It was so insane. They may as well just scheduled me alone. But whatever. I bet if Sarah didn't have to learn how to close tonight, she probably would have let her go home instead of me. Just because I get tortured in that place. grrrrrrr. But I'm off tomorrow! wooooot! Ill probably clean my room...it needs it BADLY.
yeah i know...not much of an update, but thats all ive got for now. lol, Later all!
posted by Lauren 9/05/2005 09:37:00 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
It's weird being back in reality. Disney is the farthest away from reality that you can possibly get. Its also wicked weird how it affects you. Some pretty nasty shit has happend to me lately and I just kinda brushed it off. Like I don't have time for it anymore. I guess thats a good thing. No more feeling sad and depressed all the time. I guessed thats why I haven't written about them in here. But, I guess I should so no one wonders whats up.
My dad and Denise aren't talking anymore. Yeah, its a really long story. I don't know if they'll ever get back together or not, but my dad is just being his normal self an blowing her off. I personally think that he's at fault for this one..but again, long story.
Got my haircut yesterday!! it looks really nice! Got to see Bill again which was awesome :-D
I Got John Stevens CD!!!!!!!!!!! I love it!!!!!! He's still as cute as ever and his voice is still awesome! I got to listen to his CD on the plane cuz they had it in the music library thing. Loved it then and I still love it now! But I oculdn't find it many places...I found it at Borders, but it was 20 bucks...I'm like, hell no...Went to best Buy and Target and didn't see it...then finally found it at Wal-mart. So happy I got it!!!!!!
On that same day when I was driving home, I had the radio on (rare occasion for me) and I was listening to 106 and a band was playing called Velvet Revolver....and aparently Slash from Guns n' Roses is in it...they're SOOO Awesome!!!. Might get their CD today if I Can... Damn, theres so many CD's I want!!! I could spend my life savings on them.
Im going to the mall w/ Kristin in a bit!!! Haven't seen her in SOOOO Long. Even though its the mall, it'll still be good to see my most favoritst kristin again!!!! lol :-D
Anywhoo.....thats the latest. Ciao!
posted by Lauren 9/02/2005 11:08:00 AM
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