Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Some goals I have for this week (now that I'm not working as much):
- Get to the gym at least 5 days
- Clean my room....really well.
- Get more information about school and possibly sign up
- Make a new lay-out for this thing so I can brush up on my web design/graphics skills again...haven't made much in a long time. that would mean I have to download fonts again. lol
- Try to make more of an effort to get a fulltime job.
Sounds reasonable right? Some improvements may be being made around my house...let's see what happens. :)
It's really nice to finally have some time off. Although, I definatly have too much time off. But still. I need a break after all I've done the past couple months. I'm hoping I hear from Borders sometime soon about a job... aparently they called my store and asked about me...*crosses fingers* As much as it sucked ahving no time, I really did a lot though. lol. My most important thing was I got my savings account back up to where I wanted it to be. I was set back a little bit because I went to Florida and I wasn't making much money after that. But now it's going great :)
I think I might sign up for a school online. Called the Art Institute. Going for a Bachelor's in Media Arts and Animation. And hopefully after that., get a job at Disney. Wouldn't that Rock?!!? like seriously...
I started watching "Love Actually". From what I've seen, its a really good movie. And it has Alan Rickman in it ;-)
*sigh*...Went to the gym today and went swimming. I really enjoyed myself. I'm definatly gonna go swimming more often. Its really good for you and its fun :)
Anywhoo...i think im gonna go back to uploading songs on my IPod...later all :)
posted by Lauren 1/31/2006 04:37:00 PM
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Okay, so I'm a little slow. I don't catch on to things, and sometimes they're obvious. But do you need to make fun of me for it? So I probably am dislexic and have a few other mental problems. Do you need to make fun of me? I can't talk that good and trip over my words a lot. So whats the big deal? I'm human. Just like you (theoreticly). And it still hurts when people tease me and laugh at me.
So today I went to Church for the first time in so long. I went to the 11 o'clock service instead of my ussual 9 o'clock (cuz I was sleeping). It was the first time that I've gone to church after not being there for a while and didn't have anyone come up and talk to me. Ussually people are happy to see me after not being there for a while. But today I felt like I was a ghost. I knew something was up. I don't belong there anymore. I really don't. Through the whole service I just felt really strange. Like I wasn't even there. I'm not saying I'm desperate for attention or anything. But seriously. Nobody even said "hi" to me. I saw a few people who ALWAYS do and they didn't. I did see two people who wanted to see me though. Including Rick and Git. I really missed both of them. Rick was happy to see me. He said that we'll have to get together sometime soon for lunch or whatever. I think that will be nice...I could use someone to talk to who I can trust and who won't judge me for stupid shit like everyone else. Seeing how shitty my life was from Halloween till after New Years. Rick told me it made his day seeing me.
*Sigh* Well, I think I'm gonna go to bed. I know its early. but oh well. goodnight all.
posted by Lauren 1/29/2006 10:23:00 PM
Friday, January 27, 2006
(some on Friday, some on Saturday)
Ten day gap since my last post. Damn it. I was hoping to get better at updating this.
Things have been a lot better lately. I've been a lot happier and I feel like I've accomplished a lot in the past couple months which is awesome. Ya know why that is? My "job" of course. But what sucks is my last day was today. *Cries* And Jenn didn't even come in to visit like she said she was gonna!!!! That sucks. Jenn was really awesome. Oh well, I can communicate w/ her through Mike I'm sure...or I could just go hunt her down at lake compounce. I really loved working there. I got along w/ everyone except for Jess and Mary-Ellen. They both think that they're something when they're really not. They both thought they could boss me around. Yeah freaking right. Good thing was I didn't work with either of them all that much. But If I had to choose, I'd work w/ Mary-Ellen over Jess...
But anyway...I feel like I've defiantly made an advancement in the past few months as a person. Even though I was depressed a lot, what happened between that really made me a better person. for instance, I learned a TON working at Borders. Holy crap. It's amazing what you learn in a few months. I feel like I've doubled my intelligence since being there. I've become a grammar police as well. LOL. It's unreal. Who would have ever thought of me that way. I was reading the other night and durring the middle of a scentence I said to myself "Wow, this is defiantly a run-on scentence..." lol. I even mentioned that to Greg and he agreed w/ me. You learn A TON working there. See, thats something I could see myself making a career out of. I love learning. Just not when I'm forced to do it at a place like school. On your own you can learn about whatever you want, at your own pace. You don't have the preassure of tests and getting good grades. All the knowledge you'll ever need is in that one store. It's incredible. I'm gonna miss it terribly...
Today was pretty awesome. My family and I went bowling and to dinner. It's a tradition really, we do it every winter. We had a great time :) I love being w/ my family.
I'm really looking forward to Valentine's day. First time ever I've actually had someone to share it with. I told Dom I'd make him dinner at some point...whatever day he has off that week. I'm planning on making spinach and cheese stuffed shells. *drool* came up with the idea when we were talking about what he wanted me to make. He suggested stuffed shells and I was trying to think of something creative to do w/ them. And I'll come up w/ something for dessert... That hopefully will not end up being brownies.
I'm incredibly happy I have Dom. Life is just so much better with him around. Ya know, now that I look back, I'm happy I never had a real boyfriend before him. As much as it sucked back while it was happening, It feels good to only have one special person in my life. One of my friends has to have had at like 20 girlfriends and he's younger then me. H e just goes from girl to girl. He'll go out with someone for like 3 or 4 months, then break up, then on to the next one. Ir eally don't admire that. Im soooo happy with Dom. Sure, he can be a pain, but We've been going out for four months now and Every minute has been overall awesome. I feel so blessed. Even if it was a cloudy night, the stars were shining the night he asked be out ^_^
Scott Stapp is touring...hope I can get tickets and go....
Anywhoo. Thats all. Ciao peeps.
posted by Lauren 1/27/2006 09:32:00 PM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
I know I haven't written in here in like, forever. But Ya know what? I've been in a really shitty mood lately. I've been working way too much and I just feel depressed all the time. Work has really sucked lately and Im so sick of it. I mean, I love working at Borders a lot. But Papyrus is really kicking my ass. I'm so sick of all the shit that goes on in there. I've just about had it. I really hope I can work at the big borders. Even if I got in there part time I would quit papyrus. Just so fucking sick of it. I've been extremely depressed lately and I've spent a good majority of my nights crying myself to sleep. I know, I'm sad. But I've just felt so shitty lately. Dom has tried a lot to cheer me up and I just can't seem to be happy. I'm so sick of being sad and depressed all the time. I can't deal with it. Im surprised I haven't gone insane yet. I think what it boils down to is I'm just working too much. I get suckered into working all the time and I never have a day off. Although, I have tomorrow off! (wooooot!) my first day off in like two weeks. I'm planning on just sleeping late, and maybe going to the gym. All I know is, I've gatta lighten up some how.
I made lasagna a few days ago! It came out REALLY good. I made it w/ Emeril's Vodka Sauce. OMG when it was baking in the oven it smelled sooo good. I thought I was in heaven. lol. Brought that over Denise's house on Sunday and ate w/ the crew. It was a really good time. We Watched the season premier of "24" also. VERY good show....I never realized it was that good. lol, Guess I gatta start watching it now. And speaking of TV....AMERICAN IDOL STARTS TONIGHT!!!!! WOOOOOOOOT!!!! In about an hour and 45 minutes to be exact... ;-)
Me and Dom might take a trip to Florida this summer! And my dad is actually letting me...but a couple things have to happen first. I have to see if Dom has enough money to go... and I made a deal w/ my dad. I have to go to the doctor and get a physical. And I also have to either get a fulltime job, or go back to school. Ick. I don't wanna do either. Well, I wanna work fulltime, But I can't find anything. But I definatly do not wanna go to the doctor. I hate it. But If Dom has enough money, I'm gonna suck it up and go. It can't be that bad......right?
I was pretty pissed off at work yesterday...but then Kristin and Rae came to visit me!!!! i took a 15 minute break and we went to build-a-bear and Rae made a bear!! LOL, it was so funny. Me and kristin were trying to dress it up all dumb..lol, it was Hilarious!!! then I went to work and they came back in an hour and we went to the bookstore so I could get Rae some books w/ my discount...then we went to Subway so I could get dinner...then we went back to build-a-bear so I could make a bear! lol, I wanted one really bad...evne though I already have two. lol. I made it look like Elvis..it has a leather jacket and jeans on it. :-P Soo cute. then unfortunatly I had to go back to work. :( oh well. that sucks. but I was really happy they came to visit me...They really cheered me up a bit. Then Dom picked me up from work and we hung out for a little while. So, the end of the day was good, just the working part sucked. lol :-P
Today after work, Sam met me up at the mall and we walked around there for a bit. Was good to see her again ^_^.
Anyways, thats about all I have to talk about at the moment....Maybe wiht any amount of luck, i'll write again tomorrow.
Peace.
posted by Lauren 1/17/2006 05:55:00 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Well, been a while again.. finally have a few minutes to update.
Happy New Year everyone!
My new year wasn't what I wanted it to be...I mean, I should shut up about it but it just wasn't what I wanted it to be. i was excited about it at first, but it just wasn't great. It ended up snowing like mad that night and I drove to Dom's house in it. I just went slow and kicked on my 4-wheel drive. It wasnt too bad..but it wasn't fun. So I got there and was greeted by his mom and his mom's friend. and the rest were total strangers. Not that I was expecting to know anyone. So, I took my coat off and all that and I was pretty much just sitting there by myself untill Dom got home an hour later. I was still just miserable. I don't know...I feel so out of place like I can't bond w/ anyone. *sigh* even when Dom was there I just felt weird and not in a good mood. I think Not knowing anybody contributed to that. And of course, we had to watch the football game instead of Dick Clark. I always watch that every year and we were watching football untill like 11:30. That sorta ticked me off cuz it's new years...not frickin football night. I always embrace the New Year and reflect on everything that happend. This year I was just annoyed that there was football on. But what am I gonna do? Its not my house and I'm not gonna say anything. So whatever. I remember last year I had Kristin and Rae over :). That was a lot of fun. But anywhoo..by the time midnight hit, I was ready to go. I'm glad I was with Dom and everything, I just wish that we could have been alone. Oh well. Maybe next year.
Yesterday was TONS of fun. lol. I went out w/ Kristin and Rae! I haven't seen either of them in the longest time. We went up to Manchester to Evergreen walk...cuz I wanted to go into Eddie Bauer. So We went there..grabbed some chicken wings at Johnny Rocket's and then went to this arcade place and played DDR. That is such an awesome game. i want it soooo bad. Then we went to the buckland mall, got starbucks and chilled there for a bit. It was a really awesome time:) i'm hoping I get to see them again before they start school again or whatever. I missed them so much!
Anywhoo... My time at Borders is almost up. I'm extremely sad. I really don't wanna leave. I really love it there. I get along with everyone (minus one person) and It's just a lot of fun. Im honestly getting fed up w/ papyrus. I just don't care about the place anymore, and I can't stand working there. It's getting to be a little overwhelming. It's sad that a tiny store like that can cause so much crap in ones life. unbelieveable.
Me and Scott have been playing phone tag today...haven't had a chance to talk to him. I called him when I got out of work, he called me back when i wasn't near my phone, and I called him back again and he didn't answer. lol. We've been trying forever to make plans to hang out but nothing has worked out for us. it really sucks because I really wanna see him again :(.
Well anywhoo...i think im gonna go watch a movie or something. ciao for now :)
posted by Lauren 1/05/2006 09:46:00 PM
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