Thursday, December 28, 2006
Well, since my last post, not a lot has changed I guess...eventwise... my attitude however, I guess has.
Today I started searching for an apartment like CRAZY. I should have started a long time ago, but thats my fault. My dad and I are supposed to move out at the end of February. I'm kind of in a delema though...I REALLY want to stay in West Hartford. I mean, everything is here other then my job. My gym, my mom, my Church and most of my friends (when they're home). However, West Hartford is REALLY expensive and I'm having a really hard time finding something near here in my price range. So, I may have to move to Manchester unfortunatly. I mean, I suppose it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world, but still. I would rather be around here. If I could stay here then I would probably transfer to the Farmington Borders so I could walk to work and save money on gas. But yeah...I don't think thats going to work in my favor unfortunatly. The thing that sucks is when I'm not at work I'd most likely be in West Hartford for some reason..so it really does seem silly not to live here. Grrr....this sucks ass. Oh well...I still have some time...maybe something will turn up.
Last night I had one of my emotional breakdowns again...I was such a mess. I feel a little bit better today but there is still a lot of shit bothering me that I need to get through. And it would be really nice if I would get through it already. However, I'm not sure that will happen. The things I'm upset about really suck. But its a bunch of stupid shit, yet typical things for me to be upset about. For one, I have a problem with people who say they're going to do things, and then end up not doing them. Although its a bit hipocritical (sp?) of me, because I've been guilty of it as well. But I've been a lot better with it. It just bugs the HELL out of me. Granted, its not really huge life-changing things that people are not doing, it just would be nice if they did them instead of stringing me along.
New Years is coming up...And I have no definate plans. Sounds like a great time. Oh well. I have stuff to do here I suppose.......Maybe I'll make dinner for myself or something.
Oh well....back to searching for apartments...later all.
posted by Lauren 12/28/2006 11:16:00 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
So, its Christmas.....it came and went. Holy Shit. Sooooooooo fast. I ended up having Christmas eve off too ;-) That ruled. And with any amount of luck, I'll have New Years eve off too........
Yesterday was pretty fun. I stayed up a little late the night before watching "ELF" and The Santa Clause ..I woke up to a phone call. Was going to go to church but decided I would wait untill the evening. But I ended up getting up anyways just to shower, make brownies, and get ready for the evening. We went to my cousin Julie's...it was alright...her house is so damn small so its hard to do things how we used to..which was everyone sitting around in the living room and opening presents one by one. Over there everyone is in seperate rooms because her living room is so damn small....that and Julie's kid's are SO ANNOYING!!!! They're so loud and don't shut up for 2 minutes....UGH!. Russ's baby Sarah is really adorable though ^_^. The blankets I made were a big hit..Julie loved the one I made for her and Russ liked the one I made for Sarah..I'm sooo happy They liked them! and I definatly thank Lauren for showing me how to make them :)
on Christmas eve I opened a few presents....I got Pirates of the Caribbean2, a desk organizer, and one of those metal parking signs that says "Stooges fan parking..violators will be slapped'. LOL! I love it!!! Ill post a pictures of it on here sometime. After Julie's, I came home to drop off my presents, then went to church with one of my friends and we exchaged presents. I got a necklace which is absolutly beautiful, and a really nice white sweater. After all that, I got home at about 3:30AM. LOL.. Woke up at about 8:30 totally exhausted...to say the least. Headed over to my mom's and opened presents there. It was definatly a jewlery Christmas. lol, which is totally fine. She got me a necklace with a snowflake on it that I saw in the Macy's flyer and mentioned that I liked. She also got me a necklace with an "L" on it and a matching bracelet. Both of which I saw in the Macy's flyer.^_^. Other then that, she got me a bunch of little stocking stuffer type gifts. I had a small meal with my mom, then after that went over to Denise's just in time to open more presents. lol. From my dad I got a bracelet and matching earrings which I LOVE, and from Denise and my dad I got...an AUTOMATIC CAR STARTER!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo happy. There is NOTHING I hate more then going outside to start my car in the FREEZING fuck cold and sitting in it and letting it warm up with no heat! Well, problem solved!!! Had a great time at Denise's...she made an amazing meal and we sat back and relaxed. Then I brought my Grandma home..and here I am! sitting here typing this about to go watch another movie :).
Since the death of my printer, I hooked up my old one again so just incase I need to print something quick, its there. But after the Holidays I'll be looking to get a new one.
I need to move out fairly soon. If not, I'm going to be stuck living in Denise's house and having my dad around 24/7. That would honestly be AWEFUL. Need to find an apartment STAT. I think I'm going to start looking more avidly in the next few days.
Anywhoo...that is all. Merry Christmas to all, and to all a goodnight!!!!
posted by Lauren 12/25/2006 08:28:00 PM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Only like 4 days till Christmas...Holy Shit! Thats insanity. Seems like only an hour ago Thanksgiving started. Oh well. I guess I'm looking forward to Christmas. Today I find out if I work on Christmas eve or not...I'm REALLY hoping I don't. I want to get to church at some point that day...And I also want to be able to go to Julie's house that night and be with my family. But I'm not getting my hopes up. Knowing my luck Ill be working. People tend to fuck me over like that.
*Shrugs* No definate plans for New Years. Its a possiblility that Im going to First Night...but who knows if thats going to happen or not. Again, knowing my luck it won't and I'll be sitting home alone drinking Martinelli's by myself..... *sigh*
I have a fucking dog of a day ahead of me today...I work 3-12:30. Yeah we're open till fucking midnight. If I don't go completely insane it'll be a miracle.
I don't really know whats up with me...I'm in a sort of a funk. Feeling a tad depressed. I wish I could get out of it....it is Christmas after all. I hope things get better soon....and It will be if I don't ahve to work on Christmas eve.
So....I may be taking a class at Manchester Community College. Not sure what yet, but I was flipping through the course thing online and It's actually not that expensive....and I figured it would be a good idea to do SOMETHING.... so yeah, I'm looking into that. Maybe it'll be easier to start slowly and then work into a full schedule or something. I was also looking into the Connecticut School of Broadcasting...but thats insanely expensive. And that sucks because that seems like a really good school.
I watched "the Pick-up Artist" the other night. I got it on my netflix..It's an old movie from 1987 I believe, with Molly Ringwald. It's a very good movie! the description of it makes it sound a little sketchy, but Its wicked good! I highly reccomend it. It's a different character for Molly Ringwald too..it's not the same character she played in "Pretty in Pink" and "Sixteen Candles". And she actually did a good job too! Not that I had my doubts. Next movie I'm watching is "National Treasure"..probably tomorrow night.
Well anywhoo....about to make a phone call quick before work.....maybe more later...
posted by Lauren 12/21/2006 11:06:00 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Another bit of a gap since my last update....Sorry about that folks.
Stuff has been pretty well lately. I think I'm pretty happy with where I am right now. I'm definatly starting to come around from being so bitter and angry all the time. Which is kind of weird because last year despite the fact that I had a boyfriend, I was pretty bitter. LOL, I don't know, I'm crazy. :-P
So....James came over Friday night. Haven't seen him in over a month! Thats insane to think about. He brought over chips and this WICKED good ranch dip...and we drank the rest of the wine he brought over the night we went to see Lewis Black. (I drank like a glass and a half of it and I was actually not doing too bad...lol) And we watched "Accepted" and "Waiting". They're a lot funnier when you've had a glass of wine...I'm actually surprised I didn't feel it more because I hadn't had a lot to eat that day. But anywhoo...Yeah, it was really awesome to see James again. Can't wait to give him his Christmas present too ^_^.
I can't believe Christmas is only a week away. I mean, I'm excited and all that, but still I don't want it to come and go with little excitment like Thanksgiving did...I wasn't even really happy about Thanksgiving..wasn't excited like I used to be when I was a kid...hmm. I don't think Christmas will ever have that effect on me. I always have Christmas spirit :).
I finally re-did my myspace..no more Corpse Bride lay-out. Although that movie does hold a special place in my heart....for another reason other then the fact that it's an amazing movie. But anywhoo...it's Dilbert themed now. ^_^. I love it!
Im totally loving the fact that I've been going to church every week. I'm sooo happy I got back in the groove. It was way too long overdue.
Anywhoo...I'm about to go to my mom's...perhaps I'll write more later.
posted by Lauren 12/17/2006 04:15:00 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Wow. haven't updated this thing in forever!!! I've been busy as all hell though....and the few times durring the day that I'm not busy, I just feel like chillin'.
Things are on the up side right now. Bunch of good things happend recently, so overall Im feeling good :).
Even though I'm done with Christmas shopping, I somehow got stuck doing some for other people... Denise and Jon both asked me to get stuff for them with my 40% off at work (its employee appreciation). I had a 30$ gift card so I got stuff for myself too ^_^. Still have like 3 more blankets to make.....perhaps I'll do that tonight.
I'm very proud of myself. I've been getting to Church every Sunday. I'm very happy I've been going too. I really needed it. Even though It's hard to get up early on Sundays after a busy day at work. Ive really missed going and definatly needed to get back into it. On Wednesday I'm going to breakfast with Rick :). It'll be great to catch up with him again as well.
Tomorrow Taylor's CD comes out!!!!!!!!!!!!
Work has been kind of rough lately....lots of total bullshit going down. Sometimes I think it was easier working alone. Although I do like Kate a lot. She's wicked cool.
So, I have to get a new printer...Mines dead. But I don't DARE go into Best Buy untill like the middle of January at least. It's going to be a frickin' zoo. Won't even get to look really. Ugh. It's going to suck to be without a printer. Although Ive been without one all this time. *Sigh* It'll be good to be able to print pictures though.
My total confusion has finally started to diminish a little bit. I'm not as stressed out as I was back a few days ago. Thats a good thing :).
I haven't seen James in the longest time....about a month. I don't think I've seen him since the Lewis Black show, and I've only talked to him a few times. Thats really sad :(. I know we've both been busy and I haven't really seen ANYONE lately, but it's still sad...I hope I get to see him to give him his Christmas present...I'm really excited about it....I think he'll like it....My dad is going away on Thursday through Sunday....I asked him if he wanted to come over and he said yeah...so hopefully I'll get to see him this weekend.
UGH....I gotta go take a shower and get ready to go back to hell...I mean, Work.
wish me luck.
posted by Lauren 12/11/2006 10:22:00 AM
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