Monday, January 29, 2007
*Sigh* alas, my vacation is over as of 4:00 today. AHHHH....whens the next one???? I totally needed this. It's exactly what I needed. The first few days of it were a little rocky, and it definatly did have its fair share of stress, but over all, I was able to relax and take a deep breath and clear my mind a little. And this coming year I get TWO weeks.....yay!!!! I know I want the week of my Brithday off, but I have to decide on another week...maybe a week in May or something. I really want to go back to Florida....... and hopefully Ican make that happen.
Stand-up showdown was on last night...and the top 20 comedians are:
20. Craig Shoemaker
19. John Reep
18. Pablo Francisco
17. Kyle Cease
16. Amazing Jonathan
15. Becky Pedigo
14. Carlos Mencia
13.Lynne Koplitz
12. Mike Birbiglia
11. Demetri Martin
10. Rich Vos
9. Mitch Hedberg
8. Steve Byrne
7. Lewis Black
6. Stephen Lynch
5. Jeff Dunham
4. Frank Caliendo
3. Jim Gaffigan
2. Rocky La Porte
1. Dane Cook
I was mad that Rocky La Porte got number two...he is AWEFUL. Some of them I've never heard of before. I'm actually surprised that Lewis Black got number 7...because when I checked the votes last, him and Dane Cook were in first and second. One person must have voted for that dude like a million times. They showed the entire "Beyond the Pale" special which was awesome too. Jim Gaffigan has a lot better material now than he did when I saw him live. I actually want to buy that DVD. LOL, it's pretty funny. I'm not really surprised that Dane Cook got number one...in the past year or so he's just totally exploded in popularity. After the countdown, they showed Lisa Lampinelli's "Dirty Girl" special that Eva actually got to go too >_< lucky bitch...lol. OMG that was hilarious. I was on the floor laughing.
but anywhoo...
My friend Mike (Kristin's ex boyfriend) who I haven't talked to in a really long time IMed me a few times recently. And surprisingly, it's been a pleasure talking to him. I don't think we've argued once. Compared to last time where pretty much every conversation we had was an argument. So yeah, thats been nice to have someone else to talk to. He's definately changed a lot for the better...and I probably have too since we last spoke.
My computer went TOTALLY FUCKING CRAZY (it was my fault though) And yeah...I lost everything yet again. But thats not going to happen anymore. imediately after that happend, I went ot Best Buy and got a 2GB memory stick so I can store all of my stuff (or the imporatant stuff at least) on there. Because a lost of a couple of really important things and it's PISSING me off. But its nothing that can't be fixed I don't think. The worst part is I'm going to ahve to re-load all of my songs back on my Ipod because I no longer have the link to that library. GRRR...I think thats the most annoying part. But ohhhh well.
I cashed in all of my change.....$350. WOOOOOOOT! I had to use coinstar unfortunatly because it was all loose, and they charge, so really, I had more than that. But still, thats a whole hell of a lot of money to have in change! I need to get one of those coin sorter things.
In other news....Dave Matthews Band Magic Brownie ice cream is indeed pure magic.
Still not much luck on finding an apartment. Although I did get some good news. My dad talked to our landlord and asked if they would rent to us agian, and he said its a possibility. So yeah, I may have another shot. But the thing is, I'd have to get a room mate because I can't afford to live here on my own. And you all know how I feel about getting a roomate. I guess the idea is to find someone whose never really home. But...ick. I just wish I could live by myself. Especially here. I don't feel like moving all my stuff and I really like where I am now. *Cries* this blows. But oh well, I'll work it out.
Heh, its weird how I have virtually nothing to talk about anymore...well, I do, I just save it for my private journal....oh well. Later all.
posted by Lauren 1/29/2007 11:18:00 AM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
I know I know....I haven't written in another really long time. But I can honestly say this time..that I forgot. LOL. A lot of stuff happend this week and I kind of got distracted.
For one, American Idol started this week ^_^. I didn't get to see it on Tuesday because I was at work and forgot to tape it, but I did see most of it on Wednesday...and Yeah..I only saw one person who I thought was OK.. The dude with the affro was decent. But nothing fantastic yet.
I actually got to the gym a couple days this week which was also awesome.
My apartment hunt continues. No luck yet. I looked at a studio in West Hartford for 585 a month including heat, hot water, and electricity. Would have been great...but the only thing was, it was TINY. It was like the size of my room now! theres no way I could live a comfortable life in there. I don't even think my bed would have fit in that "living area" if thats what you want to call it. the fridge wasn't even full size...it was about 3 feet tall, and the sink was about a foot wide. Yeah, not even big enough to wash dishes in.(come to think of it, I'm not even sure if it had a dishwasher.) Anywhoo...that was a failure. But I'm still looking. Hopefully something will turn up. I'm praying...I can't move in with Denise...that would be a nightmare. I still have time....just have to keep working at it. My mom is helping me out too which is greatly appreciated..she's looking online and in the newspaper and making phone calls for me. Theres one place in Wetheresfield that I'm going to call tomorrow.
So, today was the first day of my week vacation from work. And today was actually a really good day. Went to church in the morning and had a fun day out, and got some work done. Plenty of laughs and smiles were shared which is good too :).I'm especially happy that I started going to church again. I've been going every week for a while now. I love it more and more each week.
I've become such a bitter bitch lately. Which is actually a good thing in the situations that have come up where I've found myself being a "bitter bitch". I told off another friend of mine....John. (not to be confused with Jon) okay so, we got into a little "disagreement" if thats what you want to call it...(it really wasn't, but whatever.) But I thought everything was cool, because it was. So he sends me a text message saying "the next time you're on your computer, send me an IM because we haven't talked in a while"...or something to that affect. So I did just that. I sent him an IM and we had a slow conversation..I wasn't being my ussual self, but I was doing it purposely. Anywhoo, Half way through the conversation I asked him "are you mad at me"? I asked him that mostly because I wasn't 100% percent sure that things were okay from before. And he said something like "in a way, yes" And I said "Well, I'd rather talk about it than let there be tension in the air." and he said "Well, what will change?" And thats when I snapped. Seems to me, If you have a problem with someone who you actually care about and like as a friend, you talk about issues you may have and try to resolve them before they turn into something bigger. But yeah, he didnt' want to do that. He just wanted to carry on and la-de-da, but be mad at me. Sounds real intellegant doesn't it? So I jumped right back and started bitching at him. I'm like " I've been too nice for too long. I can't be strung along anymore...either you're my friend or you're not." Thats pretty much what happend too. He was stringing me along and starting these little "feuds" in bettween. So yeah, I said no more. I'm tellin' you... I've become a totally different person. The "old me" would have taken the blame for everything (even though nothing was my fault) and started crying and begged him to still be my friend. But nope, not anymore. I'm finally learning to stand up for myself and not let anyone treat me like crap. And ya know what?....I love it.
Seeing that I want to sever all possible ties from certain people, mostly the forementioned, I'm going to cingular tomorrow to change my phone number. I'll give it to those I care about.
In other news... Pomegranate (sp?) Jelly Belly's are delicious.
Another goo goo dolls concert is coming up!!!!!!!! I soooooooo hope I can actually make it to this one!!!!!!!!!!!! Its on March 23 in Fairfield, CT. I want to go sooooooooooo bad!!!!!!
Well...thats all folks. Ill catch you cats on the flip-flop :-P
posted by Lauren 1/21/2007 10:34:00 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Interesting past couple of days. Wednesday was a pretty fun day. I hung out with Rae!!! That was awesome considering I haven't seen her in forever. We went to the center and got coffee, then we went to see "Happily N'ever after" which was really awesome, then we went to Pizza World for dinner and poked around in Borders. But later on, I had another one of my famous mental breakdowns. Although this time was much worse than ussual. I was a total fucking mess. And it lasted a lot longer than normal. I woke up early the next morning to go get my oil changed and my car starter installed and was just anxious and ready to explode the whole time. It was absolutely INSANE. But the weird part was, all of a sudden at a random point in the day, I just felt (literally) all the stress/anxiety/whatever you want to call it lift off of me and I felt fine. I have no idea what the fuck could have possibly come over me. I know its no the first time, but its the first time that it's been that bad. Who knows, maybe I am insane. LOL. However since then I've been totally fine, if not great.
Friday and Saturday were the longest days of wor EVER. LOL, and this week is probably going to go by wicked slow because my vacation is next week....I soooooo can't wait. It's going to be wicked hard to go back to work though...I still have to make some sort of plans. I was thinking North Hampton, Mass. I haven't been there in FOREVER and I love it. Sounds like a good place to go for the day. The only problem is have nobody to go with. lol. Oh well, a trip by myself I suppose wouldn't be all that bad.
well...with all of that said I suppose there is nothing else to talk about. lol. Kind of a short entry I know...but a good deal of my "journaling" time has been in my private journal....so sorry folks for the lack of reading material. Later :-P
posted by Lauren 1/14/2007 01:58:00 PM
Saturday, January 06, 2007
*New video on the right side ;)*
It's been a while indeed. Haven't had much to write about I guess. The past few days haven't been the greatest. So much shit going on and I just really don't want to deal with it. And I'm sort of putting it off...which will just make it worse later on...so yeah, thats kind of stupid. That, and shit from my past has come back to haunt me and my mood has been a combination of angry/annoyed/pissed off/upset/depressed because of all that. There have been some moments of happiness though. Like for example...the other day Melissa comes up to me at work and goes "Can we talk for a second?" And I'm thinking "holy fucking shit, what did I do? am I in trouble? WTF is going on?!?!" and I'm all freaking out inside...but she said "don't worry, you're not in trouble" and I let out a sigh of relief. She said to me "Do you know that you have vacation time?" and I'm like "huh?? no....." and yeah...I have a week of vacation that I was totally oblivious to. Thats incredible. lol. And I have to use it by the end of January otherwise I lose it. So I'm taking it on the 21st-the 28th. Thats soooo awesome and I totally can't wait. The only thing is I have to think of something fun to do by myself....seeing that I have nobody to do anything with. That may be a little difficult. I was thinking about calling my cousin Jenn and maybe going to NYC to visit her for a day or two. That'd be kind of fun. And I was also thinking about just driving and seeing where I end up. I don't know...we'll see. :). I'm just glad I have some time off...I need a break soooooo badly maybe I'll actually be able to take a day and do NOTHING. I haven't done that in a really long time. I can't even remember the last time. Every time I have a day off I think I have to do something...like go out and run errands or go to the mall or whatever. But then I'm still tired from running around and not relaxing. Hopefully I'll find it within myself to do that. I have tomorrow off at least...I think I'm going to go to the gym. I could use work-out soooooooo badly....but after Church of course.
speaking of Church...
I'm really happy..I've been going every week without hesitation. I've been getting my butt up and being there. I'm happy I got back in the groove of going. I really need Church in my life. And I Love it. I remember when I was a kid I didn't though. I used to bring books to church with me. LOL. I really wish I could take like a Bible study class..but because of my shitty work schedule I don't think I'd be able to do it.
I found two really nice apartments in Plainville the other day...called both of them and left a message for both of them...and haven't heard back from either. Grrrr.......
I finally saw James the other day and was able to give him his Christmas present...he seemed to really like it...I hope he did :). Also took him out for pizza which I was happy to do ^_^.
Got a really lovely New Year card in the mail from Susan :) It's one of the hand made cards from Papyrus. And the message she wrote inside it was awesome..she always writes really nice stuff, but I think this one is the best:
"Rid yourself of bad habits, sad memories.
You have the power of love.
Celebrate yourself!
Blessed be."
I think she read my mind because thats exactly what I need to do. I need some sort of mind eraser to get rid of all the excess bullshit that floats to my conscious mind every now and then.
If anyone has any ideas of something I can do durring my vacation, that'd be awesome :)
I know a couple things I'm going to do, but they're more errand type things I've been meaning to do. Hehe, or if anyone is around to do something, give me a shout!!!
anywhoo...later dayz!
posted by Lauren 1/06/2007 05:48:00 PM
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