Thursday, February 22, 2007
I know I've said this many many times before, but even though I can be in a bad mood some of the time, It takes very little to bring me back into a good mood again. Yesterday was a really awesome day. I woke up and was really happy, and the day just got better and better.
Rae is home this week, so she came over and we went to the movies and saw "Ghost Rider". Incredible movie by the way... It was actually really creepy at parts, but it was so freakin' good. I swear, the more movies I see Nicholas Cage in, the more I like him. If you haven't seen "Matchstick Men", I would recommend that as well. And of course, everyone has seen "National Treasure" :-). But anywhoo...Yeah, we went to the movies and chilled and went to Red Robin for dinner, and then I went out later. It was honestly one of the best days I've had in a really long time, Although part of it being a little nerve wracking...haha, but let's not go into that. :-P
I'm trying my very best to plan a trip to Florida for either May or June. I TOTALLY want to go back. I want to go back so bad I can barely handle it. The only issue I have is, I have nobody to go with. I e-mailed Larkin and she told me that she's going to be there in June...so maybe between her and Nichole I could keep busy for the week. And as I know very well, I'm perfectly capable of doing things and keeping busy by myself. I just wish someone could go with me...It'd make it that much more special :).
As much as I wanted to go to Vegas for my 21st birthday, I think I'd rather go to Florida. I just miss it so incredibly much. If I could live in Disney, I totally would. No questions asked. I just love the happy, warm, welcoming atmosphere. Not to mention how much stuff there is to do there that NEVER get old. *Sigh*
Ugh, Have to leave for work in a little bit......Great. I can hardly wait.
Well, kind of a short entry, but I have to go get ready....later all.
posted by Lauren 2/22/2007 12:23:00 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
Well here I am again...I survived Valentine's day...And something good actually happened that day as well. :-D But still, I don't like that "holiday".
I absolutely love the movie "Cars". I can't get enough of it lately. I think I've watched it every day for the past three days. It's just so great. And of course it has sentimental value because of who I saw it with. haha ^_^.
I just got a surprising IM. From John...the guy I told off a few months back. Kind of interesting.
Well, It looks like I'm going to move into Denise's house. I REALLY REALLY don't want to, but I can't find an apartment. The one I applied to the guy never fucking called me back. Whatever. fuck him. I guess the good part is I'll be able to save some money. Probably more than I would be able to save if I was living alone. And I have money from my settlement coming to me this year I think, so that's good. I have a new goal. I really want to move back out to Arizona. And I'm hoping to do that in the next year- year and a half. I just want out of this state. And I'm praying to God every day that I will have a companion on this journey with me. Praying every day. That would make my life complete. I just want to get the flying fuck out of this state, away from all the assholes that surround me around here. I fucking hate the north-east. It's cold, the people are fucked up, and it just sucks ass. Get me the fuck out of here ASAP. Thats all I want. The only REALLY hard thing about leaving here is my Church. I don't want to leave my church...Nothing will ever be harder in my life.
Wednesday is going to be a fun day...I get to see Rae in the afternoon, then Hannah and I are hanging out after she gets out of work! ^_^ Can't wait!
I know this is going to sounds like the most insane thing you've ever heard, but, Ive been totally grooving on the Spice Girls again recently. I was a huge fan of theres when I was younger (like 10) and I guess I never grew out of it. Want to hear something good? Try being at a really emotional state in your life, and then listening to "Viva Forever". That song made my cry to begin with...but now, holy shit. Lol. Can't help it, I just love them. Never got to see them in concert unfortunately. Maybe they'll do a reunion tour or something...I would totally go. LOL.
Haha, this is another random bit of information, but oh well. LOL :-P. Okay, so I know I have a really horrible memory. Short-term memory at least. For example, if someone tells me to bring something with me to their house, chances are good I'll forget it unless I write it down, or put it somewhere I'm going to see it. But the funny part is, I know ahead of time what I'm going to remember and what I'm going to forget. Lol, I'm such a basket case.
Well anywhoo...I think I'm going to go watch "Keeping the Faith". :) I LOVE that movie...and it's something else besides "Cars" which is a shock. lol
posted by Lauren 2/19/2007 10:44:00 PM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Well, it's Valentine's day. No holiday is worse than this day. I fucking hate it so much. It's way too commercial and designed to make people feel like shit who are single. I know they say that it's about more than just your significant other, but thats bullshit. I tried to get something for a good friend of mine and everything says "I love you" "Kiss me" or "Be Mine" or some other saying similar to that. I know you can give someone those things on a friendship level, but thats not what it's intended for. Fucking shit I hate this holiday. And It's not even the fact that I'm bitter because I don't have a boyfriend. Although that is obviously part of it. Even last year when I had a boyfriend It wasn't all that great. I ended up getting Dom this lame shit that he probably threw out by now. I can really only blame myself though. I don't have a boyfriend, but then again, I'm not looking for one either. Not in the least. I thought I was for a while, but when it boils down to it, it's really not what I want. I'm absolutely petrified to be in another relationship. After everything I've been through in this past year with guys.....fuck it, I just can't do it. I'm tired of being treated like shit and have my feelings hurt every time I turn around. So, needless to say, I'm out of the game. And am going to be for a very very very very very VERY long time. My sanity isn't worth risking at this point just so I can have someone to hug and kiss. So If there happens to be anyone out there who was looking forward to a relationship with me, Sorry, take a ticket and come back later......much later.
posted by Lauren 2/14/2007 07:30:00 PM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
UGH, again a long hiatus with no update...I really wanted to update too, just never got around to it I guess.
Well, As I type, snow is falling from the sky in large amounts. I'm not terribly thrilled about it, but at least I got home from work tonight before it got too bad, and I'm off tomorrow which is supposed to be the height of this supposed "storm". They say between five and ten inches....we'll probably get like half of that. LOL, I love how they dramatize the weather...everything is probably already canceled for tomorrow. My mom told be about this new thing they have now where they send you a text message when school is closed. Thats kind of cool! They didn't have that when I was in school! but then again, I didn't really have a cell phone untill like senior year, so yeah...
This morning I went and got my hair cut and highlighted. I love it!!! One of the new stylists (Kellen) highlighted it and it came out really awesome! Bill of course did my cut...wouldn't trust it with anyone else...
Honestly, not a whole lot of anything exciting has happend. A tad bit of shit hit the fan at work, but I think thats pretty much settled now..even though I don't know what the final outcome was.
Still on this brink of massive confusion. LOL, I'm just SO confused about EVERYTHING. Although I'm a lot more calm about it than I have been in the past few weeks.
I applied for an apartment the other day. I haven't heard anything yet...*Sigh* i really hope I get it...I'm stressing out over this whole business. This one is only down the street from where I am now and I can afford it. I just really hope I get it.....I NEED to move out.
Haven't seen James in quite a while....that sucks :( Seems like both of us are busy all the time.
While I was bored at work the other day, I kind of came up with something. I realized that I'm going to take everything that comes at me and try to stay positive. I can't live my life thinking everything is horrible. I have to move on and really live by the saying that "everything happens for a reason" I truely believe that and yet, I tend to let that thought escape me from time to time. I guess I get too caught up in the negativity to really calm down and look at the whole picture and realize that it's not all bad. I don't really have many friends so It's up to me to make this work. I mean, there are a few people who I know will always be there for me, but It's mostly mind over matter. I can't count on other people to make me happy. I have to do it myself. Every bad thing, every bad person that comes my way I just have to brush aside and say "I'm not going to let this get to me" and move on with my life. It's really the only way to make things work and prevent myself from going insane. I just hope I can stand by what I just wrote and not go overboard. Although, It may take a while to really get it down. Just have to keep my head up and show my smile :).
Well, tomorrow, regardless of the snow, is going to be a good day. Its going to be sitting by the fireplace reading and watching movies, and sipping a nice warm cup of hot chocolate. Mmmm......^_^
Peace all.
posted by Lauren 2/13/2007 11:11:00 PM
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