Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Alrighty, where do I begin?! The past couple days have been a ROLLERCOASTER to say the least. My emotions have been up, down, and up and down at the same time. It's insane!! Some really truely amazing stuff has happend, and some really truely horrible stuff has happened. Im trying to concentrate on the good stuff and just keep telling myself that the bad stuff will end and everything will be okay. I'm really surprised by how I'm taking all of this. I've really learned to controll myself over the last year or so. I've changed so much in that respect and I feel so much better. That could be a side effect from everything (or most everything) starting to fall into place in my life. It feels good....it really does :). I'm soooo enjoying being on my own. I know I've said that a million times already, but it's soo true. I'm a lot less stressed out and I can do what I want, when I want. I just love it! I put in for a vacation the first week of September which I'll probably use to celebrate my birthday....eeep! I'm sooo excited...I'll be 21! Legally able to drink and gamble. Not that I'm going to drink in excess. Thats just stupid. But anywhoo,Maybe I'll get a couple people together and go to the casino :) that would rrrrooooccckkkk!
I've written some pretty cool poems recently...one that I'm really proud of is called "Faith". check them out on my deviantart page if you feel so led. I know I would :-P.
wow, it's really hard to think of stuff to write about in here these days...especially since I can't really talk about recent events...which is why I've been writing in my private journal pretty much every day. Sorry, you'll never be able to read that. ;-)
later all!...hopefully I'll have something more interesting for you next time.
posted by Lauren 5/22/2007 10:11:00 AM
Friday, May 11, 2007
Well, judging by my last entry, I think you all can surmise that I've been pretty damn happy for the past couple weeks. Things are starting to fall into place with me and It's really nice. Although, I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY nervous about something coming up in the next couple months...But, I'll get through it, and It will be alright. It's really nice to have things going reasonably smoothly considering what I was going through at this time last year. I really wish I could have the CIA erase that part of my memory or something. It still literally haunts me even a year later. I really hope I get a phone call somewhere down the line with a very sincere apology for what was done to me. Not that I'll ever EVER forgive, but still, it would be nice.
before I forget....Hannah is getting married tomorrow....I wish her the very best of luck and happiness. And, Monday is her last day at work....HOLY CRAP, I'm going to miss her sooooo much. Her and Kate are my only means of sanity. It's going to suck sooo much not having break with her on Tuesdays and chatting away about random stuff. I Really hope to stay in touch with her...and I think I will :).
I know this is kind of a short entry, but I really want to write in my other journal before I have to go to bed.
goodnight all :)
posted by Lauren 5/11/2007 08:47:00 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
Dear Diary,
I'm in Love <3
;-)
posted by Lauren 5/04/2007 10:21:00 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Just a side note before I start this entry: Happy Birthday Hannah!!! :-D
Things are still a tad bit crazy for me. I have all these emotions running through my head and I just wish that I could let them out somehow. Although, I truely feel that this isn't the right time. But people have been trying to beat it out of me which is a little bit uncomfortable, but at the same time a little bit soothing because it's about the person that's trying to beat it out of me. I know, I make absolutely no sense. Someday it will though.
I had a bit of fun on Tuesday night when I closed at work...I did a few extra things to make sure that that lazy co-worker of mine have more to do in the morning. Haha, I'm such an ass. Now watch it all blow up in my face and have her be flaming mad. But ya know what?....OH WELL. I moved some display stuff that we put the food on to the back so she had to bring them out this morning, and I also moved the chairs extra far away so she'd have to walk a lot farther to bring them back....*evil laugh* And the funny part is, it's going to continue. And I'll think of more and more stuff to make her job that much more difficult in the morning. Heh. I'm so evil. But like I said, theres only worse stuff ahead if her laziness continues.
I'm also helping Heather plan the Harry Potter night for when the last book comes out. I'm EXTREMELY excited about this. I think Heather got the approval to do a costume party like a month before the book comes out to get everyone excited for it (Even more than they already are). I'm going to dress up as Professor Trelawny! HEHEHE! I'm gonna see if I can pull this look off:
HEHEHEHEHE!!!! It's going to be sooooo much fun. I'm soo psyched for this.
I FINALLY got my cable back on after stealing it for a month.....lol. So tonight I got caught up with Real World. I am actually really jealous of them. They got to work at this place called Outward Bound Wilderness and they got two groups of kids who were victims of Hurrecane Katrina and showed them a good time. They brought them rock climbing, hiking, and all sorts of fun stuff. Of course it was extremely strenuous and they were camping in the wilderness, but it just looked like so much fun. I would have given anything to be there doing that as well. It looked like a place where I could have really shown my skills as a leader instead of slumping in the back like I ussually do. Even though I'm extremely introverted, I think that I could have totally done that. It just looked so amazing. Heres the website if you want to check it out: Outward Bound
That must be amazing to have a job like that. I'm really fed up with certain aspects of my job lately. Most of them involve my boss. She's just such a fucking bitch. If it's at all possible to screw you over, she will. I just don't understand how someone can find it in them to be so cruel to someone else. I mean, I'm not the nicest of people, but I would never in my wildest dreams do any of the things that she's done to people. It's just absolutely horrible. She screwed Hannah over and forced her to give her two weeks notice when all she wanted to do was transfer. Theres more to that story, but the point is, How could you do that?? Especially to Hannah who did aboslutely nothing to nobody. My only thought is, maybe I'd better leave before she thinks of a way to screw me over. And if she new my whole story, she'd have a lot to screw me over on without an ounce of compassion.
Well anyways, I've been typing this for over an hour (while talking to Rae on AIM) and I haven't really gotten anywhere. lol. Oh well, I guess thats all for today. later!
posted by Lauren 5/02/2007 10:53:00 PM
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