Saturday, April 25, 2009

Haven't written in here in a couple months. I guess that's nothing new for me now a-days. This thing has kind of had it's time I think. Although I've had it since Freshman year of high school so it would be kind of sad to delete ALL of those posts at this point. But anyways.

I guess this is nothing new for me, but, I've been very disappointed in people lately. The part that isn't new is that it's with people that I'm close to. I'm extremely tired of being treated badly. I hear people telling me that they're my friends and how much they like me and then I get dumped on and they take advantage of me. It's partially my fault, I'm just really too nice for my own good and I need to learn how to say "no" to these people. But I can't! I can't help it! I want to help. I really do. Nothing makes me happier than helping someone else and I normally go out of my way to do so. It's just who I am. If you ask me for a favor, chances are, I'll do it unless their is a VERY good reason why I can't. It may seem like that with this I'm saying that I'm expecting things in return, but that is sooo far off. I don't care if you do anything for me in return. I could honestly care less about that. What I do care about is people asking favors of me and then after I do them, treating me like a leper. My question is, how can people find it within themselves to be so horrible? I couldn't do that to someone. I would not be able to live with myself if I did that.

Another thing that seems to have been showing it's ugly head recently is people acting one way around me and then another way when I'm around them and their friends. Am I that horrible that people need to be ashamed of me?! It seems so childish to be talking about this and actually being bugged by it, but it's also equally as childish to commit said act. I don't really know what to do. The only thing I can think of is talk to these people and tell them how I feel...yeah right. Everyone knows I'm a non-confrontational person and who is going to respond well to that?

I don't know, just another thing to be praying about, I guess....

posted by Lauren 4/25/2009 03:41:00 PM

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