Friday, February 19, 2010
Only about 4 days since my last post!!! I'm getting better!!!!
This week has been a real test for me. Mostly because I'm incredibly broke. I don't think I've ever been more broke in my life. I've had to ration everything very carefully. I am grateful to God for my parents though. My Dad was kind enough to loan me money to pay my electric bill, and my mom bought me some food and gave me $20 for gas. I am also grateful to God that he gave me the mind to not be so stubborn and ask for help when I need it. I have issues with asking for help. Especially when it involves money. I'm always of the mind that I can survive everything up to armageddon myself. It may be true to a point, I am very resourceful. But occasionally I do need the help of others and that's the reality I have trouble grasping sometimes. But really, I'm 23, living on my own with a crappy salary. The fact that I've even made it this long is pretty amazing! I know of some people who have moved out and ended up back home because they couldn't make it anymore. However, despite all of the struggles that I've been through, not just making it on my own...but in my relationship, at work, and everyday things, I truly believe that it's all going to be worth it someday. I know with God's help I'll make it and everything will turn out just fine. Things happen when they're supposed to happen.
I need to start reading again. Big time. Even if it's something light and stupid. I'm about half way through a book called "Back to the Garden" which is about Woodstock. It's very good, But I need to sit down someday and finish it and read all my books that I have back-logged. Haha.
I've been watching "The Office" lately. A lot. Haha! I had been wanting to check it out for a while and I finally did. They have all of the seasons on Netflix instant streaming and I've just been loving it. Next show I plan on checking out is "The Sopranos". I obviously have never had HBO so I've never seen that, but it looks interesting. I love how I get into TV shows after they're long over. Although The Office is Still filming, but it's already on it's sixth season or something. :-P
anywhoo. That is my entry for today...time to watch more of The Office. :-D ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/19/2010 08:11:00 PM
Monday, February 15, 2010
Once again, it has been a while since my last blog...I really need to start updating this thing more. I also realize that I need to change the set-up of this thing since it's a little out of date...actually very out of date.
I know I've said this many times, but God is great. It's amazing how much I've learned in just this past week. One thing is, God is definitely trying to teach me to trust in Him. There have been a lot of situations recently that I have been really upset about. Mostly monetary, but that's nothing out of the ordinary. I keep freaking out about my lack of money and I don't think I have enough of it, but somehow, I always do. It's weird, because when you add up my expenses compared to my paycheck, there's more money going out than coming in. Yet, I can pay it all, and still have some to spare to do something with my friends. I have no idea how that happens. Sometimes I may have to pass on a frivolous outing, but I always have what I need. I mean, don't get me wrong, I have asked for help on occasion. But, I have to say, I am really blessed. I'm 23 years old, living on my own with just a mediocre job. I have to 2 retirement plans set up, too. I do often get upset about my lack of money, but everything always works out. God is trying to tell me to trust in Him. Even if I can't do it myself, there is always help out there for me. I have wonderful parents and friends on my side. I know things will get better someday, I just need for God to show me what I'm meant to do in this world in due time.
One thing I do need to do is set myself free of certain happenings a couple years ago that have me tied down. Still, it's bugging me. Someday I'll be able to give it all to God.
Some great things have been happening. Last week on Superbowl Sunday, Denise and I went to Monroe, CT for Chaz and AJ's "tailgate" party. (Chaz and AJ are the guys I listen to on PLR every morning...they're awesome) It was really fun. I had a great time. I got to meet Chaz and AJ which was awesome. Listening to them every morning made me realize that a career in radio could be fun. So, that's something to consider...I'll figure it out someday. But anyways, it was at this really nice place called "Rivalry Sports Grille". Really great food, wonderful atmosphere.
Also, last Monday, Dad and I went to Northampton, MA to see YES in concert. Good show, despite the fact that Jon Anderson wasn't there. He had been sick or something and they got a new singer who is pretty good. Rick Wakemen's son is HOT. I will say that. lol.
Been trying to play my guitar a bit more, too. I took it out again recently and forgot how much I missed it. I have to say, it's a little difficult playing when you have short stubby fingers like mine, but I hold my own.
anywhoo. I guess that's it for now, Ciao!
posted by Lauren 2/15/2010 08:23:00 PM
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